I witnessed a scary traffic accident involving a woman on a bike in the Seattle street yesterday. I ran to her and shielded her from traffic. The car kept driving... She began shaking and bleeding from hands, face, and somewhere else. I was scared she was going into shock but I like to think I did well keeping her stable and keeping myself calm. First responders came and I assisted getting her in and had done all the right checks...minor injuries. My part was done and as I walked away I began to panic and cry. Threw up back at the hotel and while wiping tears and vomit from my face realized one thing...I was dressed in my Mary Jane Watson costume.
I have been feeling like a victim lately. Ignored and betrayed and unloved; unspecial and unpretty. There I was, dressed like the biggest victim in the Marvel Universe, washing blood off my fingernails that came from a woman that I may have been a hero to.
We are all worthy of love and true friendship...I finally learned I feel more loved and desired when I am giving instead of waiting around for someone to give it to me.
MAR 03, 2013 11:51 PM
MAR 04, 2013 12:07 AM
That's a very profound and probably counterintuitive realization. The way I've expressed it is that we can often have the feeling that we want when we give it to others and that requires no wishing or waiting.
We all love babies in a pure and unconditional way, then a little later everything changes and we expect people to earn it. This is tragically wrong because as you point out, we are all worthy. Feelings to the contrary are not uncommon but they are always wrong. If you are obviously special from thousands of miles away, you can bet that your fine qualities are are very hard to miss. 
MAR 04, 2013 12:07 AM
thank you for helping, it surely meant a lot to her♥ good things come from giving of yourself!
MAR 04, 2013 12:11 AM
very poetic.. what an experience...never forget how beautiful you are silly moose
MAR 04, 2013 12:11 AM
What a experience You know there´re some "hero" people? people that, in a situation like that, can act and help others Some people can`t do it Well, you´re one of these heroes lady
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MAR 04, 2013 02:07 AM
That's the most amazing story I've heard in a long time, that was so noble of you to step in and help out the victim of the accident. The fact that you were dressed as Mary Jane Watson makes your actions even more profound.
Your blog made me have a tear in my eye too, because you feel, and I quote: "Ignored and betrayed and unloved; unspecial and unpretty".
I think it's a sin that you've been feeling like that of late, as you're such a lovely, caring person and you're also incredibly pretty - 4th most commented set this past year shows that others clearly think the same.
I know we don't know each other outwith SG, but, like Hexxus, part of me cares for you and loves you and I know for sure that we're not the only ones that care for you here.
Chin up pretty lady and I hope you have a good week.
In reference to Hexxus 2nd comment, I personally think it's a sin that you, Fringe and Hexxus aren't pink yet. I really don't undestand the voting system here at all...
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You are my hero! I am sure that woman appreciates what you did for her, and I tip my hat to you for being so brave and selfless.
As for feeling more loved and desired when you are giving to someone rather than waiting around for someone to give to you, that reminds me of something my mom used to tell me when I was a kid. I think it was the best advice she ever gave me. She said that, in order to have a successful relationship with a partner, you must first be happy with yourself, without the need for a partner. Otherwise, you will always be expecting your partner to fill the void in your self-esteem, and that is not a recipe for a happy, healthy relationship.
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