So being a saturday and because I don't work on the weekends - perks of working full time at a office - I decided to go around and get some stuff done. I went over to costco to pick up some house supplies and Lost season 2. I saved a good $20 buying it from costco so that is good. I also went down to get my tattoo priced and damn it will cost me quite a bit. The guy had to re-draw the thing for me and I have to go back in later to talk to him about it.

Other then that I don't know what to do.... single... no dates, im bored out of my mind. I now have been offered some good - how can I say this - opportunities to open my own business/company. Which I am taking some serious time to think about it. All I have to do is find something I would like to do as a business and mock up a business plan/strategy. The ideas are plentiful, however you can't build your business just on ideas alone. You have to know what it is you want to do and be aware of what you are getting into. Know what it is you are working with and whom.

When I do open up the buisiness though... I will need to hire people too. That is a whole other problem on it's own. I have always wanted to open either a restaurant or a retail store... however the real estate in this town is slim to none, well at least for the prime areas that you could open such things. I also don't want to invest into a franchise, sure you can make a lot of money because it is a franchise but you still have to follow their rules and regulations. I don't want to work for another company, I want my own.

Yesterday as I was driving around by myself I came to a realization that my life has come to a point where I know what I want for myself. I am happy with what I have chosen along my path in life. The main thing was that I broke up a 5 year long relationship and I felt so much better for it. As if that relationship was holding me back. More like the person I was with was dragging me down. I also realized what type of person I would like to be with for the rest of my life.

This however makes me feel like im either shallow or too picky. I know that people have their faults, hell I have a bunch of my own. I don't expect a perfect person or have a cookie cutter idea of what I want. I just have a general idea of what I would like. I also have been finding myself attracted to older ladies.... well I guess not older but more mature girls. In this generation of people I have noticed a lot of things that I dont like. Now im not saying all girls are like this... just the girls that aren't are snatched up and taken. I have noticed a lot of the "gold-digger" immature girls out there. Makes me sad really... thinking where this will lead the future of mankind.

Being a shy BCB also makes me a bit intimidated to approach certain girls. Then again... it is also because everytime I have... the girl is taken. My luck seems to run into a brick wall that is engulfed in flames when it comes to girls. Well enough of my self loathing and bitching.

I am having a good weekend though so far and I hope all of you do as well. I will be getting a new suit soon like I said in the previous blog and will be posting pics of that when I get a chance... as per request by the beautiful
Annisa. Of course I will also be posting a pic of my new tattoo which I should have done in a couple weeks at the lastest, depending on how long it takes the guy to re-draw the picture.

My damn sleep is so messed up..... I was in and out of sleep all day...damn crap. I woke up once because I was starving, I was so hungry I woke up... I mean wtf? It didn't just happen once either... I just woke up starving again and ate some more food. I have been craving a bunch of different types of food for a couple weeks now... why? I don't know... normally I could just go through without worrying about what I want to eat or not... but I have been having cravings like a pregnant lady and no... I am not pregnant Now I can't get back to sleep... I think I just need a good sexual workout.... damn sex deprived thats what I am, and thats what im starving for.

So I finally decided to take a girl from work to the cruise with me. I figured may as well go with a friend that I can get along with then anything else. I know I will have fun with her so it is all good. No I don't mean "fun" either... I wish...I would so need it. I got a buncha shopping to do before we go out... I got to buy myself a suit and some other clothing. Since its a buisiness cruise and such I have to make myself look good.... I hate it, I am not going to go nuts and buy a bunch of suits, I only need one or two so thats ok. I don't have one anyways so that will be usefull for later on.

I think my body has been lacking too much things and is now trying to overcome me with need. I have been craving food and sex like I said earlier. It is this weird overwhelming need and keeps popping up in my head. I have also had the craving to get out there. As in what? I don't know... I just feel like I should be out there... just doing something. I tried that too and I still feel the need to go out and do something.... I want to shop, I want to dine out, I want to be with a girl, with a girl on a date, go to the mall, go here go there go everywhere. It's a very odd feeling for me and I have never had it before in my life. Craving all these things out of the blue.... anyone want to help me out

I am going to go get my tattoo priced tomorrow and then get myself an appointment.



