Sooo much to say ...

At least it feels like anyway. Been procrastinating the shit out of writing this. Varying reasons, but part of it is I dont feel like sitting in front of my computer downloading pictures from camping. How fucking lazy has life gotten for me that plugging a wire into a computer and clicking on which pictures I would like added to a new file is too much for me to handle? My all around laziness this summer is astounding me. I usually am all sorts of gung ho about softball season, have made it out to 3 games ... none since late May. I usually go for bike rides everywhere, especially late at night, probably havent touched my bike since my last softball game. Havent gone to the gym in that span either ...

Ok, so I guess I will start where I left off, 311 and Snopp Dogg .... SOOO not impressed in the slightest, and I am a fan of both. Seriously, WTF!?!?!?!?!? 311 trounced out the same tired old act I saw them do 6 years ago, just rearranged in a different order. I mean shit, all the members of the band putting down their instruments and essentially having a big ass drum circle was cool the first 5 times ... new shit please? Snoop had to have been high and lazy. 1/3 of the shit he played was someone elses music, furthermore, he sang the last 2 or 3 words of every other line .... I want to kick you in the balls Snoop ... for serious.

Camping proved to be a large financial hit on me. Was a good time, but it will effect the way I camp from now on. Wasnt a big fan of the new site, to spread out, and never really made it out the main fire much or for very long. Camp No Pants was definetly where it was at, I would have just as soon invited everyone down to enjoy the cool breeze of pantless camping, but I didnt want to leave it lol. Highlight ... or lowlight depending how you want to look at it was me falling asleep outside in the hammock for an hour and a half at 3 AM and waking up to 100 or so mosquito and god knows what other kind of bites all over my back. Other corny bullshit prevented me from really having a good time, but it is what it is. I am definetly going again next year.

Fast forward to this weekend and Saturday night I hit up the city with the lovely Zoomusikgrl in tow, to celebrate JadeAngel's birthday with GetFighted, VaJaeJae, and my first mate Rickrolled. Good times were definetly had. Should I let it slip that I was actually drunk enough that I might have been coaxed into singing? Probably not, but maybe next time .... thats a big MAYBE Zoo!

Wake up Sunday and feel like I got hit in the head with a brick. Take a shitload of an asston of different meds ... nothing works. Start to realize that I in fact have a concussion. Nausea, migraine, loss of equilibrium, moodyness, all set in. Spend the day watching crappy, yet still funny 80's movies with Zoo. Get to sleep in because I am covering some dudes closing shift at work, which was all fine and dandy, until I realize the migraine is still there. Get to work, goes smoothly, find out that my engine mounts are broken when some new kid asks to rev my motor ... insert funny joke here .... engine is hopping around like a fucking hot potato. Blessing in disguise as I have a reason to get Polyurethane mounts now, so I can deal. Had a tech do an oil change for me and swap out some belts, he parks it by this heavy duty reinfocred fence thing and leaves it in gear, (its a manual tranny) I go out to my car and hit the remote start. Get outside just in time to hear the car start and see it lurch forward into the fence. FUCKING HOOKER! was the first thing to come out my mouth. Well at least I work at a dealership and we have a guy who does bumper repairs and this should only set me back about $100 after discounts. Would much rather have that hundo to fuck around with elsewhere, but oh well, such is life. Could be worse I guess right? Trying to keep a level head and not let shit get to me.

Ok, pictures may or may not come some time down the road, but thats about enough of my ramblings for now. Shake it easy ya'll

Ok, so looking through my pictures, I decided there were alot that I never posted on here. So to make up for it, I will give a brief rundown of the pictures and what was going on around that time.

Starting sometime in January, somewhere in a Canadian province, a party was had by some cool ass mother fucking people .....

One person in particular stood out as mohawks were had by many, some twice over ...

Things blossomed ouside ....

More importantly, they blossomed in many different ways ....

No one can touch my Mexican cooking, pretty fucking good for a Pollack ...

She swooned something fierce after I filled her belly with fajita goodness ....

Lots of playing with Molly in the park, looks like she is about to eat someobodys house in this one ....

