I have had enough of looking at that last post. I try to make sense of things alot. Without getting into great depth, everything happens for a reason. May not realize it at first, but somewhere along the line later in life, I have always taken something from a shitty experience and applied it constructively. Life marches on.

On a brighter note, I had an epiphany today. Always thought of ways to start my own business, and I very well may have thought of something good ... possibly real good. A few obstacles to overcome, but I think they are achievable.

I am going to start looking for a second job. 1 or 2 nights a week in a bar or restaurant for spare money and in the meantime if I can get this idea to take off. I have been thinking of some goals I would like to shoot for by this time next year. I dont want this to be something I flake out on, Ive been doing that a bit more then I like or am used to. I keep telling myself that the things you want in life have to be worked for. No one is going to hand me anything to get ahead in life. I feel silly for even thinking about its because it something I should have known all along.

Thats about all I got at this point, there is more going on, but its Saturday night and I am sure as shit not sitting in front of my computer being a mope while life passes me by. Shake it easy people, this will be a fun ride.