This will go on my upper arms.. yes arms as in im getting it on both arms alternating in colour for each side. It has always been something I wanted and will signify to me the change in my life.

So if y'all havn't checked out Scarlett's set yet I suggest you should. It is a great set... she is a beautiful girl. I have been spending time looking at sets and other types of photography... now im looking into a slr camera.... me and my weird brain. I have always wanted to take photos... so im gunna save up and get myself a good camera... hopefully before I head on the cruise so I can bring back a whole bunch of pictures to show everyone

So I was at work today doing a bunch of thinking... and I have always find it weird how our education system in canada works. I mean I hated school, well cept the obvious friends thing. But my beef is with what we were learning, half the stuff was useless bullocks. I mean has anyone ever used fractions at work? I understand the reason to learning them because it can help you with some calculations...but you could easily just whip out the work calculator for that. Unless your going into the field of sciences or engineering or mathemetician or something of the sort, you wouldn't be using things like algebra and calculus. Imagine walking down the street saying out loud "if I start here... and walk at about 1 mile per hour... how fast would it take me to walk down the road half a mile away?".

Then there are things like history...we were taught Canadian history, thats a given. But when we were younger we seemed to learn more about American history.... when we got older you could branch out and learn about world history or specifics of the like. Anyways enough of that....

I have been so tired today when I got home... I don't know why I was just so beat. Then I did my cardio work out and I felt like passing out... maybe it was because I didn't eat much over the night. I am doing it because I need to build stamina... not because I think im too fat and need to lose weight.... ok my doctor also said I need to lose some weight.... though I have over the past year. He told me I needed to lose more. Now my problem is that I am big-boned... no really I am. If you felt me up - which I welcome any of you girls to do - you could feel bone... well except at the spare tire. Not a big spare tire either. It's like im a skinny fat guy....

So I have come to a point where I am ready to get back into the dating game. Though I am having a rough time...because I never have really done it before. I have had girlfriends yes.. but it was just like BAM and happened. I guess you could say we dated... but I think I have forgotten how.

Today I also saw someone new at work today... she was kinda hot. Though she was smoking, I dislike smoking.... not to a point I wont talk to you. Hell all of my friends practically smoke and I hang out with them and go for smoke breaks. But I dislike the taste of a ashtray when you kiss a smoker. Anyways the first time I saw her, a couple co-workers and I were headed to Timmies (Tim Hortons Coffee Shop for those who don't know) and she was out there trying to find a lighter... and stupid me it was the only day I didn't carry one. It would've been the best time to introduce myself. She was all feeling herself up... ok feeling her pockets to find a lighter... and I was like "FUCK FUCK". Then walked off to Timmies...... damn my luck.

Anyways I better go shower... my big boy body needs a cleaning Campbell & Odette's Twister set? damn sexy... naked twister with girls is always a plus.

So its thanksgiving weekend for us canuks, not much going on for me though. Normally we aren't the type to really celebrate thanksgiving but we do cook a dinner and such. Today my parents got me to cook a leg of lamb that I was saving for a party. Yeah normally I cook a ton of food for each of the parties that I host. This year I decided not to hold a party for thanksgiving. Why? well this yeah I am single this year after five long years. I have been on the quiet side lately. I think it is because im finally out of a bad relationship and since it was such a long one im trying to get my roots again.

It feels good to be single but at the same time I do miss having a companion to spend my time with. Sure I could go out and date... however I am a shy bastard and the club scene aint my thing. Bars? I will go if I have time and if some friends want to go. I don't mind going out, I will go and chill. However like I said... im a freaking shy bastard. I been trying to keep myself busy with cleaning up and doing other things to occupy my mind.

So I was talking to my sister yesterday and I know there are stereotypes out there and hell I use them sometimes too. I mostly do it in the context of a joke though, that aint a excuse not to use it but still for those who know me im never serious with that stuff. Neither are any of my friends, we all come from different backgrounds and get along well. Now my sister was telling me how the girls at her workplace keep putting her in .... how can I say this... a sterotype I guess. Automatically every time she talks to another asian guy they all think they are dating.