Celebrated the girlies birthday, I made her a cake, sweat my skills ....

Bought her a necklace that she seemed to like, the smaller of the 2 in the picture ....

For my hard work, she tries to put a flaming marshmallow in my eye ....

The aftermath of her party, fun was had in the bathroom by me and one of those bowls

Me and my sexy girl took a trip down to MD to visit one of my good friends Adelayde, me n Zoo waited for people to show up before we got on one of the biggest boats Ive ever been on that wasnt a cruiseship or ferry ....

Said big ass boat had herself a funny name, also was numbered 420, lol a prelude for things to come? ....

CaptainBackfire looking like quite the pirate? lol crusing around the bay ....

We hurried home from the 4th of July weekend to kick SGNY's ass in kickball, but it rained, so we cancelled. Stopped in Philly for Jim's, the best cheesteaks in town as far as I am concerned. Drove back home, went to the diner for dinner, Q's was our next stop, had some drinks, watched people dance ....

Woke up Sunday, had a lazy type of afternoon, Zoo bought me a book that literally had me falling down laughing in the aisle of Barnes and Noble's. Best line .... Do you work for UPS? Cuz I could have sworn you were just checking out my package. lol

Afterwards we went and saw WALL-E, such a good movie, I really like how kids movies send messages now a days, cuz really, what the fuck did Bambi, Tom n Jerry and Snow White teach my generation? lol

Trivia with Rickrolled and Arbitraria late Sunday, more free bar stuff to add to my never ending collection. Nice mellow end to the weekend, except I had off today too!

Got some shit done today, end of my 4 day weekend is here and its back to work tomorrow at noon, one more day to sleep in. Working 2 days next week and its off to see 311 and Snoop in Brooklyn on the 16th and camping with ECCT right after. Man, life has gotten busy and hectic, but I wouldnt trade it in for the world. Coat Hanger!

The abbreviated update:

Girlies birthday was Thursday, got her a necklace, something for camping, and made her something as well. She seemed to dig it.

Her party is today, good times shall be had no doubt.

Her new set went up yesterday, check it out if you feel compelled ... band camp

Work has been kicking my ass, made a customer cry, but she was a sensitive, over reacting bitch so I wasnt bothered by it.

Appointments set for the other half sleeve, starting in September and by Halloween it should be finished as long as the funds hold up.

I think thats about it for now, back to setting up for the party ... shake it easy

Ok, so its been long enough in between me updating this, so here goes.

The most amazing girl I have ever dated has not ceased to amaze and dazzle me at every turn in the road, she is such a sweet heart. I have officially told booty calls to beat it, I actually did this some time ago, but am now 100% positive I will not be making any midnight phone calls. I may be a little flirty, but that girl is the fuckin tits and I sure as shit am not going to fuck this up. Other then that, I guess its been a pretty busy month since I last checked in.

GetFighted had her 21'st birthday party about a month ago, good times were had by all ... well maybe not ALL, but a major majority. lol I know I had a good time. Team Zoojew (thats me and the woman for those that arent savy), went to see a taping of Jim Nortons HBO series, it was a good time, think Def comdey jam but with alot of white guys telling offensive jokes. Went bowling with SGNY, good times once again. Had plans to attend some Polish festival, but opted out of it for lounging around the house instead. Went to a work party this passed Friday, kinda lame, but it was more or less the crowd, cant say I expected much though. Team Zoojew hit up the Yunegling brewery on Saturday, that was cool, little bit of history involved ... ok alot of history, but I was totally into it. THE freshest Yuengling I have ever drank. I NEED to visit more breweries now .... ROAD TRIP!!!! Afterwards we hit up a Sonic since we missed the meet up with SGCC a month ago. That shit was amazing. I really dont know why they show commercials, but dont have one anywhere remotely close. Fuckers! Had some other plans but nixed them as we were too tired.

