Since I am going to be off the computer for the next week, I wanted to wish everyone a great week! I know my week will be great, despite this cold that is trying to start 
Just means more cuddles 
Big hugs to you all! If you need me, you know how to get me 
XOXO
Just means more cuddles Big hugs to you all! If you need me, you know how to get me XOXO
The family is gone...left this morning. It was great having them here, but so tiresome! A great turkey day overall Now to figure out what pretty clothes to take with me next week for my early Christmas present 
Fortunately, my wifey Hodor is going to be helping with that tomorrow Hopefully the days don't drag by!! Hope everyone had a great holiday and that you have a great night!!
XOXOXO
Now to figure out what pretty clothes to take with me next week for my early Christmas present Fortunately, my wifey Hodor is going to be helping with that tomorrow Hopefully the days don't drag by!! Hope everyone had a great holiday and that you have a great night!!XOXOXO
About to go get all the Turkey day food....my parents and niece will be here tonight. Pretty excited to see them...it will be the last time for a while. The week is going by so slow....likely because I am so excited about next week I have a date with the wifey, hodor on Friday too! Probably the most excitable holiday season I have had in years!
Hope everyone is having a wonderful day....BIG HUGS!
XOXOXO
A smile for you
I have a date with the wifey, hodor on Friday too! Probably the most excitable holiday season I have had in years! Hope everyone is having a wonderful day....BIG HUGS!
XOXOXO
A smile for you
I have an exciting couple of weeks ahead of me! My parents will be here tomorrow through Friday and then I get an early Christmas present next Monday Words can't express my excitement!!!!! Oh, the things I will do....mmmmm.....YES. This is going to be a long week
I hope everyone has a great turkey day and eats tons! I may not be on much, but I will be checking at night <3
Tons of hugs and love
XOXO
Words can't express my excitement!!!!! Oh, the things I will do....mmmmm.....YES. This is going to be a long week I hope everyone has a great turkey day and eats tons! I may not be on much, but I will be checking at night <3
Tons of hugs and love
XOXO
Here it is, 0430 in the morning and I am still awake, mind going a million miles a minute. Nothing is wrong. On the contrary, everything is completely perfect-besides my current location. I am truly happy with where life is going, who it's going with and I know that my days will only get better. The mere thought of finally being with the one person I couldn't imagine life without excites me to no end. So as I sit here, tired and unable to sleep, I catch myself daydreaming about the future. The little moments that I know I will hold dear are things I look forward to more than words can even express. The moments that have already happened are so precious to me, so close to my heart. I look forward to my days, to my texts, to my phone calls, to my Skype dates and I count down the seconds until I will finally be in his arms. A feeling that I long for like the air I breathe. A feeling that I know I will never be able to do without. True love owns me....every inch and I give myself willingly. Who would have imagined that life has this in store for me? I love you my monkey and it just keeps growing and growing.
XOXOXO
XOXOXO
Well....I may still feel rough, but I am super happy that juggalosic got one of his gifts today He is always the best part of my days <3 <3 <3
Obviously the dog can tell I feel poopy because he won't leave my side now. Brighter side....I'm getting some cheesy pizza!
Hope everyone has a wonderful Friday night!
XOXO
He is always the best part of my days <3 <3 <3 Obviously the dog can tell I feel poopy because he won't leave my side now. Brighter side....I'm getting some cheesy pizza!
Hope everyone has a wonderful Friday night!
XOXO
All I want today is gatorade, broccoli and cheese soup with bread, hugs, cuddles, my Billy Monkey, more cuddles, and of course.... my juggalosic.
It's a poopy day
Hope you all are having a much better one than I am <3
xoxo
It's a poopy day
Hope you all are having a much better one than I am <3
xoxo
Today went as I figured....very long, very frustrating. I still smiled. I can't help but smile.
6 Years ago today, I got married. 1 year ago, I realized that I shouldn't be, but wasn't strong enough to leave. I found that strength recently. I dealt with the feelings of being a failure before I am 30. I dealt with the pain of a failed marriage. I dealt with the pain of not having someone look at me with the sparkle that was once there. It was hard THEN. Those feelings have long been gone from me. That doesn't mean I have no feelings. I saw how hard it was for him to deal with today, saw the tears in his eyes as he played his game, saw the pain he was in. I even got told about the "dead end" he feels that he is at. I listened. I watched the tears come down. And I left the room. I never want to see someone hurt like that, but that doesn't mean it isn't happening. There is nothing I can do to change that. It is my fault for being so weak and staying longer. You grow. You learn. Everything happens for a reason. I know my reason.
Not once have I regretted my decision to leave, nor will I regret it. I wish him all of the happiness in the world-even as he sits and says hateful things because he hurts. I know that feeling. I understand it. But I will not sit and be victim to it. To be told how horrible I am for saying what needed to be said.
