Sorry, I don't really have anything to say.
The day is beautiful, I am happy and laughing, singing to David Bowie, and have wonderful friends to play with, and refuse to be bummed.
tremble like a flowwwwwaaaaa
villalon
RDJ thinks ya'll should give it another go. Seriously? Yes, listen to the little man in his dinner jacket. His whiskers mean business.
What do all three of these have in common?
*All three were shot in the same apartment
*Same day
*Hot girls in sweaters and panties
BUT
- only one has been bought so far...
-there's another one coming in the little series, starring the sexy Hemi_, I cannot WAIT to see it!
Seriously, people! How awesome would it be for all four of us to have our sets from this weekend bought? You can help make that happen!
That's all I care to do for now, see you all down the road! Smile and enjoy some titties!
The day is beautiful, I am happy and laughing, singing to David Bowie, and have wonderful friends to play with, and refuse to be bummed.
tremble like a flowwwwwaaaaa
villalon
RDJ thinks ya'll should give it another go. Seriously? Yes, listen to the little man in his dinner jacket. His whiskers mean business.
What do all three of these have in common?
*All three were shot in the same apartment
*Same day
*Hot girls in sweaters and panties
BUT
- only one has been bought so far...
-there's another one coming in the little series, starring the sexy Hemi_, I cannot WAIT to see it!
Seriously, people! How awesome would it be for all four of us to have our sets from this weekend bought? You can help make that happen!
That's all I care to do for now, see you all down the road! Smile and enjoy some titties!
HUZZAH, BITCHES!
I can't believe my new set is here, now! I'm loving all the advice, encouragements, and comments that you've been giving, and I urge you to continue on in such a wonderful way!
Cinco de Mayo was a blast, of course!
too much tequila and perfect number of friends
Found out today that my work with a fellow grad student may be published! We're working on a research paper on micro expressions that started as a simple observation at a bar and is turning into quite the ordeal!
Feeling great about this and hoping our hard work pays off.
Speaking of hard work paying off, really feeling good about the set Milloux and I shot for you! Go take a look, especially if you haven't already, and let us know what you think!
I can't believe my new set is here, now! I'm loving all the advice, encouragements, and comments that you've been giving, and I urge you to continue on in such a wonderful way!
Cinco de Mayo was a blast, of course!
too much tequila and perfect number of friends
Found out today that my work with a fellow grad student may be published! We're working on a research paper on micro expressions that started as a simple observation at a bar and is turning into quite the ordeal!
Feeling great about this and hoping our hard work pays off. Speaking of hard work paying off, really feeling good about the set Milloux and I shot for you! Go take a look, especially if you haven't already, and let us know what you think!
BY THE WAY, Think I'm gonna get drunk on chat tonight. I'd LOVE to chat with you!
The latest set I photographed of Brandie is now in Member Review, to be followed at 3am tonight by my set shot by Milloux. And my girl, Hemi_ has a set coming out tomorrow night! Support your Seattle ladies!
(this isn't the one coming out of Hemi tomorrow, this is one I have of her, though!)
I view this set right now as my largest work so far for SG and the last round of energy as a Hopeful that I have for a few months. I have recently gone through some difficult and strange medical b.s. called vaginismus that leaves me unable to have a pleasurable sex life, and it's had strange and challenging effects on my identity as a normally very sexual creature.
Really, I enjoy modeling for all of you! Every time I have posed and gone through freshly-shot photos, I get so excited about making you swoon. :-). If it isn't in the cards this time, I will regroup and try again, as I always do. If I do become a Suicide Girl, the same process will happen, though most likely with larger enthusiasm.
Either way, the thrill of taking photos for gals for SG and otherwise is a wonderful experience and nothing completes a shoot quite like seeing the pride a gal gets when she sees her beauty through my eyes.
Tonight, at 3am, go take a peek at Serenade the Dawn in MR. I promise what you see is me feeling pleasure at the idea of you seeing me. There's a chance you cross my mind, you know!