Now some of you may say that aint such a bad thing. Cept the fact that she dislikes this guy at work and he keeps hitting on her... he has a girlfriend which he dumped then went back to because my sister kept turning him down. Then he goes and bitches to others that my sister turned him down, like it was the worse thing in the world. He is a creepy guy too, "I went back to my ex because... I couldn't get another girlfriend...well I couldn't get you". Can you imagine that he actually said this to my sister? I feel like going in and kicking his ass.

My sister asked the girls why they though she and this guy were going out... "Oh well you are both asian so we assumed that you were"...... key word there "assume". I mean normally I wouldnt care because, hell a lot of people assume that type of thing, but this guy has a girlfriend and my sister has a boyfriend that is white. But hell it is true though... a lot of asians only stick to asians... and I mean asians as in the whole continent not just oreiental people.

I myself am more attracted to white girls, why? pfft I don't know but I am. I love pale skin I guess I should say, not overly pale that it makes a person look like a ghost, but pale. It doesn't mean im exclusively looking for a white girl, what I really look for is a great personality, I have dated and they have always been with people who have a great personality. Doesn't matter as long as I find them attractive then im good to go.

I still don't know who to take on the cruise with my yet and I only have 4 days left to really choose. I might just end up delaying the choice till next year which im allowed to do. Then again I have a chance to meet with some higher ups in the company this year, which can turn to my benifit.

Anyways I better go back to cooking and cleaning. Bonnie is cute and a great debut set she has there. Churtch also has a great new set there. Hollywood is new to the scene, everyone welcome her to SG, she is really cute too. Hope y'all have a good week.

For the past few days I have been struggling with the thought of who I am going to take with me on this cruise I won from work. Now this is a freaking nice ass cruise that is paid for by the company. Though it isn't all expenses paid but the airfair, cruise, taxi to and from airport, and food on the cruise is paid for. So the cruise is a carribean one...starts off leaving from miami, day at sea, next day stop at San Juan - Puerto Rico, then St. Maarten - Netherlands Antilles, St. Thomas - US Virgin Islands, another day at sea, Nassau Bahamas then finally back to miami. Lodging of course on the ship is paid for also...part of the package.

It's a crazy cruise and what a time to be single. I mean if I knew someone that was SINGLE that wanted to go with me it would be awesome. But all the girls I know...(part of my awesome luck) are all taken. One girl from work keeps asking me to take her...now she is cute but the problem? yeah she has a fiance. The other problem and also why im fretting over this so much, is that they only gave me till next friday to decide whom to take with me. Now if they gave me a month or so to decide... it would be a bit easier... at least in that time I could try to go out and get to know someone and take them with me.

So if I can't find a girl I will take one of my pals, at least that way we can hang out and get drunk and go scope out girls. Now I would be excited but I know that mostly older people go on cruises...so it's not like I can go on the cruise and find another girl easily. I could hit on the female staff though.

On a side not I have been playing Valkyrie Profile 2 now and man.. I loved the first for Playstation...and now this one isn't crazy amazing but it is still awesome. I really like the game and it will keep me busy for a couple days.... yes I said a couple... usually it takes me only a few days to beat a game... specially since im single. Don't get me wrong I don't sit inside my house all day. I just breeze through games more easily then other people. I guess thats why im a gamer dweb/nerd/pornstar/dork.

To all the Canadians out there Happy Thanksgiving! I don't really celebrate it with my family... when I have time to plan though I do hold my own house parties with my friends. I do the cooking and such...they all seem to like it. I didn't do much yesterday except a buncha cleaning, laundry, and some errands like picking up house supplies and such. Yes ladies, you read that right... I cook, clean and do things around the house. Lately I havn't had time to cook much... I love to make new things. My cheesecake seems to be loved by a lot of girls and my bbq seems to be great. I have recently bought a lot of cooking books which I would love to go through and try a lot of recipes out of.

