I think my new year resolution is going to be to quit drinking it is going to be hard and i have zero support but i think it is what I need to do to better myself. Alcohol has done nothing but caused conflict in my life and I want this bullshit to end but it has to start with me doing something first. So as on midnight on December 31st I am done drinking I'm not sure how long i am going to quit for but it is something I feel I need to do to better my life.

Life is kind of crazy right now I am really getting sick of living the single life but oh well. I went out for my brothers birthday on 10/09 and end up getting hammered out of my mind oops I wasn't suppose to get that drunk. My back hurts like hell I'm not sure what the heck I did to it but I hope this pain goes away soon.

I wish I could change the person I am but it is so hard. I have trust issues major trust issues because I have been cheated on so many times and I hate it because it makes me scare every lady that is interested in me away. I have been seeing a new lady now for a little over a week and I think she has had it with me because normally when I text her she text me right back in a matter of 5min or so & it has changed in the past couple of days why I don't know but it makes me wonder what she could be so busy doing that she can't text me back I know she only works Friday through Sunday. I hate that I keep thinking oh maybe she is seeing somebody else besides me because we had a really good connection and I really like her and she has told me she really likes me so you wouldn't think she would be seeing anybody else after she says something like that but in my messed up mind I keep thinking she might be seeing somebody besides me. I don't know what to do I don't want to scare her off if I haven't already. Yet I am having a really hard time telling myself not to worry that I am the only guy she is seeing if anybody has any ideas on how I could change the way I think or anything please let me know.

-Joe-

These are my new tattoos I'll post better pictures later.
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By - Trevor Collis

I feel like my heart has left my body and really if it has I hope it doesn't ever come back because I am sick of being able to feel pain. I can not take anymore of this emotional pain that is thrown at me every day.

Wow you know your life is going shitty when your own brother won't come out and have some fucking drinks with you. I don't know what the fuck I ever did to him but I hope he knows how it makes me feel when my own brother won't even hang out with me.

I think I might just say fuck the dating thing for now and sticking to going out drinking with friends & going to the strip club. I know I'm not going to find a nice lady to date in a bar or at a strip club but you can get lap dances and titties in your face and what not and you don't have to deal with a the bullshit that you would have to if you were in a relationship so my problem is solved.

I can't lie I am excited for tonight my buddies band is playing a show for me because it is my 25th birthday they are going to have 2 free barrels of beer & it should be a blast if you want to check them out they have a myspace page http://www.myspace.com/scofflawmusic

-Joe-

Well Halloween was fun my buddy got married and the wedding was a blast. They had a heavy metal band play at the wedding reception and I ended up getting my nose broke in the mosh pit but I'll live.

Well once again the girlfriend has expected me to wait tell the last minute to decide what we are doing for Halloween well I said fuck it and made plans and she is not included I am sick of her bullshit!!!