i've decided to start being frugle.

After i pay my speeding ticket this week my funds are to be concentrated on being self sufficient by paying my bills and nothing else. The rest of my money will go to my move to Nashville Tennessee fund.

I've finally decided that i need to get away from the West Coast i need to try something new. I'm hoping i can meet a good southern belle in trying to find myself and get a hold on life in Tennessee. I wanna stay for at least a year and nothing less. Six months getting a residency and established six months going to school. it's all i wanna do, if i don't like it at least i know i become established wherever i go.

Merry Christmas, man i'm not looking forward to driving back to california tonight it's gonna suck cause tyler is just gonna sleep the whole way. while i stay awake and think to myself. sometimes i really hate the fact i have time to think because i get really paranoid and freak myself out over stupid shit, or i just remind myself how lonely the holidays are making me hahaha. my life was really changing for the worse and i think right now this new year is the turning point for worse or better.


New Years Resolutions:

Tattoos
Expensive Pants
Lose Weight
Decide Where I Want to Move.

I'm trying to get involved in this blogging thing, but it's weird just talking and knowing nobody is reading it.

So 30 days in jail really sucked. i'm not gonna lie i didn't have one visitor or even one phone call the entire time, but i feel it made me a stronger person able to be in solitary for a whole week allowed me a lot of time to think to myself and learn about myself.

so today on christmas eve oddly enough i was served with divorce papers finally. W'ere finally getting a divorce cause she cheated on me and i want nothing to do with her. but as she was serving me she left home and called back while i was sleeping and told me to come outside for mistletoe and as i got up she started laughing cause she just wanted to get me out of bed. and i'm just thinking wtf you're a whore i don't even want anything to do with you, and she's trying to be cute and funny with me. i'm seriously confused as fuck.

since i found out my ex wife had been cheating on me i lost almost all self esteem and confidence. i never had a lot of self esteem but i could fake the funk i did and i used to be confident, but now it's just like taking a hit that hard really brings you down a peg. I'm trying to get used to california and get out of my vegas kid mindset and i cant. i'm naturally just a shady vegas kid, i'll never be a california sun child or whatever these people do. i feel like an outsider everywhere i go.

i dont keep up much with this blog, but i'd like to start.

I recently got out of jail for drugs in the marine corps and i'm close to getting seperated and i'm trying to decide where to live. i'm doing good to keep off drugs nasty stuff they are, but my life is slowly driving me into this weird depression.

hey this is my first blog, well let me start off by saying what's going on i'm james. im from las vegas nevada, currently getting kicked out of the marine corps for being a bad boy. but i'm also coming close to my 30 day sober date in november.