'villalon would love this shot!,
'I hope Selene is enjoying this view of my fine china.'
'Mmm this one's for nirvash.'
Maybe you'll fall in love with the set...I sure hope so! And always, aaaalways, I welcome constructive criticism, dirty tags, and comments that make me laugh and cry.
Xx,
Kelpie
(taken just today, for you!)
The latest set I photographed of Brandie is now in Member Review, to be followed at 3am tonight by my set shot by Milloux. And my girl, Hemi_ has a set coming out tomorrow night! Support your Seattle ladies!
(this isn't the one coming out of Hemi tomorrow, this is one I have of her, though!)
I view this set right now as my largest work so far for SG and the last round of energy as a Hopeful that I have for a few months. I have recently gone through some difficult and strange medical b.s. called vaginismus that leaves me unable to have a pleasurable sex life, and it's had strange and challenging effects on my identity as a normally very sexual creature.
Really, I enjoy modeling for all of you! Every time I have posed and gone through freshly-shot photos, I get so excited about making you swoon. :-). If it isn't in the cards this time, I will regroup and try again, as I always do. If I do become a Suicide Girl, the same process will happen, though most likely with larger enthusiasm.
Either way, the thrill of taking photos for gals for SG and otherwise is a wonderful experience and nothing completes a shoot quite like seeing the pride a gal gets when she sees her beauty through my eyes.
Tonight, at 3am, go take a peek at Serenade the Dawn in MR. I promise what you see is me feeling pleasure at the idea of you seeing me. There's a chance you cross my mind, you know!
'villalon would love this shot!,
'I hope Selene is enjoying this view of my fine china.'
'Mmm this one's for nirvash.'
Maybe you'll fall in love with the set...I sure hope so! And always, aaaalways, I welcome constructive criticism, dirty tags, and comments that make me laugh and cry.
Xx,
Kelpie
(taken just today, for you!)
Slowly healing and want to thank you all for your thoughts and encouragements.
New set coming out this Sunday, shot by the magnificent Milloux ! Will this be my first FP set?!
Big changes in my work schedule and difficult medical issues make me cope the best way I know how... getting my hair done tomorrow! Trying out a color I haven't had for a few years. :-) And since I am visiting the family matriarch at the end of May, it will save my Grammar the trouble of freaking out and forcing me into a pricey salon because my hair is half blue. Oh, and I got kind of a promotion at work, working more with professionals and patients' families, so I want to blend in a bit better for now.
Anyway, tell me about your exciting plans for the upcoming season! I am excited to hear others' dreams and fantasies.
Xx, Kelpie
New set coming out this Sunday, shot by the magnificent Milloux ! Will this be my first FP set?!
Big changes in my work schedule and difficult medical issues make me cope the best way I know how... getting my hair done tomorrow! Trying out a color I haven't had for a few years. :-) And since I am visiting the family matriarch at the end of May, it will save my Grammar the trouble of freaking out and forcing me into a pricey salon because my hair is half blue. Oh, and I got kind of a promotion at work, working more with professionals and patients' families, so I want to blend in a bit better for now.
Anyway, tell me about your exciting plans for the upcoming season! I am excited to hear others' dreams and fantasies.
Xx, Kelpie
For those of you wondering why you haven't heard back from me this week, things have been difficult. Not sad, though. I will feel quite triumphant soon, to be sure. Surgery today, then physical therapy next week or so. Wish me zydrate luck and hydro dreams!
I am halfway through a wonderful book that a member got me *pounce* and the damn thing has me crying. The heroine is tragic but determined and has me filtering through my own shit and gaining resolve quickly. I am experiencing life-changing trauma at the hands of a fantasy paperback. Damn, books-just when you expect to pass the time your world is flipped inside out but the twist is often beautiful. The last time I felt this way about a book it helped me resolve to leave a nasty, lie-filled, judgemental relationship and helped me find my strength unknown and, eventually, Hideki. I feel powerful as Rhapsody becomes powerful.