I hope to find someone that likes to cook or help out. Doesn't nessisarily mean they gotta eat the food, just help out. I find it romantic when a couple cooks together. The close proximity and just the fact that you are helping each other to make something and enjoying the time together....oh and you know the food fighting and sex that comes after. Which reminds me of a dream... I love it.

I had the most fucked up dreams before I went to work the other day. I fell asleep at around 2 pm and had this messed up dream. I was in that sleeping state where you are sleeping but are still aware of everything that is happening. So I had the tv on when I passed out. The first dream I had was of ninja turtles. Why? I have no fucking clue. The channel I had on never has ninja turtles. All of a sudden they popped outta no where and started kicking ass. Foot clan members appeared outta no where and I helped out too with my kick ass kung fu powers.

Anyways I woke up after that it wasn't that fucked up as the next dream though. I went and did some stuff for a couple hours after my kung fu fest. Then passed out at around 5 or so, now this next dream was messed up. I was sleeping on my side - I fell asleep this way - so I naturally thought I was still awake with my eyes closed.

What happens next is what fucking makes me think "wtf is wrong with my brain?". All of a sudden I hear this voice of a woman behind me and she talks to me saying things like "hey baby turn around and come closer". Normally I would be all over that shit but I still thought I was awake. So I just stay put but she keeps talking so now I know im dreaming and all of a sudden her hand comes to my side trying to get me to turn around. "Turn around sexy come closer" "No thanks" is all I can say as a reply, as I try to wake myself up. But for some reason I can't, its like my body couldnt wake up and was stuck in that state. Its like when your trying to force yourself to move but your restrained.

All of a sudden I feel this sharp pain on my ass cheek. Like she is biting me or something. But she isnt cause I can still hear her voice. The pain was pretty bad but I could get through it. So im thinking to myself this is probably some demon succubus trying to make me crazy. This voice out of no where just says "You have to kill her by decapitation", so im thinking wtf how am I supposed to do that? "Strangle her as hard as you can her neck is her weak point" wtf... I guess ill try it.

So I turn around and I start to strangle her and her neck just closes in after a while and collapses and her head falls off and she says something which I dont remember and dies. I do a sign of a cross on her forhead and say a prayer like im a priest or something. Then I wake up.... I mean WTF is up with that. I feel like I did liberated myself from some succubus though. Weird huh. Must of had a demon to get off my back.

So I am starting to feel better and I went to work last night. I had a pretty good day actually, found out that I will be getting my own desk finally and that I got the raise I was promised of getting 2 months ago finally. It felt good getting back to work because I found out how some people at work missed having me around. It was a nice feeling... untill the people I dislike came into the room and started making the "noise" they make. It was so nice being at home and not having to listen to them jibber jabber all night while they sat there and did no work.

I remember the day I was there before I was off sick that one team purposely slacked off on doing any work so it built up to a point that they were able to stay for overtime. It is funny though because today my supervisor saw one girl from that team walking around and doing shit and he seemed pissed. I hope he finally does something about it. Unfortunately he really can't fire anyone unless they do something extreme. Stupid big company rules.

I picked up my "cruise package" that I won at work. I had a feeling that it was a company cruise and I was correct. It isnt too bad though, except that I will have to attend a couple meetings and seminars while im on the cruise. I dont think it will be that bad since it will only be an hour or so out of each day. Seems like it will be a cruise around the carribean or something. I have a girl at work begging me to take her, yes I know it sounds awesome huh? a girl wants to go with me on a cruise and the fact that I find her cute too? Too bad she has a fiance.

However there is another girl that im attracted to at work but I am surprised that she hasn't asked me to go. Then again I don't really know her that well. We exchange emails every now and then but thats about it. She also hasn't asked me to go which I find attracts her more to me. It is like knowing that though she probably wants to go she wont go and ask me because we don't know each other that well. Now it makes me want to ask her out or somehow get to know her better. The thing that sucks is that I have a deadline to choose if I am going and who im bringing... I have to let them know by the end of next week.

