age: 27 (Nov 15, 1985)
MEMBER SINCE: May 2009
occupation: Filmmaker/Photographer
fantasy: Yes, I have a few...
makes me happy: the little things
makes me sad: my own social awkwardness... some days its really bad.
sign: Scorpio
crush: not currently- is that sad?
into: I'm a complete nerd...
gets me hot: IDK anymore- is that bad?
most humbling moment: humbleness is for chumps!
stats: does "BFG" mean anything to you?
body mods: One single lonely tattoo
Confession time-
I am writing this as a cry for help.
I have hit a wall.
Not just any wall, but the same wall I've hit anytime time I've really pursued something.
I've done a lot of things in my life, gone down many avenues, as it were. And I always run into the same issue.
I've been a chef, a musician, a writer. Now I'm going after something I've always wanted but also always been afraid of: movies. Making movies, that is.
In all my previous ventures, in the beginning, my creativity out reaches my skills.
Then there comes a moment, after all the practice, all the work and critiques, all the money invested into resources to make my creations come to life...
My creativity is gone.
I don't know where it went.
Maybe it became lost in all the DIY or BTS videos. Or all the books I've read. Or maybe even in the mundane projects i forced myself to do for the "experience"?
I don't know where or why or how, but I've lost my mojo.
Perhaps I never really had it to begin with...
The point is, I've reached this point in my movie making.
I am, at best, mediocre. And this bugs my to all levels of hell.
I feel like the guy addressed in this quote-


So to all you: artists, musicians, photographers, painters, sculptors, poets, writers, craftsmen, etc-
What inspires you? What makes you see things differently? What makes you say, "Today I should make this, paint that, sing these words"?
And when inspiration comes, what do I do with it???
I am writing this as a cry for help.
I have hit a wall.
Not just any wall, but the same wall I've hit anytime time I've really pursued something.
I've done a lot of things in my life, gone down many avenues, as it were. And I always run into the same issue.
I've been a chef, a musician, a writer. Now I'm going after something I've always wanted but also always been afraid of: movies. Making movies, that is.
In all my previous ventures, in the beginning, my creativity out reaches my skills.
Then there comes a moment, after all the practice, all the work and critiques, all the money invested into resources to make my creations come to life...
My creativity is gone.
I don't know where it went.
Maybe it became lost in all the DIY or BTS videos. Or all the books I've read. Or maybe even in the mundane projects i forced myself to do for the "experience"?
I don't know where or why or how, but I've lost my mojo.
Perhaps I never really had it to begin with...
The point is, I've reached this point in my movie making.
I am, at best, mediocre. And this bugs my to all levels of hell.
I feel like the guy addressed in this quote-

So to all you: artists, musicians, photographers, painters, sculptors, poets, writers, craftsmen, etc-
What inspires you? What makes you see things differently? What makes you say, "Today I should make this, paint that, sing these words"?
And when inspiration comes, what do I do with it???





























Aristophanes