Been slacking on my softball team lately. Call me competitive, a front runner, or what have you, but I cant seem to get myself motivated to play with a bunch of guys that dont play well and dont feel the need to practice. Ive just about given up on it all together. I am liable to change my mind, but its not fun getting creamed lol

This Sunday going to watch my sexy little momma get her halfsleeve started. I am so excited for her, she is going to look so hot. She is getting done at the tattoo convention in Atlantic City, which just adds to the good times factor. Speaking of sexy, her set is pending, so keep your peepers peeled, leave her some comment love, she is definetly sexy enough to go pink. The next day we are going to see Jose Gonzalez, I like a few of his songs, but havent really been exposed to him completely yet. Know enough to want to see him live though. Want to try to get tickets to see 311 and Snoop in Coney Island right before camping .... should be a sick show.

Other then that I got nothing people. Workin my ass off, Subie is getting louder, I need to get my ass working out again, or at least playing basketball or some fuckin shit.

Enough of this ramble, off to bed.

I havent even written it yet, just the fact that I know I am about to let it out in the open is such an amazing feeling I cannot even put it completely into words. I have been holding on to these feelings for such a long time, supressing them so I wouldnt throw myself under the proverbial bus, that I almost forgot what to do with them when I was allowed to let them go.

I saw "Stranger then Ficton" back in December. It seem to fit things so well, and this song, especially the way it was choreographed in the movie seem to relate to me and my situation so well. Starts off slowly, a quiet little secret, but the more and more it goes on, it draws her in, and unknowingly him as well. Before they know it, they are so close, it catches them by surprise. The moment is so perfect, it consumes both of them.



This is how I feel about her. I cannot take my mind off of her. She is stunningly beautiful, smart, funny, caring, passionate, witty, open minded, has a great sense of humor, considerate ... I could go on and on here. I dont know how I have managed before she came to me.



She makes me want to stand on top of mountains. Let the world know that she is mine. I could not be any more proud. I feel as if I have won the lottery, I feel so incredibly lucky.

She has taken a hold of my heart in a way that no one else has ever attempted or wanted. She can have all of me, take these lips I'll never use them. I cant even begin to describe how amazing this is. The only thing anyone really needs to take from this is this ....

For fucks sake ... as if last weeks duck incident werent bad enough. My sister has 2 cats, we let them outside here and there. They are fixed, so no worries there. Thing is, they bring home dead things now and again. I wake up Thursday for work, am running late, have barely been sleeping the passed week or so. I get to the bottom of the drive way, and there is a dead baby bunny. I seriously lost my shit. I dont even want to get into it. The occasional mouse and bird dont really bother me so much. Maybe it was just because it was a baby and probably didnt stand much of a chance against our cats.

Friday was DOTM, and QXT's afterwards, met some people I had not met before. Everyone was pretty cool and it turned out to be a pretty good night. Saturday was Kickball vs. SGNY. I was kind of proud of myself, lol even for a silly friendly game of kickball I kicked ass. 4 for 5 with 3 home runs, a double, and 8 R.B.I.'s. Yea I am a tool and kept track. Zoo and I went to one of her co workers apartment down the road afterwards. She was having an Elvis themed party. It was fun, ate peanut butter and bacon sandwiches, some peanut butter and chex mix thing, played some trivia and what not. Would have had a much better time had I not been feeling shity, go figure, I dont get sick ALL winter, and a few days before May I come down with this fucking head cold. lol Just my luck.

Missed out on softball game today, but from what I hear, I was better off. We lost 22-3 lol Jesus! Sat around all day today all sickly and sniffly watching the 2nd day of the football draft. Kept slipping in and out of consciousness. Feeling alot better then I did this morning, but none the less, still sick.

I bought tickets to go see Bamboozle this Saturday, thought Bouncing Souls would be there, but they are playing the Sunday show Oh well, at least I will get to see Snoop! That is, if I can get the day off of work What a fucking idiot I am, I didnt check my schedule and supposed to work that day.
*waves goodbye to my $50 dollars*

I cant wait for Thursday, *swoons*

I am sure everyone knows today is 4/20, but it is also passover. Making it Puff Puff Passover lol Believe it or not, I am not that much of a stoner, JustBlaze is more of a referance to my ridiculously long last name then it is to smoking. Everyone slaughters it when they try to pronounce it so I would always say, "Just Blaze is fine".