It is one of those times in life where I wish I had a significant other or even just a fuck friend that I could bring with me. I mean who doesn't want a free vacation with a free cruise on top of that? I will go.. I just want someone to go with. Now even better? If I knew a cute SG I could take with me. Damn imagine that... going on a cruise with a cute SG and introducing her to them? I know probably half those old men on that cruise would recognise a SG.

Anyways I should get back to sleep, however I was sleeping erratically. It felt like I was in that state between being awake and being asleep. Where you are sort of aware of what is going on and dreaming at the same point. Yeah thats where I was....it is some messed up shit. Have you guys seen the double set with Posh and Evette yet? its a great set.... i've always loved girls and it will stay that way.

So i have been sick for the past week or so and im starting to feel better now. Since I been sick I have been sleeping like a bastard. I swear the other day I slept for 17 hours. It felt good.... real good. So with all the spare time I had while staying home, I basically spent it in bed and playing games. I went out and bought a few games too since I havn't done so in a while. I bought Okami, Baten Kaitos Origins, Disgaea 2, and Valkerie Profile 2. Yeah I know game nerd/dork whatever. It keeps me busy and passes my time.

So I started playing Okami a few days ago and let me just say this has got to be one of the best adventure games I have played in a long while. Sort of has game elements similar to that of a Zelda game. This game though is visually beautiful. The story was pretty well writen (compared to other recent game releases) and the gameplay was smooth with controls that were easy to learn.

Anyways I just beat the game like 5 mins ago and I have to say it was worth the money spent. Having 2 tvs side by side came in handy during this past sick week. I was able to watch tv while playing the game so I was able to pass time even more quickly. Sitting here and watching Most Haunted and others shows of the like. Also some reality shows that came out from time to time. My favourite shows came on a lot, CSI and ST:TNG. So it was a pretty good week even though I was sick.

I also found out the other day that I won a cruise at work.... now I dont know what im going to do with that. I am not dating anyone...and I cant just ask someone out of the blue "hey I dont know you but you want to go on a cruise with me?" that would freak out anyone. I'll go and read up on the details of the cruise when I go to work and see what it entails. Well i'm going to pop in another game now and then get ready in a bit. Gunna head down to Pacific Mall... .basically a big ass mall where all the stores are run by oriental people, which means you get bargins and can negotiate better prices...specially if your oriental.

Now that also reminds me of a certain thing that I heard Russel Peter's say on his latest DVD, which I highly recomend... even though its pretty much the same type of comedy that most people attempt to pull off.... except he can pull it off and make it funny.

Anyways as I was saying, I did say Oriental....and not ASIAN did you notice? I have always tried to make this point to a lot of people that I have talked to. Do not put oriental people and stereotype them solely as asians. What do most people think when they hear the word Asian? They think Chinese people automatically. Some would then say "Oh Japanese!". But that is pretty much it, it would take a little more thinking for any other races that live on that continent of Asia. I mean it isn't a small continent!

Sure China is huge, but it's not the only country there. People tend to forget that there are other countries like Vietnam (my background), Taiwan, India (which isn't that small either), Mongolia, etc. I'm not saying everyone should know every single country... hell I don't, but at least be open minded about the word "Asian". It means people from Asia.....all over asia.

Oh yeah and also if you havn't or don't know about it. Check out Sunshine, she posted some pics of a set that isn't up and ....just wow. She is a sexy lady, says she is 32 on her bio... I don't know if its true or not cause she does not look 32. She is one beautiful and sexy girl.

Curious Observations

So as I keep on using this interweb I keep noticing the same things over and over. There are the intellectually smart internet users, the nerds/dorks, the wanna be uber users, the newbs/barely interweb users, and just the regular users. Now of course everyone knows about these and have seen them too. There are quite a few of these on Myspace right now anyways.

I just wanted to say how I have noticed that a lot of people seem to forget how to talk/write properly when they are using the internet. The grammer seems to go out the window and it seems like everyone speaks engrish. Yeah you read that right... ENGRISH. I have chatted with a few girls and they seem to either speak bad english or just have become lazy when it comes to typing.

