"Running on Empty" by Jackson Browne

Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
Looking back at the years gone by like so many summer fields
In sixty-five I was seventeen and running up one-o-one
I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on

Running on - running on empty
Running on - running blind
Running on - running into the sun
But I'm running behind

Gotta do what you can just to keep your love alive
Trying not to confuse it with what you do to survive
In sixty-nine I was twenty-one and I called the road my own
I don't know when that road turned onto the road I'm on

Running on - running on empty
Running on - running blind
Running on - running into the sun
But I'm running behind

Everyone I know, everywhere I go
People need some reason to believe
I don't know about anyone but me
If it takes all night, that'll be all right
If I can get you to smile before I leave

Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
I don't know how to tell you all just how crazy this life feels
I look around for the friends that I used to turn to to pull me through
Looking into their eyes I see them running too

Running on - running on empty
Running on - running blind
Running on - running into the sun
But I'm running behind

Honey you really tempt me
You know the way you look so kind
I'd love to stick around but I'm running behind
You know I don't even know what I'm hoping to find
Running into the sun but I'm running behind

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I have something I desperately want to say, but I can’t. I suppose some things you just gotta bury. This experience has made me drastically reconsider one of my favorite hobbies. Does anyone want a nice collection of porn? Actually, I’ll probably just burn it.

I even considered cancelling my membership here. Actually, I am still debating that option. My problem is that, while models might line up to be on this site, they are nevertheless paid to do so. Maybe that doesn’t mean much now that there are almost a thousand SG’s, but I can think of at least one example of exploitation with the original SG’s. Anyway, I don’t think this is a pornographic site, and I don’t think anything on this site should be equated with pornography. There is still the issue of payment for photo-sets. Maybe I just have a problem with capitalism altogether right now. I want to live in a world where the prostitution of art is not necessary.

Anyway, far beyond Suicide Girls is the entire world of pornography. A week ago, I believed that people chose the adult industry the same as they chose any other profession. I did not see it as the same as blowing the scene pedophile for a plate of cheese-fries and a pot of coffee. Anyway, that was so long ago. I certainly did not expect to meet someone with such a severe hysteric fear of AIDS. She was the loveliest person … so kind … so honest. Given her openness, perhaps it should have been evident to me that she could not consciously cope so easily, that there must be something underneath. Once again, I was deluded, as usual.

Our bodies should not be objects of lust, lust should only be love’s foreplay, and love should always be free and never be sold. There was a time in my life when this was all so clear, when these ideals were so easy to live by, but I totally screwed that up, didn’t I! I am such a complete fucking bastard! My crimes may all be the result of a deluded mind, but I would give my life without a thought if I could keep my delusions from hurting people.

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