Ok so. Last night I went over to the boy's apartment because that apartment is pretty much the place to be in this town. There's a girl there I've never met...pretty, blonde, petite. Nice. We're hitting it off, totally getting along. A bunch of us walk down the road to the bar, where we continue to hangout and laugh and all good things. The boy pulls me to the side and suggests "threesome" in a playful half joking way......I took her outside and asked her if she was up for it. She was. We stick around the bar a little longer until last call, and all head back up the road to the apartment, where as usual there are about 15 other people. She and I go into the room and start going at it, the boy joins us a few minutes later, locking the door behind him.....ten minutes later we're in the middle of all things wonderful and threesome related when, BOOM! One of the guys kicks in the door, walks in, realizes whats going on, turns on his heel and leaves, leaving the door WIDE open. The girl and I are laughing so hard at this point that the boy decides its time for a smoke break. During the smoke break the girl ends up leaving with another guy.....can't make this shit up.

Some days I look extra decent

Steven wants to get back together. Discuss.

Hrrraaawwww

Urm so it's been a minute since a real blog. Not a whole lot has changed except that I'm older. I got some pretty great birthday presents from bigjc1980....seriously who needs a man when you've got a Hitachi??

On the subject of men, I've been spending a lot of time with a guy I've known a long time. We went and got his son the other day and they've spent several nights here this week. But we apparently aren't a "thing". I'd love to be a "thing", but I guess that's not what he's after. Idk...

Still trying for the Army, but Lex's sperm donor is refusing to sign a paper so that I can sign custody over to my mom...which means no military for Kate.

Back up plan?......I suppose I'll register for classes or something....idk....

Who the fuck knows...

I'm back!! Thanks to the lovely and wonderful Pom_felo who reactivated me again this year <3 <3


PLUS! It's my birthday

Urrmmm why do I have a little red balloon next to my name?

22 in four days, and yes, I'll be spending my birthday alone.

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I have so much anger. I don't know how to get through this feeling, I've been angry before, but never like this. I can put on a happy face, and everyone thinks, "Wow she's so pretty, I wish I was happy enough to smile like that.." What they don't know is that if I wasn't smiling and laughing, I'd be crying a screaming because I'm just so fucking mad.

Oh, and if one more person assumes something about what's going on in my head, I'm going to lose it. How about you ask me if I'm "sweet on a guy" instead of just deciding I'm worthless now. Godforfuckingbid I have a good time with someone I've known for 6 damn years. Yeah, you know who you are.

I got a text at 4am from my best friends husband (well she was my best friend...)

"I need you to tell me if you ever gave Angela meth. Truth please."

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???
After everything that I've had to go through and I've done on my own and been sucessful with, she says I'm not only doing meth, but encouraging her to do meth. I have been clean for 5.5 years.

Her husband is home on leave FROM AFGHANISTAN and he saw a prepaid phone in her purse while she was in the bathroom. When she came back he asked her for some gum and said, "oh hey what's that?" She snatched the purse away and ran to the bathroom, then later said that before I left I'd asked her to hold my (apparently abundant) meth and then said she could have it....

Turns out she's been fucking the maintenance guy and has now run away with him with both of their kids

Their marriage gave me hope for marriages. Besides the fact that Dakota is amazing and she was fucking lucky to have him.

I has a sad.

This is how 6am looks on me.