I am halfway through a wonderful book that a member got me *pounce* and the damn thing has me crying. The heroine is tragic but determined and has me filtering through my own shit and gaining resolve quickly. I am experiencing life-changing trauma at the hands of a fantasy paperback. Damn, books-just when you expect to pass the time your world is flipped inside out but the twist is often beautiful. The last time I felt this way about a book it helped me resolve to leave a nasty, lie-filled, judgemental relationship and helped me find my strength unknown and, eventually, Hideki. I feel powerful as Rhapsody becomes powerful.
Topless Tuesday~
It can hurt to have someone address you rudely but to see people verbally attack others unprovoked seriously makes me cry sometimes.
I am happy despite the pain and fear going on in my life, because I know what I have conquered in the past and I know what great support I have. Not sure what things will be like now but I am ready to face it.
It can hurt to have someone address you rudely but to see people verbally attack others unprovoked seriously makes me cry sometimes.
I am happy despite the pain and fear going on in my life, because I know what I have conquered in the past and I know what great support I have. Not sure what things will be like now but I am ready to face it.
Hello Drowned Darlings~
If you haven't taken a look, yet, at all of the gorgeous SGs making videos about FB responses, you should really check them out. Kurosune, Elody, Pthalo, Caia, and other gals are addressing the bashing that we see on the Suicide Girls' FB pages all of the time. "She's not a Suicide Girl, she's too skinny!", "I'd make a better SG than that skank," and "Eat a cheeseburger" are, by far, my all-time favorites. We can all take a good laugh about these comments and more because of our strong community and our own confidence. The majority of people making negative comments, I believe, have a strong misunderstanding of what SG is all about, and probably don't have a membership anyway. Ladies and gents, fuck all else; what makes us all different is what makes us divine.
On to personal:
Doctors recommended physical therapy.
Surgery in two weeks.
clearly, even digestive charts need a little pizzaz in the way of boobies!
I'm feeling strangely confident, mostly in the from of taking charge. Gave my boss and ultimatum and now she's offering me the schedule change I wanted (no more night shifts for me, muthafuckas!). Giving in to a couple of compulsions and frantically cleaning and stripping the color out of my hair (sorry, didn't take any really fun pictures with the blue) coupled with the support of a loving companion in my life and some great friends, not to mention the support I've gotten from you... thank you.
Fan Service is still in MR and, can you believe it? 2735 comments and 98%!
My favorite set, L'amour et le Soleil just hit 1400 comments. Things have slowed significantly but, really, I fell in love with this set and loved how it represents me.
Hideki set me up on a date at the end of the month. The girl seems cute, but after the last fiasco (flaky, annoying, whiny thing) and with recent health issues, the last thing I am able to comfortably think about is sex. I don't even have the energy or willpower to flirt.
Speaking of great sexiness, there are some AMAZING sets in MR that you should check out!
Cruella-Expectations
Dwam-Wanderlust
Atomic-Stay With Me
Junchuriki-Hollywood
...now throwing out a little something from my first set and one from my first favorite of mine: HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
If you haven't taken a look, yet, at all of the gorgeous SGs making videos about FB responses, you should really check them out. Kurosune, Elody, Pthalo, Caia, and other gals are addressing the bashing that we see on the Suicide Girls' FB pages all of the time. "She's not a Suicide Girl, she's too skinny!", "I'd make a better SG than that skank," and "Eat a cheeseburger" are, by far, my all-time favorites. We can all take a good laugh about these comments and more because of our strong community and our own confidence. The majority of people making negative comments, I believe, have a strong misunderstanding of what SG is all about, and probably don't have a membership anyway. Ladies and gents, fuck all else; what makes us all different is what makes us divine.
On to personal:
Doctors recommended physical therapy.
