The seratonin will return eventually hon. Just make sure you eat plenty of bananas.

Since I had a break-up (after 8 years) in January, I seem to have been on a relentless path of self-destruction, or so certain people in my life keep telling me. But I kind of figured that the best way for me to live my life at the moment is to basically have as much fun as possible.

You don't have to cure cancer.

You don't have anything to prove to anyone.

You don't have to be defined by your job.

Just bring a little laughter and sunshine into the lives of others, and I reckon that's enough.

If your job is a bit shitty at the moment and isn't fulfilling for you, just make sure that you make up for it when you're not there by having double the fun. Don't let the midweek blues get you too down sweetie.

People say it's what you do that defines you. But I don't think that what you do to survive counts.

Let's see - you said you can do "web design". An online vintage clothing site is going to be a lot cheaper and less risk than a lease on a high street shop. There's a place to start!

hmmm,seems you need to chill out lady,why dont you just do something that you enjoy instead of worrying what it is you think you should be doing......

You know... sometimes, even with a decent job and the blessing of being in a "creative" work place, I find myself feeling in the same kind of rut. It's the nature of the beast Sista. The abstraction of working for our survival that is the modern work a day world is a difficult thing to maintain 24/7/365. It doesn't sit right with most people most of the time. Sometimes we just learn to whistle while we work.

Now... as far as your options go, you've gotten bit of good advice already. You've got what seems to be a nice little tool kit of skills & talent. You can apply those in any number of ways to keep the rent paid & an occasional pint in your hand.

As for being happy in this process...? The act of pursuing indirect survival is dislocating for us hairless apes. Feeling dislocated makes us feel lost, sad & afraid. The trick seems to be the hunt for that which feeds a different hunger. An emptiness that no amount of creature comfort or haute cuisine will satisfy. It is that fuel that lights the mind, warms the heart & feeds the spirit. See, it turns out the other stuff is easy in most cases. Anyone can make money given the right conditions. Finding shelter isn't so difficult as long as your standards are flexible. Food? Well, appetite is not the same thing as hunger.

For me, it works out like this... I'm not 99 years old, but I am old enough to have both starved & been fat. I have slept in fine, soft beds & on cold, hard stone. I've been blessed with friends & maybe even a few enemies. But in each case, I have learned that if I can see each place, each person, each action as just a bit better than when I got there... well, then I am surviving... I am truthfully happy... I may be hungry, but I won't starve... I may be cold, but not for long... I may be lonely, but not forever...

These are the things that make the asshole boss, the drab office, the unstable bank account all tolerable. Make your life a labor of love... not a love of labor.

You are a beautiful and looks like an inteligent woman. And the person a few comments ahead of me and right. A vintage clothing store online would be a great idea. You could just do it part time until you could see if it is worth your time.


And I do understand what you are talking about. I am a stay at home mom of 2 kids. It drives me nuts that I am not doing anything with my life other then wiping snotty noses and changing diapers. I would love to be able to get into the work world and do something but I have no training at all other then in taking care of kids. lol

well its certainly fantastic to have you hear pretty one

wow thx for your add my sweety i'm glad for your friendship ...you are marvellous ...and now i have a new great friend ...you ..kisses have funny glad days