I probably have a lot to blog about, but I have so much on my mind I don't know where to start. let's see...

I really hate my job, but for all the reasons I should probably love it. The most I did today was take out the trash and feed my pregnant cat, except for that I wait until something goes wrong and it never does, I have too much time on my hands. I can't go anywhere because I'm always on standby, I've watched all my movies, played all my games, listened all my music to death, played my guitar, bass and keyboard to the point where i 'm just uninspired. Maybe I should start reading Tolstroy or something, but I want to do something inspirational, maybe even physical. I'm afraid that if my situation continues this way I'm going to fall into a spiral of depression or something. I'm so tired of waking up each morning and waiting for something to happen, waiting for the weekend so I can see my girlfriend and party a bit. I stopped smoking weed a while ago thinking that if I'm not stoned all the time I'll be more inspired to do something, but now I'm just sober and bored.

I hate this fucking waiting place where I find myself now, but then I think; It's only a little while longer before I am off to see the world. What the fuck am I to do in the meanwhile?

So national Braai day turned out to be one moerse party. We ended up forcing ourselves to go home at half past one this morning, we were having so much fun. So I headed back at 6 o'clock this morning to be here to do some work. As I was driving the 120k's back to Jozi I started to get this sinking feeling. Lol babelas. By the time I got home, the sun was too bright, my head hurt and I felt like throwing up. I was so hang over the whole day, I struggled through my work. Every time I thought I'm going to sneak a nap someone phoned me and I had to assist. Finally by four o'clock I had a nap, woke up an hour later, ate some, had a shower, but alas, I still feel like crap. But it is all worth it, its a small price to pay for good times.

Remember last week Monday? It was so freaken cold and missrable. Now a week later It's freaken summer! Today is so hot in the city. I freaken love it. Summer is here!!!

Nou kan ons weer braai, naai en lekker lawai!

Ok, an update on my so called life:

Spent the weekend with my Future parents in law. Wich was... Mmmmmm intresting? Remember a while back I had this big blog about things I am going to change in my life, well I mentioned that I'm going to really try and get my father in law to like me, Because he doesn't know how awsome I really am. So this weekend I decided to do something nice, He is a simple man, He likes, his grankids, his farm and rugby (thats about it). I cant give him grankids (I wonder if he would even like them). I can't do anything farm like, so I went with the rugby. I bought him this bottle of wine From the Burger estate, sighned by Schalck Burger (Springbok rugby player) from last year when we won the world cup and all that shit. You know something special that only a rugby fan would apreciate. His answer to this amazing effort from my part was: "Oh." and he looked down and kept reading his paper. This truely hurt my feelings so I decided fuck him, I'm not trying any more. I was so pissed I actually wached the rugby (I don't like that shit). But hey we won like 53 to 8 against australia. mmm....

The rest of the time I visited all my old friends and partied like a rock star, I got so wasted on fryday night I fell out of bed several times. I also babtized my girfriends cat at 4:30 in the morning, I thought it was halarious but my girlfriend and the cat thought otherwise.

What else?

I'll update if I think of something.

bloggity bloggity blog. I'm so bored. I had the weerdest day. I woke up at 8:30 checked my mails and then started feeling weerd, so I got back in bed and slept till 3:30, woke up and then only started my day, did some work, but I still feel drained, but I know If I sleep again I will wake up like at 12 tonight and start the whole proscess all over again. So I goto Stay awake, but I dont feel like doing anything. I can't consentrate long enough to play games, My fingers still hurt from yesterdays sesions so I wont be playing guitar tonight, Maybe I'll wach a movie or two. HA, it's a good night for resident Evil again. Mila running around for two hours destroying zombies. that's my idea of mindless fun time.

So cheers for now

I have been having the most wonderful week, Sunday, I chilled the fuck out the whole day, just smoked weed and listened to the blues. Yesterday was spent learning the blues and today was spent creating the blues. Good gosh, I am so impressed with myself. Lol I was in the studio the whole day. My fingers hurt like mad so does my head. I got one awesome song, that I've listened about a zillion times, but it's a start, maybe I will record a whole album, just ride the inspiration while I got it. Now the problem is, it doesn't go with the rest of my productions, so I'll probably start a new myspace sometime for Jayhell and the Half baked blues. Haha. Yea, that's the only thing that sucks about going over seas; I can't start a band now. Darn, I wanna find some guys and say; "pull in, were starting a band." But alas!