Surgery in two weeks.
clearly, even digestive charts need a little pizzaz in the way of boobies!
I'm feeling strangely confident, mostly in the from of taking charge. Gave my boss and ultimatum and now she's offering me the schedule change I wanted (no more night shifts for me, muthafuckas!). Giving in to a couple of compulsions and frantically cleaning and stripping the color out of my hair (sorry, didn't take any really fun pictures with the blue) coupled with the support of a loving companion in my life and some great friends, not to mention the support I've gotten from you... thank you.
Fan Service is still in MR and, can you believe it? 2735 comments and 98%!
My favorite set, L'amour et le Soleil just hit 1400 comments. Things have slowed significantly but, really, I fell in love with this set and loved how it represents me.
Hideki set me up on a date at the end of the month. The girl seems cute, but after the last fiasco (flaky, annoying, whiny thing) and with recent health issues, the last thing I am able to comfortably think about is sex. I don't even have the energy or willpower to flirt.
Speaking of great sexiness, there are some AMAZING sets in MR that you should check out!
Cruella-Expectations
Dwam-Wanderlust
Atomic-Stay With Me
Junchuriki-Hollywood
...now throwing out a little something from my first set and one from my first favorite of mine: HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
*Update*
my hair is blue, and my throat hurts so badly from crying/singing at the same time. A big part of my life won't be the same from now on, and my sexuality and female confidence is threatened.
I have a name for what I have, and a resolve to do the therapies that will make sex pleasurable and possible again. Nothing rare or life-threatening, but devastating nonetheless. Hideki is immensely supportive, and I feel lucky to have him with me always.
What, then, will be my source of control and my rebellion against my body? I've made a goal for myself: to not dye, strip, blow dry, curl, trim, or use product (aside from oil) in my hair until my birthday. If I succeed, I'll treat myself to a makeover at the hands of my dearest, loving gbf.
THANK YOU to each of you who sent me encouragements and good energies! Your support did a lot to raise my spirits, and I hope that I can return that confidence to you someday! Love you all so much
*END UPDATE* TOPLESS TUESDAY BELOW***
I go in to the Doctor/ Surgeon's office today for a diagnosis... please keep me in your thoughts.
FOUR away
*UPDATED TOPLESS TUESDAY (and yes, they have gotten bigger)*
my hair is blue, and my throat hurts so badly from crying/singing at the same time. A big part of my life won't be the same from now on, and my sexuality and female confidence is threatened.
I have a name for what I have, and a resolve to do the therapies that will make sex pleasurable and possible again. Nothing rare or life-threatening, but devastating nonetheless. Hideki is immensely supportive, and I feel lucky to have him with me always.
What, then, will be my source of control and my rebellion against my body? I've made a goal for myself: to not dye, strip, blow dry, curl, trim, or use product (aside from oil) in my hair until my birthday. If I succeed, I'll treat myself to a makeover at the hands of my dearest, loving gbf.
THANK YOU to each of you who sent me encouragements and good energies! Your support did a lot to raise my spirits, and I hope that I can return that confidence to you someday! Love you all so much
*END UPDATE* TOPLESS TUESDAY BELOW***
I go in to the Doctor/ Surgeon's office today for a diagnosis... please keep me in your thoughts.
FOUR away
*UPDATED TOPLESS TUESDAY (and yes, they have gotten bigger)*
The SG book signing and After Party were successful!
GREAT night with Brandie, Cruella, Hemi_, Toxic, Delaney, Bully after an afternoon saying hello to Cadavre, Radeo, and Rigel. I didn't stay during much of the signing because I was starving and then embarrassed myself and then needed a cold drink.
But ChaCha was a lot of fun (as you can see). After all the hotties left for the night, my friends and I walked down to Purr (a great gay bar) and I was charmed by an awesome member (whose SG member name I cannot recall) whom I will call Macklemore (who bought me the best burrito I've had in my life). He was so much fun, and I am amazed by some of the great members I got to meet that night! Sorry I didn't get to meet so many more of you!
