I finally got a new job! I get started on Tuesday. It pays more so i should get my internet back up at home soon.

Time for an update boys and ghouls. (yes I've been watching Tales From the Crypt re-runs on Chiller) Well i wanted to start this off by posting the Suicidal Tendencies video for "You Can't Keep Me Down" but Sony BMG decided to be assholes and they've disabled embedding on that video. But in keeping with that same theme of that song here's Pantera performing "Becoming"


Yes, this means that I'm on my way back up. For those of you whos numbers i dont have or didnt message, i got two, count em, two motherfucking jobs yesterday. The first being a project gig for the rest of the week from 8-5 pulling orders and re-organizing a stock room. The second gig is supposed to start on monday, measuring and cutting cardboard for 11 bones an hour but between 40 and 60 hours a week. Sounds pretty good. I mean the O.T. would make up for the cut in hourly pay id be taking. Oh did i mention i'd have to work from 3pm to 1am? Yeah, not sounding so hot but i need the cash so i took it. But wait, there's more. I'm driving home from my temp gig today and who calls while im driving down 635? Another mother fucking recruiter, that's who. They found me up on monster and they have a gig for me that will possibly start tuesday paying between 30 and 40 g's to start with the possibility of bonuses if i can stay within given budgets. Its more money, closer to home aaaannnnd its doing purchasing and supply chain management which is exactly what ive been doing for the past four fucking years. So I'm going home and I'm all "woo-fucking-hoo motherfuckers!", because, hell who wouldn't be like that. Im ready to just go home, watch some venture bros, and drink a beer.

But this is me we're talking about. Nothing good happens to me without something equally shitty happening. I go home, look at the tv and the fucking satellite's out. What was left of hurricane Gustav knocked out my satellite dish that withstood 2 years worth of wind storms and lightning strikes. No now, i cant watch tv and i cant even bring up whats on my dvr. Fuck. Ok to unwind im gonna go walk the dog and check the mail. Hopefully one of my two venture bros t-shirts of the week would have arrived by now. Nuh-uh. You know what i found instead? My electric bill. A fucking disconnect notice for my electric bill. SO now i gotta find a way to scam up 215 fucking dollars by monday or else im gonna get my juice cut off. As if the money situation aint bad enough with me having to pay my rent late this month. fuck fuck fuck. I've made it this far, i can hold out for longer. Now i can see the proverbial light at the end of the equally proverbial tunnel. And i know now that its not just the light of a freight train barreling down on me.

Still no full time job. Ive been doing little project jobs here and there to try and make due but nothings really panning out.

I've been incredibly angry lately. It seems that everything and nearly everyone is going out of their way to fuck me over. It's been years since ive been this furious, this much. I wake up and i'm enraged. There's a constant chill down my spine and it feels as though im empty inside. Each passing day only brings me rejection and betrayal. Nearly everyone I know or cared about has turned their backs on me. It seems as though i've been abandoned and left for dead. Now i'm back to my roots and a life i thought i had left behind. It's now me against the world once again and I'll be damned if im going to go down without a fight. Feelings like this would drive some to some "desperate" behavior. But not me. No, i'm the kind of sicko that feeds off of this. To take the anger and the pain and the pure hate and to channel it outward into the motivation of a man possessed.

I've never been one to believe that you make lemonade when life gives you lemons. Instead you stare life in the eye, take a bite, spit it back in its face and say 'Is that all you got?' There is nothing life can throw at me that i can't get past. No obstacle that i can't plow through. I will come out of this burned and hardened but i'll still come out.

Urge to kill....rising......

The olympics still aren't over? Dammit. Its just getting worse and worse. What im most tired of are the people that try and pretend like they're lifelong followers of these pretend pseudo sports. Right now, name 3 professional Handball players, shot putters or water poloists. Or they justify that it belongs in the olympics just because its hard. Well if that's the case, where's the olympic golf, rugby or american rules football event? "Oh but no one outside the states cares about football" Well i can guarantee more people care about football worldwide than synchronized swimming.

And i'm just going to come out and say it, Michael Phelps is overrated. The talking heads on ESPN are saying hes the greatest athlete and olympian ever. Really? Just because he's going for 8 golds? I'm not saying hes not a great athlete, just not the greatest ever. Mark Spitz won 7 in Munich and how often is his name brought up as the greatest olympians? Not as many as Karl Lewis or Michael Johnson. And you know what, if he was so great an athlete, how come we only hear his name every four years? Because outside of the Olympics, people don't give a shit about swimming. Two weeks after the closing ceremonies, all the names making headlines will be forgotten. No one will remember the name of the little Chinese girl who was 13 but pretended to be 16 to compete. No one will remember by how much time michael phelps beat the world record in the 200m doggy paddle.