Picking up my life and moving is the best thing I can do for myself. I learned what I wanted and what I need in a man. I am fortunate that I have found everything I could want and more in one. The word "soul mate" doesn't even describe the feelings I have for him. It doesn't touch what I believe us to be. I have never been so sure of anything in my life, could never be more sure of anything. I know the feelings I have in my heart and mind are more real that the clothes touching my body. The distance right now is not easy, but it is also not permanent. I remind myself daily. I have to, because with each passing second, the feelings grow stronger and I long for him like nothing I have ever known. It's a calming feeling, and an exciting one. It's indescribable. it's unbelievable. It's exceptional.
So for now...I count down the days until I am where I belong. Until my life can finally truly begin. It is in knowing that I remain strong. I am happy. I am in love.
6 Years ago today, I got married. 1 year ago, I realized that I shouldn't be, but wasn't strong enough to leave. I found that strength recently. I dealt with the feelings of being a failure before I am 30. I dealt with the pain of a failed marriage. I dealt with the pain of not having someone look at me with the sparkle that was once there. It was hard THEN. Those feelings have long been gone from me. That doesn't mean I have no feelings. I saw how hard it was for him to deal with today, saw the tears in his eyes as he played his game, saw the pain he was in. I even got told about the "dead end" he feels that he is at. I listened. I watched the tears come down. And I left the room. I never want to see someone hurt like that, but that doesn't mean it isn't happening. There is nothing I can do to change that. It is my fault for being so weak and staying longer. You grow. You learn. Everything happens for a reason. I know my reason.
Not once have I regretted my decision to leave, nor will I regret it. I wish him all of the happiness in the world-even as he sits and says hateful things because he hurts. I know that feeling. I understand it. But I will not sit and be victim to it. To be told how horrible I am for saying what needed to be said.
Picking up my life and moving is the best thing I can do for myself. I learned what I wanted and what I need in a man. I am fortunate that I have found everything I could want and more in one. The word "soul mate" doesn't even describe the feelings I have for him. It doesn't touch what I believe us to be. I have never been so sure of anything in my life, could never be more sure of anything. I know the feelings I have in my heart and mind are more real that the clothes touching my body. The distance right now is not easy, but it is also not permanent. I remind myself daily. I have to, because with each passing second, the feelings grow stronger and I long for him like nothing I have ever known. It's a calming feeling, and an exciting one. It's indescribable. it's unbelievable. It's exceptional.
So for now...I count down the days until I am where I belong. Until my life can finally truly begin. It is in knowing that I remain strong. I am happy. I am in love.
It's amazing how a person can come in your life and remind you what it is like to be alive. The kind of person you dream about, that makes your face light up, your stomach full of butterflies, and just makes you melt. I believe few people really understand this feeling, and that the ones that do are truly fortunate. For I have loved in my life, but have never known love like I know it now. It's better than I have read about, or watched in movies, and it's such a tremendous feeling of being truly complete. No matter my physical pain, or the irritation I have from certain people, I still smile as if I am on top of the world. I can smile like that because I really am on top of the world. It sweeps me off my feet and makes me melt into a puddle. And my happiness is visible in every way possible. Nothing and no one can or will bring me down. I love you my Juggalo, thank you for reminding me what life is SUPPOSED to be like.
XOXO
XOXO
Still trying to avoid the useless ER here in town...may not be able to for much longer. What can ya do? I wanted to take the time to thank some special people who took the time to check on me.... hodor boots scottaroogi CherryNoir Jorek demonic420 and of courseJuggalosic .....You guys are amazing and I really appreciate your kind words and wishes to feel better. I am truly a lucky person
Things here at home are irritating to say the least...he does what he can to make me angry, yet I continue to bite my tongue. Fortunately, I am too happy to really care what he says anymore. I know where my heart belongs, and where I belong, and all I can do is wish that time goes by faster so that I can get there.
I am looking forward to my trip...not only is it with an amazing man, but we are going to go see Scott and pass through Texas to see one of my best friends Pretty excited to say the least! RJ will be so excited to see everyone and to go on a long trip, not to mention seeing his new home.
Until next time.....XOXOXO
*enjoy the old picture I found*
Things here at home are irritating to say the least...he does what he can to make me angry, yet I continue to bite my tongue. Fortunately, I am too happy to really care what he says anymore. I know where my heart belongs, and where I belong, and all I can do is wish that time goes by faster so that I can get there.
I am looking forward to my trip...not only is it with an amazing man, but we are going to go see Scott and pass through Texas to see one of my best friends
Pretty excited to say the least! RJ will be so excited to see everyone and to go on a long trip, not to mention seeing his new home. Until next time.....XOXOXO
*enjoy the old picture I found*