Anyway, the BEST part, which I am excited to show you: working on a little something with our beloved Hemi_. It will take some time, but I cannot wait to show all of you!
What a freakin' babe and a pleasure to work with! And she would make an excellent Suicide Girl; I am sure of it!
Don't forget that Brandie and I shot a project as well that will be available in a bit over a month!
*L'amour* -- TEN votes from 1400!
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GREAT night with Brandie, Cruella, Hemi_, Toxic, Delaney, Bully after an afternoon saying hello to Cadavre, Radeo, and Rigel. I didn't stay during much of the signing because I was starving and then embarrassed myself and then needed a cold drink.
But ChaCha was a lot of fun (as you can see). After all the hotties left for the night, my friends and I walked down to Purr (a great gay bar) and I was charmed by an awesome member (whose SG member name I cannot recall) whom I will call Macklemore (who bought me the best burrito I've had in my life). He was so much fun, and I am amazed by some of the great members I got to meet that night! Sorry I didn't get to meet so many more of you!
Anyway, the BEST part, which I am excited to show you: working on a little something with our beloved Hemi_. It will take some time, but I cannot wait to show all of you!
What a freakin' babe and a pleasure to work with! And she would make an excellent Suicide Girl; I am sure of it!
Don't forget that Brandie and I shot a project as well that will be available in a bit over a month!
*L'amour* -- TEN votes from 1400!
Twitter!!!
Suicide Girls Book Signing and After Party tonight in Seattle!!! 
Hope to see you all there!
So yesterday I got my newest addition to tattoos; my LOTR piece, incomplete. There will be designs added around it to complete the sleeve in a few weeks:
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iHf7MaX23M[/YOUTUBE]
Growing up in a guilt-ridden, conservative family, I recall even having to sneak hard-back copies of LOTR and The Hobbit into my home (wizards and magic, etc.). I remember many, many songs in the books, which of course, did not make it into the films, and don't really recall reading this song, but when I snuck into see Return of the King in high school with my best friend, I cried so strongly for Pippin.
We all would like to imagine ourselves as heroic men or graceful eternal elves, but truly if I were anything aside from myself in a world like Middle Earth, I would be a little hobbit. And not just that, most likely a Took. Silly, nonsensical, fun-loving, and with an affinity for trouble.
When Pippin ends up endangering the lives of his companions and the promise of their mission, he gets put under the harsh supervision of Gandalf for his and the others' protection. No longer finding himself in a victorious, esteemed position (had led a glorious battle with the Ents against Isengard), Pippin feels useless. He commits himself to the Steward of Gondor, Denethor, as recompense for the loss of his dearest son, Boromir, and finds himself serving in a large, cold, forlorn hall of a bitter, calloused would-be king.
Where Pippin comes from, he expresses, there are no grand melodies made for the likes of such acoustically-overwhelming places of grandeur, only simple songs of country folk.
Pippin feels he has nothing left to offer the world, and is an empty shell. Denethor feasts alone in the silent Grand Hall while his only living son and all of his soldiers leave Gondor to fight in a horrific suicide mission, and now poor Pippin has to muster a song.
Such a devastating, sad melody; 'home is gone behind me; nothing could ever be the same, and there is a world of potential loneliness and fear ahead.'
In the end, Pippin is more than triumphant--he is restored to great heroism and his best friend is reunited with him! Returning to the place he calls home would feel so refreshing, but the maturity and pang of that few days of absolute obliteration of heart could never leave him.
I was concerned, this week, with a lot of complacent cruelty I have seen among people I have worked with and befriended; they've been trying and hoping for too long with no reward and have appointed themselves experts in whatever area they feel they excel in (for some, they believe it is everything). They seem to enjoy bringing down the happy, kind, gentle spirits around them who have fresh ideas and thoughts. How terrifying to think that I have seen my self display such qualities at times! After watching one particular fellow at work get bullied by a domineering bitch, I stepped in and exploded. "If you were the expert on this, YOU would be lead here and not rotting at the bottom rung, wishing you were worth more!" How disgusted I was with myself.