Everyone will wake up and pay attention to real sports. The NFL season kicks off shortly after the closing ceremony as does the MLB playoffs. Followed not too far behind by the NBA pre-season. Here's hoping i can hold out til then.

Oh and im probably going to catch some shit for this but the only place Trampoline should be a medal worthy event is at the special olympics.

OLYMPICS OLYMPICS OLYMPICS!!!

Goddam i am already sick of this shit. Seriously, who gives a rats ass who wins the fucking silver medal in badmiton or ping pong? And Ping Pong is an olympic event? when did something you play in a rec-room become a sport?

I tried to care, i really did. I wanted the mens basketball team to whup ass like Jordan and the original Dream Team did. But now that they beat the everloving piss out of china, ive gone back to my feeling of general malaise and discontent. I cant wait for this to be over. Im tired of all the commercials, the "news breaks", im tired of seeing it on SportsCenter, and i swear if i hear one more person tell me to "Go for the gold", im going to fucking stab them.

sup. nothin new is goin on over here. still havent found a job but ive been to a few interviews and hopefully they'll pan out. other than that i got nothin going on. In non Me related news kekelyn rocks my socks off.

look. see that? totally sock free thanks to that little canadian cutie.

Oh yeah, I saw The Dark Knight with sillyokio and it was awesome. you need to see it. Everyone keeps going on about Heath Ledger and the Joker but when you see it, watch for Aaron Eckhart and Harvy Dent. That guy stole the show.

Other show theives are Machine Head. I saw them at the Rockstar Mayhemfest and they were phenomenal. If you listen to metal but don't listen to Machine Head you need to. At least pick up their last two albums, Through the Ashes of Empires and The Blackening. Two of the best metal albums Ive heard since Far Beyond Driven and The Great Southern Trendkill.

Thats all I got. Whats going on on your side of the screen?

I FINALLY GOT CANNED! Man, am I glad to be out of that hell hole. They took me into the office last week and said "This is your last day at SSI. We're going at a rate where its tough for you to keep up and its only going to get worse. You've said yourself you need to have your workload lightened or else mistakes would be made but we can't do that right now so its best for both of us if we part ways. Because you have worked so hard and busted your ass for us we're going to go ahead and keep paying for the rest of the month and pay your insurance until the end of August. If things change in the future and the right position for you opens up, you are more than welcome to come back. blah blah blah blah blah..."

It's not going to be a lump sum payment, its going to keep in step with the bi-weekly pay periods. that means im going to be drawing a pay check from them until mid august.

At that point I had heard all I needed and said "I am Jack's complete lack of surprise". Shocking, I know that I of all people would throw out a Fight Club quote while getting fired.

So now begins the job hunt. I had a little bit of cash stashed away in the bank and since im getting paid for the next 4 weeks for doing nothing, I'm not really stressing unemployment yet. Its a nice break but it does put a damper in my plans to return to SG fully and also is going to delay my MMA training that I was going to start this month. It's a minor setback, nothing more. When I worked at a car dealership, I met their top sales guy, an Iranian immigrant. He told me about all the money he was making and sending back home to Iran. And something he told his family back home has stuck with me ever since. "The streets of America are lined with hundred dollar bills. Most Americans just don't want to bend over to pick them up."

i'll be back fully soon. My interweb's gettin turned back on in a week tops and im getting a new computer probably in two weeks. And when i come back I'm bringing silly back. Not Sillyokio, you dork, the act of silliness. i got some ideas floating around to make the boards great again.

Update time mother bitches.

I have not gotten my tattoo yet. I'm still looking for an artist that wont charge me an arm and a leg and do a decent job. I tired a couple places in addison and if i had the time and money, i would have gone there. I went to Cat Tattoo which is an incredible shop, but i had a pretty bad experience. I went in, and the guy wanted a 50 dollar deposit, and he wouldnt have my sketch done until the day of the appointment. on top of that the appointment wouldnt be until 4 weeks later and cost me 180 an hour for a 4 hour session. i did find a few cheaper artists but their work is just horrible. So now im still looking for someone that would keep me in the 3 to 4 hundred dollar range.

You're gonna get a kick out of this. I went and saw my dad today and he was telling me about this girl that works there and her boyfriend just left her. first words out of my mouth were "she doesn't need a green card, does she?" and my very very gay brother goes 'Don't look at me'. My dad goes on to tell me that she asked him about his kids and he tells her about my brother my sister and me. and that she said she'd like to meet the youngest one. Me. he also tells me that she's cute, short, light complected, originally from Oaxaca Mexico and doesn't speak a word of english. I gotta admit i thought about it for a second. It would be a win-win situation. She needs her citizenship and to learn english, and i need to learn spanish and get laid. What could possibly go wrong? i will admit though, the more i think about it is directly related to how much ive been drinking today.