Today is worse than yesterday, but I push on. This will pass soon and I will be able to function some. I have a lot of cleaning to do, and a lot of things to go through before this move. The faster I do it, the faster I can get out of here. I will get to see some people before leaving here, so that will be nice juggalosic and I have a long road trip ahead of us!

I wanted to thank scottaroogi and CherryNoir for checking on me today, very sweet of you both and I love you guys! XOXOXO

Crossing my fingers that the 49ers win for Juggalosic

Also crossing my fingers that I feel better by tomorrow because I am tired of this.

Hope everyone had a great weekend, and that you remembered to thank a Veteran!!

XOXOXOXOXO

Another day of pain.
I am tired.
I am worn.
I am stressed out.
I have lost count of the days for the pain is exhausting.
Nothing touches the pain.
I am in tears.
I just want to disappear.
But I push on.
Not every day will be like this.
I hope.
I wish.
What else can I do?

xoxoxo

Another day closer to moving...I'm counting down the days. I wish I had a more exact date, but knowing I am leaving for something better makes the days left bearable. I look forward to all of the times I have ahead of me and it is those thoughts that help me get through the irritable days left here. I look forward to a life full of laughter and love and passion. I look forward to a family one day. For friends to surround me and to be the person I was meant to be. Each day I have to be here, I just get stronger. Soon can't come soon enough, I do know that. Fortunately I have love, I have happiness, and I have a life I could only dream about waiting ahead for me. These are the thoughts that help me during the aggravating times. Le sigh....I can't wait for my dreams to come true.

XOXOXO

I wish for you.....

Comfort on difficult days,
Smiles when sadness intrudes,
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to feel your lips,
Sunsets to warm your heart,
Gentle hugs when your spirits sag,
Friendships to brighten your day,
Beauty for your eyes to see,
Confidence for when you doubt,
Faith so that you can believe,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
And love to complete your life........


XOXOXO

I have been suffering through much pain, surviving, but suffering none the less. These migraines will be the end of me, at least they will try to be. For those of you who have wondered why I haven't been so talkative....this is why.

On another note, despite my pain level, my mood is quite great. It's amazing how someone ( juggalosic ) can keep your spirits so high that you forget about all else. There are so many changes coming...changes I look forward to more than anything in the world. What I don't look forward to? Going through the last 7 years of my life and deciding what I want to keep and not keep. Figuring out the specifics of a 3000 mile trip. I will get through it, but it is stressful at times.

I've decided that since I can't work, that I should write something. Maybe short stories, maybe children's books, maybe an erotic novel...I don't know. I enjoy writing and I used to do it all of the time. Even more, some people seem to enjoy reading what I write, so that is great encouragement

Until later......XOXOXO

So I'm bored and sleep deprived....so I played with a pair of my favorite boots! Enjoy the pics Have a great Saturday <3

XOXOXO

juggalosic Thinking of you always
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Going out to play games tonight... I'm playing normal too. It happens. Hope everyone has a great night <3

xoxoxo

I hurt really bad today. My migraine is on day forever. EH. It happens. That's the bad news. The good news: I am keeping my RJ.....I can't bring myself to get rid of my puppy. I don't think he would live without me, and that thought is what has led me to keep him. I thank you juggalosic for being so understanding and loving. I appreciate it more than you know. I love you my monkey

Also wanted to tell my cherrynoir that I love our talks and everything about you! Such a wonderful lady

hodor and fister_ you both remind me Juggalo and I....so happy, so in love, so perfect. If I must share my wifey, I am glad that Fister is the man to do it.

Until later.......
XOXOXOOXOXOOX

So I am again irritated at the fact people don't mind their own business. Why people can't be happy for someone is beyond my realm of thinking. My sweet Cherry is mad, and this makes me mad because she doesn't deserve that!!! BE happy for others fuckers! Respect their wishes. If you don't like what they are talking about, keep it to yourself. Just back the fuck off and give people their lives. GRRRR.

I loves you my Cherry

Took some pics for my Cherry Here's a peek!