screaming or not screaming seems to be a thing for me lately.....today? i actually screamed....a lot.

don't know if i can take much more of this crap.

well, at least i don't feel like screaming today.

instead of nightmares again, i had a dream where i got to be in my grandmother's room. i miss her so much, and just being there made me feel close to her.

i also got a ton of sleep, so maybe that helped overall. and little b (the mostly standoffish kitty) let me cuddle him for a few hours. and right now, he is close by and seems to want more pets. maybe he is feeling lonely too. sigh...

now i just need food. i'm so tired of being starving all the time. it makes me irritable. grr.

i feel like i am going to scream. can life just give me a break now? fuck all!

yep. still alive. still kicking. still paying for membership.

my quarterly report of being alive still.

life is weird.

still alive.

feeling down.

ah well.

All I ever seem to post on here is that I am still alive.

I still am.