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FEBRUARY 11, 2008 @ 11:02 PM | 7 COMMENTS

Seriously ... WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING AWAKE? I have to wake up at 5:30 to go to work. No doubt I will be beating the hell out of the snooze button right up until I have to leave. Did the smart thing and took a shower a few minutes ago so I wouldnt be all stank at work. Playin Texas Hold 'em at my buddy Rob's house, started around 8:30. 9 people, made it down to my friend Marc n some kid I just met. Tried knockin him out so me n my buddy could split n go home. Instead I finished 3rd with no money. Oh well. $25 for a fun night out. not to bad.

To recap the passed few weeks since I have last wrote in here:
Holiday party for my job was an awesome time, I would like to thank the young lady who escorted me to the event, good times indeed. The Giants won the Super Bowl mad Have been trying to make a conscious effort to eat better and work out more.

What really got to me tonight is this. Anyone who doesnt know, I was in a fucked up accident back in Juneish. Make a real long story short, I should have died 4 or 5 times over. I flipped my Jeep on a busy highway. It all happened in slow motion, and as each instance came where I thought this was going to be it, I made it through it. If you want to know the details, click back to sometime in June, I am sure I went into great detail. Anyway, after all was said n done, the first person that was standing there, (mind you in the middle of the night, pouring rain), was a priest. Talked to him for a bit, cops came, looked away for MAYBE 20 seconds, and he vanished, along with the young spanish lady he was with and the van they were driving. Well evidentally I had not told my friends this story, there reaction was much the same as everyone else's who I told the full version too. Alot of "holy shits" and, "dude that was your guardian angel"

*EDITED TO ADD DETAILS*
The post was on July 31'st and I did not go into great detail, I think I was still a little shook about it. I will be the little attention whore and let you all Oooooo and Ahhhhhh I guess, even though I SO should be sleeping.
A. My tires were shot, I had no business driving on dry pavement with these things, let alone the pouring rain.
B. I actually made a conscious decision to NOT drive like a dick for once, anyone who knows me, or has experienced my driving .... for real, when do I EVER do that?
C. I was not wearing my seatbelt in a Jeep Cherokee that flipped 3 times on a busy highway.
D. I somehow wedged myself into a corner against the center console as I realized it was going over.
E. It was heading right for the river, but somehow turned as it was rolling at the last second and went the opposite way before going in the drink, which probably would have done me in as well factoring in, dark, rain, and windows were all up.
F. The airbags never deployed, which combined with no seatbelt, can break your neck and kill you.
G. The Jeep landed upside down in the middle of the highway and NONE of the cars right behind me even came close to hitting me.

AS each of those things happened, I thought to myself, "Ok, this is how I am going to die" but it never came. I found myself wedged upside down in my truck, watching the lights come at me n zoom right by. I heard a man yell to me to stay where I was, I yelled out. "Fuck you, this thing is gonna blow up for all I know" He did not respond, I yelled out if he could see a way for me to get out, again no response. I probably cursed again out loud, righted myself and was now standing on the inside of my roof. Realizing the front door wasnt going to open, I made my way to the back seat door and crawled out on my hands n knees. As I placed my hand down on the middle lane of the highway, the water on the road completely covered my hand AND wrist. Anyone who knows Rte 21 in Newark, should not be surprised. I looked at my covered hand in dismay and noticed someone standing in front of me. I looked up, and the man who had been yelling at me to stay in the truck was a priest. He asked me if I was ok, I had only a cut on my thumb. We talked briefly, mostly him saying, "I know its going to seem crazy since your truck is totalled, but thank God you are seemingly unharmed." I glanced around and noticed he was with a young Spanish woman who was standing in front of the minivan they had pulled over to the side of the road in. She didnt say anything, but just stared at me. The priest told me he would stay until the police arrived. Reitterating the same things he had already said. The police finally came and I glanced away for a moment, but never taking the priest fully out of my sight range, we were standing in sort of triangle, the cop asked me a few questions, totalling NO MORE then 20 seconds, I glanced back to where the priest was, and much to my shock, he was gone, the spanish woman was gone, the minivan was gone, and as I looked down the highway, it was nowhere to be found.

As far as I am concerned, I was meant to live. I easily should be dead. If I live my life a little to zestfully for you, tough shit. I am out to make myself happy and in the process anyone I consider a true friend will also reap the benefits. Stop the petty bullshit ... you know who you are. And if you dont, you are even more fucked then I originally thought. I love all you guys, and I guess this was just an extremely long winded thank you to those of you who have aided in making my life awesome.

The whole point of this is this ..... I am truely amazed at how my life has completely changed since then. I am in so much of a better place right now then I was before this had happened. Better yet, it only seems to be getting better as time goes by. I tattooed the words on my arm a few months before the accident, but they ring true as if it was the lesson of my life ........... Get busy livin .... or get busy dyin.

