so my life just took me through a whirl wind and I've come out of it in one piece!

Thank heavens for that right??

I think I'm okay, i have stood up on my own two independent feet. I am very much in a place i need to be right now. I've been learning and growing so much! I'm almost 26...

25 has been a HUGE year of growing and becoming an adult and figuring myself out.

I think I'm doing alright.

Got shit cleared up with the landlord for now.. the lady makes me a nervous wreck and shes soo fricking money hungry and she comes at me all weird. Desperate and she doesn't listen but all she wants is money... anyways... i gave her more money today against my better judgement. But... I got a place to live and we are all good.

I'm going back to the ranch, I love that place. I had such a wonderful time there last year and I am looking foward to returning and visiting the herd.


I've been having a blast here taking rides out



i took a friend out today and cowboy got mad cuz we were getting all rowdy. I wanted to run aroudn adn my fiends were all drunk.... not a good combination....

I've been seeing someone and we didnt hang out for like two weeks and then iw as like... oh are we done? and it was kinda like yeah but things are still cool kinda talk and so he came over at 4am last night, and we messed aroudn a bit this morning and I didnt get laid... STILL. I have had blue balls all day, I was literally like omg i need to cum or im going to freak out. I considered masterbating in the bathroom at work even though thats not going to solve my problems.

Guys drive me nuts. I'm still kinda sandy and im pretty hairy I kinda think I should take a bath and head down to the bar for a few cocktails and some dinner.

I need to be better about eating, I just haven't been hungry lately. I am pretty thin though and its awesome. I feel really sexy right now.

I think some boys got there hopes up to see my new undies i got so maybe a sneak peak is fair...



i got my health card... in the virign islands they want to test your poop to make sure you dont have parasites if you serve food... so I got tested, and alas... im parasite free. I got a card to prove it

I also need to meditate more



and i need to practice my guitar more



I need to get my ass in gear and get to the bar.

Love you guys

My set comes out soon!



super excited.. come on guys... this has got to be my set... together we are going to blow this thing up... we got this.

Good night!