Good news! I finally got a few hours of sleep! Unfortunately, I don't feel super rested, but some is better than none. My pain hasn't let up much at all, but it will at some point. Pretty nice couple of days. Yesterday, I made dinner for the ex...one of his favorites: chicken, black beans and rice. It was good..pretty much because I am amazing!

Then I had a nice wine date with ZombieRose that led to fun chat time with awesome new friends!

I played with some collage app and made a pretty picture of Arsenic since we have zero together


As for today...I got some rest at about 0800 and woke up at noon. Tonight is going to be a movie with the ex, pizza, and wine.

I've decided to do a wishlist-just for the hell of it. I don't actually expect to get anything off of it, but it's still fun to make the list of things I want. Don't you want to help support my shoe, purse, sunglasses, and book addictions?? Speaking of which.... my sweet Juggalosic got me The Grimm Fairytales, so I am super excited about that! He's so good to me
Of course, I have added some random pics from last night...enjoy! Hope you all have an amazing Saturday evening <3 <3 <3

XOXO

Still lacking on sleep, but it happens. Had a nice evening though sending videos and pictures to Juggalosic so that was nice. I imagine that man has like a million pictures of me by now, but he seems to enjoy them, so I will continue to load him up with mah face and nakedness.

Since my pain levels are still sky high, the doctor put in for a different narcotic and muscle relaxer...we will see if they do anything .I'm not hopeful, but perhaps I will sleep some.

I have a long distance wine date tonight with ZombieRose. I'm making my chicken, black beans, and rice for the ex for dinner tonight. Yummy in my tummy!

Whelp, I can't think of much else to say...Enjoy the pics and a nice cleavage shot from last night!
XOXOXO

I finally got some sleep, though I could definitely stand to get more. I took like 40 pics for Juggalosic early this morning and I shared some in my albums-hope you enjoy That man makes me smile so much it hurts! I look forward to every moment I get with him and am so ecstatic that we have forever together. I love you baby!

I am so happy that ZombieRose is enjoying the site...it makes me really happy to see her smile so much again. Happiness looks great on her

I read CleoKat blog today and I know that she is super busy with school and work. I've decided that I will continue doing Topless Tuesday's in her honor, so I hope you all enjoy. No promises that I can touch her awesomeness, but I will still try to make you smile as much as she does! I considered doing Thong Thursdays, but I'm not even going to embarrass myself with that because she has an untouchable ass <3

I also wanted to say thanks to all of you amazing people for the wonderful compliments on my hair! I'm lucky to have such amazing friends that take the time to read my rambling blogs and say such nice things. I am a fortunate woman

I could really go for some Arsenic snuggles...I miss her so I love you Star!

XOXO

My hair is amazing!!! I am going to miss my Kesha when I leave here, but I will get to have her do it one more time before moving. She went with Indigo Blue and Fuschia and then curled it up like a doll. Yes, I am bouncing my head around like a little girl because of the curls. Yes, I am getting laughed at by Juggalosic but I think he is just amazed at my cuteness today. Hope you all enjoyed Topless Tuesday earlier...I did it in honor of CleoKat because I know she is busy with school-so Cleo, those were for YOU babe

And...pictures of my hair!!! Kisses and Hugs and Lots of Love!

Well, court went great! Things are moving along wonderfully. I should have my boxes this next week so I can get to packing. March isn't that far away (it's far enough, don't get me wrong). I have this week to rest up from these shots and then next week starts getting shit in order so I am all set when it's time to leave. I will be glad when I am not hurting so damn bad because this sucks monkey balls

Since I am up and it is Tuesday...I figure I will do a few pics for Topless Tuesday. And few pictures from my silliness earlier while my hair is still red. Later today my girl is doing it blue and pink I believe-we will see what kind of mood she is in. Also!! Finally got one of my best friends to join...so send ZombieRose lots of love

Just some quick ones, sorry, not too special.