I will have the heaping plate of life please. biggrin
JANUARY 27, 2008 @ 09:45 PM | 10 COMMENTS

Ok, so I went to the hospital, long story short, I spend 5 hours or so to add another giant bruise on my other arm, more blood stolen from my hard working veins, xrays and a cardiogram to find .....

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

NOT A GOD DAMN THING!
Fuckin quack doctors, any other profession, if they dont find whats wrong .... you dont pay. Why is this so different?



On to happier news ... Khoosapalooza was awesome. Got to sample some poutine .... Jersey disco fries now pale in comparison. I met more awesome SG people. I watched and helped with 2 haircuts. One of which was evidentally a matching mohawk. Unknowingly brought a cat out of heat. Got 3 dozen of Tim Horton's "crack" They say its maple glazed ... I say there is something else in those damn things. I am bringing them to work, I would be a royal fat ass if I tried to go to town on that many donuts. lol Witnessed quite a few things that made me go ... eeek Some things that made me go ... whatever Others that made me want to go ... kiss and made me ... love Very glad that I didnt go ... puke And overall had me driving home making me go ... biggrin

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

For anyone actually there ... Henrietta took exactly 5 minutes in my house to piss everyone off EXCEPT my dog.



6 day work week starting tomorrow. The next 3 Saturdays are booked solid. SGNJ event at QXT's, followed by my company holiday party ... yea, I know, a little late about life. Then the SGCC beach party. I think Im gonna have a few fun filled weekends from the looks of it. biggrin

JANUARY 21, 2008 @ 07:53 PM | 5 COMMENTS

So I went out last night to watch the Giants Packers game. Much to my dismay, the Giants won again. Ok, so Im a little bitter cuz they beat the Cowboys. I got good and shitfaced with a bunch of old coworkers. Good fun night, I miss alot of them, but am glad to not be working there anymore.

Well, I have found that the mornings after drinking, even 1 beer, I have blood in my saliva the next morning. I figured it wasnt to bad, and I really dont go out drinking enough to really be overly worried. Besides, after a few spits and a rinse of the mouth, its usually gone. Well, it was a little different this time. I had copious amounts of blood. It looked as if I had ate a box of cherry popsicles. My spit was thick and completely red and took about 45 minutes of rinsing to go away.

This I figured to be less normal then any previous instances, so I went to the doctor. Spent 3 hours to have my temperature and blood pressure taken. 1 minute of questioning, 1 large bag of blood evicted from my veins, a tupperware cup of piss stored and labeled, and I was sent on my way ..... AWESOME lol If any other profession worked this way they would be fucking bankrupt and jobless. Is this worth $40 a week with a $30 co pay? Holy shit I feel ike an old man yelling about my social security, but in all seriousness .... WTF?
JANUARY 20, 2008 @ 10:00 AM | 3 COMMENTS

SO I finally get my computer back, only to find out the new motherboard is fucked. Its acting weird too, wont let me play Unreal Tournament, doesnt show what I have typed in sgchat and when I try and click on anything in My SG, it shuts down internet explorer. Anyone ever heard of any of this? Its pretty annoying.

A little bummed, set up an event yesterday for a ski/snowboard trip. People seemed to be into it, but it ended up just bein me n Zoo. It was an awesome time none the less, so if you were one of the people acting like you wanted to come, you definetly missed out. That was my last attempt at trying to coordinate something here. 3rd time was definetly not the charm.

There seems to be a rash of childish bullshit surrounding me lately, none major enough to warrant me going into great detail about any one of them, but collectively it has gotten my attention and is becoming a bit of a distraction. People and there personal insecurities trying to drag everyone else down with them. Sorry I am not a miserable fuck that needs to bring people down to my level to feel good about myself. Grow the fuck up.

HW = WYW ..... words to live by. Lol letters in this case, that I dont want to share, but if you guess what they stand for, I may tell you if you are right or not. The 5 letters and 2 characters written next to them make me believe it to be that much more true though. Dont bother looking for the secret letters and characters. They are written somewhere that you and your prying SG eyes cannot see. tongue
JANUARY 3, 2008 @ 08:27 AM | 6 COMMENTS

So, I will officially be without a computer this weekend starting Friday, may not get it back until about Tuesday. 4 days with no computer, what to do with my free time now!?!?!?! lol How pathetic is that statement? Feel free to bombard my blog with love in that time frame so I have something nice to come back to biggrin

So me n my buddy Zoo go to this local bar the other night. My friends are having a joint birthday type thing at the same bar. She comes to pick me up, we drive to the bar, go in and are hanging out for a little while when I start to notice something poking me in the shoulders. The coat hanger that my jacket was on before I left the house was still in the jacket ..... seriously ..... who the fuck does that? I have no idea why it took me so long to notice. Wonder how many other people noticed too lol

Anyone not in SGNJ or SGNY? I posted an event for anyone interested in going skiing or snowboarding on Saturday January 19th, will be leaving early in the morning, say 8ish. Its about an hour and a half to 2 hours from where I live, if interested and you are in neither one of these groups, leave a message here or pm me for details.

