I need peace with myself, but that is not enough.

I need peace with my ideals, but that is not enough.

In order to be optimal, from my point of view, I also need to be in peace with today. Modernity, the world we live in right now. I disapprove the way things are done, how our leaders try to control the way we live, like if they knew better. But angerness, hate against injustice and contradictions brings me nowhere. They do not fit with my ideals, so I must accept, respect the way things are. But I won't agree with it.

Peace with myself, my actions, my body, my mind. Live now, feel the greatness of living every second.

Peace with my ideals, my goal, my way of life, my path, what will determine my actions.

Peace with the "actual", because the world is not only about me, there's a lot of people. Now is me, but now is also billions of other people, of other worlds. And through all this people, there are violent and blind forces. They exist because they had to, they are consequences. But peace is a way of understanding these forces, and to avoid them. Avoid they suck you in total non sense. Peace is way for me to draw my path through all this, towards my ideal world. Will it happen ? That doesn't really matters, since ideals are, and should be, so beautiful that it is impossible in an universal way, but possible on an individual point of view. They what fuels you. And ideals change too, depending on where I'll be, and who I meet.

The Earth is like a lone traveller, in the middle of the desert, looking for an oasis. You can tell people that the oasis exists, but in order to reach it, you have to help it.

It can also deny the existence of the oasis, that it is only an illusion. But we hope that it isn't, we think it isn't...It's seems obvious that it isn't, but we have no way to actually prove it, because no ever lived on a planet where peace, universal peace, was achieved.

Point A is now.

Point B is the oasis...and what matters, in life, is to get to that oasis. It is a global thing, but also an individual search, because every human being is a world in itself. We have ups and downs, they are part of our evolution. The best thing we can hope for ourselves, is to die in peace. Because our life is short.

But the Earth has a much bigger life length, but it also have ups and downs. Ups, construction, uplifting enery, born again. Downs, chaos. Destruction is unavoidable and necessary, it is part of evolution, replace the old by the new. Society in the past century has changed it an never seen before way, the gap between generations is getting bigger and bigger. Life was rather simple before, working in the fields, family reunions... Now the possibilities are larger, and it is exponential. Good and evil are dancing in our heads, getting closer, we are losing our references. A man without any refences, any fixed points to follow a path, is a lost man. The same goes for the Earth.

Sorry for the vocabulary, writing in english is still a bit challenging for me.

People these days...they work, study all week, then they stop everything (actually, they stop by themselves), and then they go out to realease all this energy that was pushed back down, deep in their souls. Most societies had their celebrations, their "out of time" events. A moment where normal life stops, and where you get closer from the essence of life. Raves are one form of it. In the western civilization, people go clubbing, take a drink, play video games, fuck, trash, listen to music, draw... The natives used to play music too, around a fire, I think it could be considered like the ancestor of the rave scene. It is a universal thing. In order to do what is right and to avoid what is wrong, people need to take a step backward from whatever reality they are in, and feel life in a pure way, whatever what "pure" might turn out to be. Pure energy. Fucking is one way, dancing your ass off is one too. What form, what method you use is only based on who you are, what you went through, and what you think is right for yourself. So from this perspective, there is no "right" or "wrong" way to live, how you spend your energy only concerns yourself. There's no way to justify yourself, because the only way to truly understand someone else's concept of living is to live it yourself, which might be impossible. For example, females will never fully understand mens, and vice versa. It is just impossible. The mere fact that living with a dick and living with a vagina changes a lot of things, different perceptions.

Working, studying is not living, it is only a survival thing, the need of money, the need of knowledge. Needs have to be satisfied, but true living comes where you don't need to satisfy these needs, when your mind is no longer limited by whatever your body wants. The soul, or whatever you might want to call it, is a prisonner of the body, the body is not your soul. So when you die, your soul still lives, but in a very different form. It's not because something can't be touched or can't be seen that it is not alive, it is only for the humans who have a very limited perception of reality. The fact that we only have a limited perception of reality explains why we cannot agree on what is it.