You've all probably noticed my lack of activity on here. So I'll give you the low-down.

It's been a fun few years. I've enjoyed my time with the ladies and gents I've met on here, had a few laughs and whatnot. But as time goes on, I've grown tired of the things that have made SG not fun anymore, and in fact, has made it an absolute drag and bummer.

It's tough to enjoy your time in a community where the moment you make a mistake, whether it be accidentally starting a new thread topic that's been discussed before in an old one, to somehow offending someone when your intentions were good, to even just a typo, you get jumped on, harassed, and lectured at every turn. It's like member sarahg said in a thread once (about a different topic), "sigh. it's a wonder anyone shares anything anymore. everyone else knows it all. everyone else can do better. or so they think, anyway."

"Or so they think" is right.

As far as my Hopeful situation? I'm delighted you asked.

I'm tired of submitting sets and asking for critique, and everyone has something negative to say instead of something constructive EVERY TIME. Fuck you, you pontificators masquerading as experts. We're all experts on what an SG set "should" look like. They have the photoset concept down to science - in that EVERY SET LOOKS THE SAME. How can you NOT know what one should look like? Are you kidding me? Not to mention that FAQ gives girls guidelines - no bedroom, kitchen, outdoors, or bathroom sets - and yet these types of sets are accepted every month, pretty much every day. A few SG's and "old skool" members are quick to say, "Well, they're not unless they're flawless and amazing." Shit, they should put the invisible yet implied "UNLESS IT IS EXTRAORDINARY" clause in the FAQ, then. It's slightly misleading. And, haha, WOW, there sure are LOTS of "incredible" interpretations of those kinds of themes. Furthermore, I see nothing wrong with these locations being repeated in sets, because they are the ideal locations for pin-up images; I'm hoping that at least a few of you have seen Alberto Vargas's work, for example. One-color backgrounds, kitchens, etc. are his bread and butter.

"Oh, but Kav! SG is supposed to be the MODERN pin-up," you might say.

I know that. Duh. That's why I gravitated to here in the first place. If tattoos, piercings, unnatural hair colors, and/or an obviously displayed alternative lifestyle don't make me the "modern" pin-up girl, the very concept SG was founded on in the first place, then damn, I have gone about this shit all wrong anyway.

"Oh but Kav! SG has grown popular over the years, and have had to step everything up, and that's why the new, polished standards are in place!"

Fuck that. Fuck that straight to hell. That contradicts everything SG says it is.

Point is, over the past few months, it has occurred to me that everything that SG claims to be, whether written or implied - an indie, underground portal to hot, sexy alternative women with open, like-minded members that make up a friendly community, a secret society almost - is a sham, a facade, and in reality is something that, morally, I don't agree with.

"Christ, Kav, chill out. It's just a porn site."

Yep. Sure is. It sure is "just a porn site".

So, if SG wants to get all angry and shit at me for saying these things - hey, isn't this blog everything they want from their models? Upstanding, outspoken thoughts from an alternative chick? Don't be angry because I am epitomizing the ideal Suicide Girl. Don't be angry because instead of glorifying SG, I am disagreeing with it. Because I am just one voice in an ocean of tits, ass and money. All of us will wake up tomorrow and they will still have their girls, their fame, their fortune, their members. I just won't be a part of it.

If you're interested in where I'm going, especially my lady friends, here is my MySpace.



All right, SG - zot the fuck out of me!

Peace out, bitches!

2-24-10 Edit to add:

In addition to MySpace, here is my Model Mayhem page as well, which has been requested for me to post here.

And I'm sorry, I can't help it, I have to say this: I'm sure you all saw the comment Rigel left below - thanks for pointing it out, lady! More loopholes for the "favorite" SGs to enjoy, I'm sure! I noticed lack of comment on anything else, though. Feel free to hit me up on either MM or MySpace to chit-chat about it, if you like.