But then again there are a lot of people using the internet so I guess you can get all types.

Adelaide posted something in her blog which I totally agree about.... some people can be so rude, and she's cute. But thats not why I agree with her.... let's just say I very rarely take public transportation anymore because of some of the points she brought up. Other's because I hate being cooped up around sweating people WHO DON'T USE GODDAM DEOUDERANT! You ever get on a crowded bus and you just happen to get such great luck that your standing beside a person with the worse B.O. that you could ever imagine? It even happens very early in the morning, like don't people wash themselves?

Anyways... I have been so bored for the past few days... sucks because im home sick from work so i'm up all night with nothing to do. I keep staying up at night so I don't fuck up my schedual when I get back to work. I'm such a self-help reality tv junkie. Holmes on Homes, trading spaces, while you were out, and all those house repair or family life self help shows. I just keep watching and learning more and more, I guess it will help down the line sometime when I need to go through that stuff myself. I know trading spaces and while you were out aren't really self-help shows but they do have interesting ideas on what you can do with very little. So it's interesting to learn what you can do with what you can get your hands on.

So I ran out of good cereal in the house... we have Sugar Crisp....have you tasted this? I personally think it taste like garbage and hate it with a passion. I mean... I tried eating it dry first and it tasted bad... and very strong with nasty flavor. So I THOUGHT that if I added milk then it may dilute the taste a bit.... nope that didn't help at all. All it did was wash what seemed like the top layer of nasty flavor off the stuff and then make the milk taste like garbage which ended up making the whole experience even worse. I'm gunna head out and buy some corn pops or raisin bran... at least I can eat those. Frosted flakes I love and I ate through 2 boxes of that in a week so.. i gotta cut down on that. Probably go buy some whole grain honey nut cheerios and cut my colesterol down.

I have lowered my colesterol and weight ever since I decided to change how I cook food from when I was in a relationship, and after that broke off I have lost more weight. I won't place all the blame on my EX but it was partially her fault. She never learnt to cook and never seemed to want to. I always tried to cook better foods or buy better foods, but she always ended up buying junk and all the processed food that comes with 8000% fat (exageration). Oh she gained a lot of weight too, but would never do anything about it. Funny one year she even noticed I was losing weight and she was gaining more. That was because I cut junk food out of my diet, not completely but by 95% and that helped a lot.

Anyways y'all have a good day... i'm gunna go back to being sick.

I just had the most fucked up dream...but it was pretty ....interesting to say the least. Let's see... it all starts off with me going to this...sort of theme park or something like one of those places you go to with a group to do something. Like a horror house or a fun house....but it wasnt. It was sort of a mini carnival that looked like it was held in a horror house/mountains.

So I was with a group of older people... most of them seemed to be 50+ which I was so fucking confused by and they were all wearing raincoats...like the type that you wear that look like ponchos. Anyways so we got into a group and went around doing things and talking. It seems like I was talking with them as if I knew what I was talking about. Like I was living a past life and talking about "old times". We ended up coming back to the starting point and for some reason my feet were wet.... so wet in fact they started to prune AND a huge piece of skin fucking fell off...thats right a piece of fucking skin. I just picked it up like it was nothing and threw it out. But my feet seemed intact. So I dont know where that piece of skin came from.

So we head out again and this time we see this guy who has all these gadgets on him with a guitar. Like those singers you see on the street with a harmonica and a symbol that are attatched with levers and such so they can just move their arm or leg for certain things to make sounds. This guy had like 50 things going on, one of which he had to spit on to make work. It was the coolest shit I have ever seen concerning that type of thing.

The man looked like he was 58 or something but it was so cool. I was like shit... that looks so fucking silly but so fucking cool at the same time. So after that I was awoken by a damn phone call from people asking me for money... even though I sent them money like last week. Bastards.

Im sure everyone has seen Quinne's new set, if not go take a look. She has been a favourites of mine since forever. Also Tierra's new set is pretty hot too. Anyways im a bit hungry... I should eat something before I head out to work.