Anyway, Have a good week, you are all so cute.

Lotsa love.

I decided to start blogging in the day. I'm way too lazy at night.

So yes, I can't begin to describe my awesome weekend. I took up and left on Tuesday (yes, it was a looooooong weekend). I went to Oppikoppi, my favorite and probably largest Music Fest in South Africa. It was Fucking Chaos. Met new cool people, saw wonderful acts, drank so much beer I couldn't get drunk no more, smoked so much spliff I couldn't get stoned no more, Did so much shrooms I think I'm still High. But all and all it was great. Now I'm still getting used to reality and the everyday chase that we call life. I can't wait to do it again. That will probably only be 2010. In the mean while I am planning my great escape.

I have had lots of time this weekend getting lost between sound and people and I fought lots of demons in my head. The good news is I won, and came to lots of conclusions about my life.

-I have to sort out things with my Dad. He's a great man, and deserves to know me. He is the master of Knowledge respect and business. Where I fake all of this around him, and I'm actually a Holistic rock star wanna'be stoner. And it's great, I need to make him understand why.

-I need to talk to my future parents in law; I proposed to their daughter and never asked permission. It means nothing to us, but I realized that it does to them. I should stop being so scared of my father in law, He knows I love his daughter and so does he. I'm definitely not what he had in mind for her, but what the fuck.

-I need to sort out some Issues with my Fiancé. Not her really, but me. On the one side I love her to death on the other side she can irritate the living shit out of me. I need to be more patient and respect her short comings if I want to share the rest of my life with her. She can't be perfect all the time.

-I really need to work harder. I need to fix up all my shit and get organized. File all my stuff in order. Then in two months I can resign, (I have to give three months notice). Find someone who can do my job and say. Here is all of it. Then start sorting my shit to get to Korea by January.

There is probably a lot more but I can't think of them now, so here we go….

I am taking a super long weekend. A few days of sun, dust, cold & friends. So cheerio and enjoy the week

Ok, so it's been about a week since I last wrote a blog. Nothing is really happening right now. I'm really trying to refrain from moaning and bitching. So what's good?

Oh yes lots of cool South Africans Joined SG, that's great. Really there's nothing going on I'm trying to think of anything exiting, but nothing comes up. I just want to say I'm alive and Hi and all of that. If I was moaning and bitching I could moan about the fact that I have to fire some one tomorrow or that I'm bored out of mind, I hate my work etc. But no, rather not.

I can't wait for the summer though. My hair is getting nice and long again I want to become nice brown again and show of my tattoo to the rest of the world. I am thinking of getting a full sleeve, the initial one is done, I like the pain and I like the idea of it. I want to be a canvas….

Yap, now I'm blabbering a bunch of shit again. Say hi, say bye, whatever.

I haven't been around lately. I had the weirdest week last week. This guy I knew died. He wasn't one of my close friends, but he was a friend of a lot of my friends, we also used work in the same book shop. So he fell down a cave and died the way he was, a free spirit and really one of the good guys. (I don't even know what he believed in, but I hope he went where he needed to.) So this weekend I went back to my Home town of Potchefstroom. I saw some of our friends, they just came from the funeral, and it was really depressing. But soon, we smoked a joint, had a beer and everyone was so glad to see each other. One thing led to another and we had a blast of a weekend. Hooking up with old friends, good friends, friends of friend. It was awesome. It's sad thou that it takes someone to die to get these guys together. Which brings me to my good news…

Each year around august there is this amazing festival north of here, called Oppikoppi. me and my friends always go. We got Fiends coming up from Durban, Palaborwa and Cape Town. Some we see a lot. Some we see once a year, some friends have new friends that become our friends. It's good for the soul. Three days of desert drunken, magic mushrooms and Rock 'n Roll. Dirt sand, spliff in the hand. Can't wait. I hope its warmer then.