Today is also opening day for my softball league, Im not looking forward to it as much as I have been in previous years. I have been playing really shitty at our practices, defense is off, can hit for shit. If I keep this shit up, I am not going to be playing much.

On my way to work yesterday, I saw one of the most heartbreaking things ever. There is an interchange I need to go through where 3 different highways branch off at the same place. As I was about to pass through it, I noticed something in my lane, it was to late to swerve to avoid it, so I drove over it hoping it wasnt high enough to hit anything on my car. Noticed what it was at the last second, a duck had been hit trying to cross the highway. She was upside down and her little webbed feet were kicking in the air like crazy. This alone made me sad enough. The part that broke my heart was that she had about 6 or 7 babies that had followed her out on the highway and didnt know what to do and were now frantically running around their mother waiting for her to lead them off the highway and trying to avoid traffic at the same time. By the time I realized what was going on it was to late to do anything because I was through the interchange. I considered making a u turn, but the way the road was, I would have had to drive about 4 or 5 miles to get back to that spot. I am the type of asshole who would have stopped traffic and run out on the middle of the highway even if I could have saved one of those little guys. I just didnt have the heart to go back all that way, only to find all of them smushed on the road. I actually cried a little, poor little guys never had a chance.

I have a real big soft spot for animals. I used to volunteer at the Turtle Back Zoo in West Orange. It is somewhere between being a zookeeper and a paying customer. You get to see alot of behind the scenes stuff, but dont get too overly involved with the animals, but more so then the average Joe paying to see it all. For the most part, you stand in front of the exhibits and answer peoples questions. One of the coolest things about it was walking the penguins to the other side of the zoo to their night time enclosure. The little buggers were smart, they did not need to be lead, they would go straight for it and wait in front for you to open the gate to let them in to their sleeping quarters. If there was a way I could go into a similar field to help animals without all the schooling, I would do it in a heartbeat. A.D.H.D. makes it ridiculously hard to read and focus, and I hate the prescription drugs that help it out. Feel like a fucking zombie, makes me lose personality and just makes me boring. Give and take I guess.

I decided that I am not taking the Subaru camping, it would be alot easier to rent something for the weekend as the Subie will probably not be able to hold alot. I went out driving through the richy neighborhoods last night looking for peoples unwanted junk. I found a wicker chair and matching end table. I figured it would be cool for camping and it would further solidify the idea of renting a truck. I get both items in my car, drive back home and find the chair would not come back out. I end up cracking my windshield and tearing the passenger door in the process of getting it out. All this after I spent $50 to have the Subie detailed while I was at work. What a fucking kick in the dick. This was actually the second vehicle I damaged trying to get something out of the back seat in 2 days.

When oh when will happy days be here again?

Nothing makes me madder then people blowing smoke up my ass. People just dont have the balls to tell it like it is, so instead, you get alot of hemming and hawwing and alot of unwanted bullshit. Grow a fucking pair!

*edited to say*
I started coughing up blood again this weekend. It only happens in the morning. I cant get to the specialist until the end of the week, if not the end of next week. It only happens in the morning, but now I have this ..... I dont even know what in the back of my throat that is making it difficult to swallow. I havent been able to sleep because of it. I am thoroughly exhausted, so needless to say I am a grumpy ass bitch lately.

DOTM last night, good times for the most part. Funny thing about last night was the fact that it was held in South Jersey, where a certain piece of breakfast meat is referred to as pork roll. Everyone in Northern Jersey recogonizes it as Taylor Ham, and it is written on the packaging that way, anyway this was a picture taken in the diner in Wall, NJ, which also happens to be in the southern portion of the state .....



Kind of debating what to do with my income tax check, half sleeve for my other arm, (the idea for said tattoo is 3 or 4 blogs back, go read if you are curious), or pimp my Subie out some. Decisions, decisions.

My friend emailed me this .....

Happy zombie Jesus day!!!