I try to be the calm
that takes you

I try to be the one
you count
first

but for all my trying

i just get blood stains on
my shirt





I am so emo I cry blood

It's 5:29 AM Do you know where your children are?

Mine? Still in my overies.

Me...up for work... Shitty

Godd morning

I am bad at updating blogs, sorry.
I got tattooed again today. I will post pics from the first sitting and this one later tonight when I take the pics. I have one more sitting scheduled for two weeks and the fishy should be done. It is a big fuckin fish. It will look very bad ass.

So thus is my life. I go to work, I go to kick boxing and I go to Dave's and get tatted up. Not so bad I guess. I could be doing worse.

Can I be an asshole for a second and state that I am not diggin the new layout of this site. It is way too myspace. I find it cheesy and athstetically lacking. I mispelled asthetically, I think, which sort of negates my statement. Oh well, bottom line, it isn't pretty anymore.

I'm cold, I think I'll turn the fan down.

See ya yarr

Hi y'all. I've been meaning to update for a week, but I've been busy, busy, busy.
I've been working my butt off at work to try to get a promotion. It's on it's way to working. I got major props last week for creating some important documents the details of which I will not bore you with. Lets just say it's going countrywide on wednesday.
I've been kicking my own ass at the gym. I liked the beatings kick boxing was giving me so much I extended my membership. I think it's safe to say I'm in the best shape of my young adult life. That is an accomplishment I am super proud of. Hopefully if I can get a hold of my photog you will get to see the fruits of my labour in a phoo set. I am begining a torrid love affair with my body.
I started volunteering at one of my favorite community spaces as well. If you are in the area, (Suusex, NJ or Warwick, NY) you should deffinately pay it a visit. Pacem in Terrace is my sanctuary. It is the only place where I feel truely at peace. Many find this clarity and peace in a church or sinagog. And that's wonderful for them. I found it here a few years ago and I wanted to help keep it alive. The artist who created it is ill so they need lots of volunteers. I don't know why I feel so at home and quiet there. I suppose it is so unlike this world that I feel outside myself. But, no that isn't it, it's that I am so completely inside myself that I found a quiet place I didn't know was there.
And now I am sitting in a towel, not feeling the same peace because I can't find my shorts. Oh well.

My stomach feels like a raging pit of sulfer.

I got offered a permenant position in my company yestarday and the promise of another promotion within the year. It feels good to be appretiated for the hard work I've been putting in.

I am going to Canada tomorrow. A romantic weekend with Eternal to get away from all the stress and fighting we've been doing. I'm really excited to get away from my family and work for a short bit. I also love water falls and niagara is beautiful this time of year. The big question on some peoples minds will of course be is he going to pop the question. I can't say I expect it, but part of me wants to think he was planning it the whole time. I'm not going to think about it. No sense in setting ones self up for dissappointment.

I think it is high time for a hoodie and ugly Ithaca athletic shorts. I have to get some sleep for the drive tomorrow and charge my camara and phone. So much to do, vacations are stressfull.
the end.

I just have a huge thank you to say to Starfior for the gift. Thank you so much. It's nice to have friends who miss you when your not online.

So I'm back. And I promise I'm going to toss out another atempt at going pink. I have been working out like a maniac so I dropped a few more pounds and some over all chubs. And I have to say even I'm impressed with the results.

I don't want to bore anyone with the details of my life since there really aren't any. I go to work and I box that's really it.
But hey ask me anything. I'll be candid I promise. And it's not like you'll know if I'm being honest anyway. You only know internet Judy anyway right?

Again thank you this made my week, month hell even year. I've missed this place
And A
Yarrrr

Well week one of Judy attempts an office job sucked. I hate mindless, non creative busy work, and that is what I spent my week doing. So it's back to the job market for me. Anyone know a wealthy realaste tycoon that may need an overpaid , underqualified personal assistent? The out look is good though. My stores admin quit so I'm applying for her job. I never thought I'd say it but I want to go back to the store.

Oh and my car is on it's last legs I think. I'll know better when Eternal checks it out for me, but she doesn't feel right. Aspect two of the sucky job is a horrendous 2 hour each way in traffic on rout 17 commute.
and if you know anything about norht jersy you know how much that sucks.

I am online for a purpose other than informing all of you about the boring details of my tiny life. I am anxiously awaiting the selling of tickets to see pearl jam. I know they're sort of classic rock early 90's has beens to ssome, but too me they are middle school me Icons of grunge and I must see them live before I die.
and I have a kickboxing class at too early (read 9) 30.

Those are the boring details my friends. please feel free to comment on how dull and middle-aged souding my life has become.

Countdown to pearl jam...8 minutes...

I wanted to update, but I really have nothing to say. You don't want to hear about my day to day rutines. But that's all I've been doing.

If anyone in jersey this weekend needs something to do satureday night come to club XO. I'm going to be there.

I have to go up to my store and pick up my paycheck and not spend any of it. Do you know how hard it is to go to the mall to get money and not shop. Maybe I need to go to SAA if that exists. cause I shop all the fuckin time.

wow this is a boring entry. Sorry I'm not interesting today. So I'm gonna put some smiley's in to distract you from my boringness.

Monkey, Pirate Suprise. Kitty

I pray for the beauty of gray days
wet roads like deep oil
steam rising off the pavement as the air warms
little drips are tears from clouds
kissing warm cheeks
when i turn my head up to smile at the sky
and the sun comes out
burning eyes
making me look down again
and I pray for gray days


and that's a monkey

So I kickboxed last night for the first time in a long time. I started too hard and almost passed out, got all dizzy. It was actually a pretty cool feeling. And I'm on htis rediculous new diet plan. So I will , in 10 Weeks, be hot. or die tryin.

In other news my life has now been consumed by work and working out so I have no life. Big shocker.

In three months when my cool new job is over who wants to road trip? I'm thinking southern rout to cali, any takers? Come on chickens who's willing to help me kill my car?

oh and ( cause I can)