Ever wish you could freeze time? Someone help me with this invention please!!! tongue
DECEMBER 25, 2007 @ 04:26 PM | 5 COMMENTS

Merry Christmas!!!

Wow, Ive been adding alot lately, life is evenful sometimes I guess ...

So I have a little bit of a fantasy football addiction ..... I had 5 teams this year lol 4 of them I do just for shits and giggles online. The other is with a bunch of my other buddies, anyway its $50 to join and without going into great detail, the pot gets bigger if you change your players. Last game of the year was last night ....... AND I WON!!!! $700 makes a nice little surprise xmas present. biggrin

A portion of that will go to my computer, its been acting real funny and I need more memory and a bigger hard drive. So I wont have access to anything for a few days eeek

Should I be pissed that I spent 4 times as much money on my sister as she did on me? Or is that just petty bullshit at this point? We havent spoken to each other in a few months, she is the type of person to take out her bad day on those immediately around her, but then goes off and talks to her pals on the phone all giggly n shit. What would family be if they didnt annoy the shit out of you from time to time? I dont know, we have always had a set amount of money we would spend on each other for longer then I can remember. The amount has never changed.

Life is short, being bothered by the sillyness seems really useless, but irritating none the less.

Lastly, I might set up a ski/snowboard trip the 2nd or 3rd weekend of January, either Saturday or Sunday. Anyone interested?
DECEMBER 23, 2007 @ 12:16 PM | 3 COMMENTS

So I always knew, but it seems I have been getting a refresher course in life being a bitch lately.

I just posted about my job yesterday and how my raise was withdrawn 2 days after it was offered, go read it if you give a rats ass. To add insult to injury, they changed the scheduling again and I am now scheduled to work on a day where I was looking forward to going to Canada for Khoos' party mad If this shit keeps up, I am liable to walk out on this job.

People have a funny way of letting you down when you least expect it. I am not going into detail on this because it is more then one situation. Its just getting really old, and I am tired of it being the story of my life. I need a god damn vacation.

This is setting up to be one of the most depressing xmas' I have ever endured. I am not the type to let things get to me, but that passed month or so has been a fucking tidal wave of bullshit that I could really do without.
DECEMBER 22, 2007 @ 08:05 AM | 1 COMMENT

So this is what I get for opening my mouth and bragging about my job. The 2nd raise that was just offered to me was taken away yesterday before I was even given a chance to show if I could do it. My boss didnt want to press me into anything and wasnt sure if I was ready for it yet. Which is all fine and dandy, but dont dangle a significant amount of money in front of me, only to tell me .... oh nevermind, Im a fucking tool and didnt think this through to much. Keep trying to just tell myself everything happens for a reason and all that happy horse shit, but Im fucking pissed. mad
DECEMBER 20, 2007 @ 04:46 AM | 4 COMMENTS

What a fucking dick bag I am .... I work 12-9 monday n thursdays, 7-5 tues wed n fri, n every other sat. Why the fuck did I deprive myself of sleep and go to work at 7 this morning? At least I got to come home n rest up a few more hours, I couldnt sleep for shit last night. My mind was racing all night. My mind was stuck.

So I made it passed my 90 probationary period for work, I am now a union employee and got a raise as of 12/8, a nice hefty one at that. The way my job works there are 3 teams of 2 people, my partner has been there for a few years, and just gave his notice yesterday. So 11 days after I get off probation and get my first raise, they offer me my partners position and his salary, another hefty raise at that. It will be a little more work, and I probably wont get out as on time as I like, but I guess its a pretty good trade off. biggrin

Ok Im off to go sleep a few more hours before work.
DECEMBER 17, 2007 @ 09:10 PM | 3 COMMENTS

Ok, its snowing lots, and my board isnt done, who wants to help me paint this bitch? I fucked it up and tried cutting out pieces of cardboard to help make a camoflage type style on the deck. TOTALLY didnt fuckin work, looks ...... I dont even know whtat it looks like but its sure as shit no camo.

I work on a comission at work, I make a weekly salary and usually there is a few hundred dollars or so for my monthly comission check, well this week I end up owing about 3 hundred dollars, add in a dozen or so ridiculous customers who dont know shit about cars or are just trying to get over on some bullshit, and it made for a frustrating type of day.

Somebody have a party or something, I need to get shitty like ASAP! biggrin
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