The young man being harassed was thankful, and I felt strong and heroic for but a moment before I saw the desolation I had caused on the bully. Had I pushed it too far?
And when I got home that day, I saw some of the same bullying on SG that had pushed away a good friend of mine, and I kept my mouth shut. Never again do I want to feel like a bully.
I left these concerns on the listening ear of a girl I look up to, and she sent me something beautiful:
“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.” -K. Vonnegut
Who do you look up to? What is it about their personality that stands out to you?
Are they kind, gentle, caring, compassionate, confident and genuine?
Hope to see you all there!
So yesterday I got my newest addition to tattoos; my LOTR piece, incomplete. There will be designs added around it to complete the sleeve in a few weeks:
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iHf7MaX23M[/YOUTUBE]
Growing up in a guilt-ridden, conservative family, I recall even having to sneak hard-back copies of LOTR and The Hobbit into my home (wizards and magic, etc.). I remember many, many songs in the books, which of course, did not make it into the films, and don't really recall reading this song, but when I snuck into see Return of the King in high school with my best friend, I cried so strongly for Pippin.
We all would like to imagine ourselves as heroic men or graceful eternal elves, but truly if I were anything aside from myself in a world like Middle Earth, I would be a little hobbit. And not just that, most likely a Took. Silly, nonsensical, fun-loving, and with an affinity for trouble.
When Pippin ends up endangering the lives of his companions and the promise of their mission, he gets put under the harsh supervision of Gandalf for his and the others' protection. No longer finding himself in a victorious, esteemed position (had led a glorious battle with the Ents against Isengard), Pippin feels useless. He commits himself to the Steward of Gondor, Denethor, as recompense for the loss of his dearest son, Boromir, and finds himself serving in a large, cold, forlorn hall of a bitter, calloused would-be king.
Where Pippin comes from, he expresses, there are no grand melodies made for the likes of such acoustically-overwhelming places of grandeur, only simple songs of country folk.
Pippin feels he has nothing left to offer the world, and is an empty shell. Denethor feasts alone in the silent Grand Hall while his only living son and all of his soldiers leave Gondor to fight in a horrific suicide mission, and now poor Pippin has to muster a song.
Such a devastating, sad melody; 'home is gone behind me; nothing could ever be the same, and there is a world of potential loneliness and fear ahead.'
In the end, Pippin is more than triumphant--he is restored to great heroism and his best friend is reunited with him! Returning to the place he calls home would feel so refreshing, but the maturity and pang of that few days of absolute obliteration of heart could never leave him.
I was concerned, this week, with a lot of complacent cruelty I have seen among people I have worked with and befriended; they've been trying and hoping for too long with no reward and have appointed themselves experts in whatever area they feel they excel in (for some, they believe it is everything). They seem to enjoy bringing down the happy, kind, gentle spirits around them who have fresh ideas and thoughts. How terrifying to think that I have seen my self display such qualities at times! After watching one particular fellow at work get bullied by a domineering bitch, I stepped in and exploded. "If you were the expert on this, YOU would be lead here and not rotting at the bottom rung, wishing you were worth more!" How disgusted I was with myself.
The young man being harassed was thankful, and I felt strong and heroic for but a moment before I saw the desolation I had caused on the bully. Had I pushed it too far?
And when I got home that day, I saw some of the same bullying on SG that had pushed away a good friend of mine, and I kept my mouth shut. Never again do I want to feel like a bully.
I left these concerns on the listening ear of a girl I look up to, and she sent me something beautiful:
“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.” -K. Vonnegut
Who do you look up to? What is it about their personality that stands out to you?
Are they kind, gentle, caring, compassionate, confident and genuine?
