ahh I can't sleep.


I'm so nervous about my interview for a permanent position at the label tomorrow (ok well I guess it's "today" now). I want/need this job more than anything right now, and I just hope that they realize how hard I'm willing to work if I get it!!!!!! I've been working hard on this temp position so I hope I've proven my worthiness.




and tomorrow (again...it's "today" now lol) I get to go out to dinner with a cool guy, so I have that to look forward to as well! You know, it's weird...when I lived in NY I never had anyone hit on me...EVER. And here I can't even walk down the street without guys cat-calling me....it's annoying, but at the same time it's probably the most flattering thing that could happen to me at this point in my life haha.

oh annnd Friday is "the big day" I am FINALLY starting my chestpiece!!!! I'm extremely nervous but soooo excited! I always second guess myself before I make major decisions in my life and I've been battling with my mind about getting this done for a while. I know once it gets started I'm going to love it and be so glad that I have it, it's just the wait that fuels that little bit of doubt in my little head lol.

Sooo I was sitting at work today and I got a phonecall from the wonderful and amazing Mr. saintpiercing

Turns out his shop is only like 3 blocks away from my office! So I took a little walk down there after work tonight to meet him! I left with three new holes in my body, plans for 7 more in the next 2 weeks (5 on each side), and I finally took the plunge towards my chestpiece and have an awesome artist working things out for me!!!

Little does he know that now I will be hanging out in the shop and scaring away all of the customers with my crazy quirky attitude mwahahaha.


so yeah I ended up getting 3 microdermals in my right hip. They look sexy as fuck! I can't wait to get the other side done!!!!! my jewelry is pretty sweet too because it's a star on the top, a bat in the middle and a star on the bottom. I kept laughing when he was doing the piercings because even though it hurt it tickled really bad at the same time. I don't know about him, but I thought I took it like a champ

"man, a bigger hole would be nice"



I'll post pics when it's not bandaged up and bad...until then:


muh hip....freshly pierced (you can't see the shapes very well on my stupid sidekick cam)



Hello Saint

so I got a call from my casting agent friend and I'm going to be shooting music video tomorrow....and it's for Fall Out Boy. Ohhh irony, this should be interesting lol.


I had a dream last night that I woke up this morning and saw my face on the front page here....but I guess that didn't really happen Seriously it felt so real and I was so excited. Damn.













so last night I went to the Viper Room with a buddy from work. I had never been there before and it was soooo much fun!

It's kinda funny, when I lived in NY I only had a handful of drinks bought for me.....but so far out here every time I've gone out I haven't paid for anything. I almost feel bad to tell the truth! I'm all about being fair, and I feel like people shouldn't buy me things unless I do something to deserve it.

Annnnyways I got a lifetime VIP card to the Dirty Lounge downstairs at the Viper Room so that's fuckin' SWEEEEET! That means, no matter who's playing, I get in and there's no cover charge. PLUS I get a huge discount on my bar tab which is awesome. Seriously, my friend who was buying everyone drinks bought: 2 beers, 4 tumblers of Whiskey, and 3 Vodka Redbulls and I saw his bill was only $30.....that's a steal. haha
Volcom and TAPOUT had stocked the lounge with tons of swag and somehow in my drunken klepto ways I ended up with 4 shirts, 2 belt buckles, 2 bottle openers, 2 lighters, 2 sunglasses, and one CD. Then I proceeded to call my best friend who was in town and bug him to come over even though it was 2am and he had to get up at 6:30 for a shoot haha (me = huge douchebag when drinking vodka redbulls).



OH! So the most important part of last night was that I made really good friends with the co-owner and he books all events for the Viper Lounge. Annnnnd he wants to do an event with SG!!! I mean, he REALLY wants to do an event with SG haha. How fuckin' sick would that be....a legendary rock bar (owned by Johnny Depp might I add) and Suicide Girls teaming up to host an event!!!!! I just need to figure out who to contact on this site to make this shit happen.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I GOT A JOB! A REAL JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!


AT CAPITOL RECORDS


I work in the fucking capitol tower....holy fucking shit. I'm literally crying. oh my god.

soooo guess who's going to be in the new Katy Perry video......THIS KID!


I got the phonecall yesterday so I left Sacramento this morning at about 4:30am annnnd I just got back to LA about an hour ago. I have to be on-location and camera ready by 3pm....oy! Today is going to be a very hectic day....and tomorrow is the same thing (it's a 2 day shoot).


I'm excited, I don't know how much camera time I'll get...but it's fun to do nonetheless!


I wonder if she'll remember me from when I was at EMI and she came in and played for the marketing team in the office last summer before we signed her.

I have an apartment! I finally have a place to call home


one of the other divers is subleasing her North Hollywood apartment to me and I couldn't be happier. She is also considering splitting the cost of rent with me because she wants to keep some of her stuff at the place so I'd be getting away with a STEAL for rent!!!! I'm so incredibly happy right now. I finally have a place to call home, and that means more than anything right now!


Today is my last day here in Sacramento at the fair. All-in-all despite the shitty things that have happened to me in the past couple weeks, it was a good fair. The people were amazing and I got to meet some great new friends.




turns out, last night the valet at the hotel asked me why I parked so far away, and I told him I can't afford the parking and he said "oh, I wish you had told me, I would've just comped your parking" thanks for telling me on my LAST night at the fancy pants hotel dude. But at least tonight when I get back from tearing down that pain-in-the-ass diving tank and set I will have my car valet parked for me for free and I can sleep in tomorrow before taking my 6 hour trip back to Hollywood.





that's so weird to say I live in Hollywood....





anyways, the bungee people gave me these pictures after my bungee jump yesterday (I'm gonna miss not being able to bungee for free whenever I want haha)


enjoy!



getting ready to jump (I'm 130ft up in the air btw) and the guy in the cage was pushing me haha


I bungee jump with style (must be the diver in me)....doing a triple twist on my way down!









and if you haven't had a chance yet, please check out my 2 sets in MR!

SMASH!

and

Cattails


thank you loves

well...you win some, you lose some I guess




I'm gonna be completely honest, I'm kinda bummed as to how my last set was received, mostly because it's my absolute favorite that I've ever done. Why do some people find it necessary to make fun of my weight? I'm a tiny girl, I always have been. I eat A LOT and that's why I find comments like "please eat something" so insulting I guess. You wouldn't tell an overweight girl to hit the gym would you? No. Because that's insulting. So what makes it ok to tell skinny girls to eat? ugh. And my God, if one more person sends me a message telling me that I shouldn't have smashed a guitar I'm going to punch a wall. IT WAS A PIECE OF SHIT CHEAPY GUITAR THAT WAS ALREADY BROKEN....IT'S AN INANIMATE OBJECT....GET OVER IT. Rock stars smash very expensive guitars onstage all the time....soooo what's the problem???


and once again....the photos being out of order when put in the flash gallery has NOTHING to do with me or how I submitted it. I cannot fix it, it was uploaded correctly, it's just messed up. Staff have been informed of the problem and I was told that it's a bug that cannot be corrected.


sorry I'm just frustrated and exhausted I guess. (a pig because I'm stuck at this godforsaken fair and I am sick of it and it's driving me mad)