Silly Rabbit


And for my Juggalosic * I love you *


XOXO

Long day tomorrow at court. I get to dress "professional" and pretend to be happily married for the day. Things have been better than I expected since I have been back in North Carolina. Despite my pain, I am doing pretty decent. I have an official move date now, so that is exciting! March 15th can't come soon enough Now, if only I could find a magical way to pack

This week starts my working out/diet to get my flat stomach back. I'm tired of being jiggly in the wrong places. It will happen, slowly but surely.

Whelp, my meds are kicking in and I suppose it is time to sleep some. Well, as much sleep as I can get with all this pain and stuff on my mind.

XOXO

Whelp...it's 0730 and I am still wide awake. Despite the immense amount of medications, I am still in pain, and I believe my mother in law gave me her cold, so that is now added to the list. RJ and I have been vegging out big time watching TV, and coloring. I have eaten like 7 sammiches, a bag of celery (with the help of RJ), some carrots, some soda in hopes the caffeine would help the migraines (it's not), and that's it so far. I am definitely going to need to go to the grocery store again for more bread and meat, and get the things my ex didn't get from my list. (At least he was kind enough to see how much pain I am in and went to get some things for me, and even went to pick up dinner for me, so I am thankful for that.) I have to go get more of my muscle relaxers anyways.

Anyways...I figure I will eventually pass out at some point. If I can function shortly, I may put some clothes on and get take care of things, but I know that I won't be feeling much better any time soon and I can't really drive with the amount of pills I have taken. Eh, what can ya do? At least RJ is on his best behavior.

I did take some random pics throughout the early morning hours. I may be smiling, but the pain and exhaustion definitely show in the pics. (Yes, my boobs do appear to be that big, lol) Enjoy!

Love you XOXO

I really do miss sleeping I do know why I'm not able to right now though-the pain is tremendous. I got my Botox migraine treatment today and my goodness was it more painful this time than the past 2 times. I can tell you now, I will wear my wrinkles proudly because to get that shit for cosmetic purposes is just NOT worth it. FUCK THAT. I know I should think positive that the treatment will work, but I'm not. I'd rather not get my hopes up that it will work. Needless to say, the past couple of days have been rough and I know that I have several more rough days coming up.

I hope everyone is doing better than I am and that you have a wonderful weekend planned!

Missing Billy like crazy....wishing the days will go by quickly.

SOOOO.......I can't sleep...someone entertain me please <3

XOXO

Since I have been back in NC I have only gotten a few hours of real sleep. Strange how I can easily fall asleep in CA with Juggalosic but can barely get tired here. Hopefully I am only here for a couple of months and then I can finally go HOME. I definitely miss nightly cuddles and kisses all day-and everything else. Le Sigh.

Today started out very painful. My jaw keeps going in and out of place, so it is more painful than usual. My doctor had a difficult time getting my birth control out-sooo very painful. It has been extremely hard for me to walk today. My migraine is on super mode. Fortunately, my doc gave me some pain meds...if only they would work! As if I don't hurt enough, I get my next round of Botox tomorrow for my migraines. 50+ shots, here I come! Not looking forward to it, or the pain that follows. This will be my last try to see if it works. Third time is a charm, right?

Once I start feeling human after all of this (which won't be for a couple of weeks) I have to start with my packing and getting my affairs in order to move. I'd be lying if I said that I don't get a little anxiety thinking about everything that needs to be done. Crossing my fingers that it goes smoothly...I could really use a break from difficult things. Either way, I will get through it, I always do. Each obstacle only makes me stronger. On the positive side of things-I couldn't be happier with where my life has taken me and where I am going. Things feel right for once and I know where I am supposed to be, who I'm supposed to be with. For that, I am truly thankful.

Life has lead me to amazing things. A wonderful love, the greatest friends, new family, happiness. For everything difficult and trying moment I have, greatness matches it tenfold. Despite my sickness, I have come out on top of the world. Life has purpose. Life is full of love.

Random pics from today


My Coconut Monkey from Billy <3


Nice Words.

Smile


XOXO

Well...sad day today...I'm leaving my sweet love for now. I'm a sad rabbit. So much to do once I get back...not looking forward to it, but it must get done.

I did have an amazing few weeks with my Juggalosic and I wouldn't change a single second of it. Life feels right for the first time-I have a purpose and I'm happy. Easily been the best few weeks of my life it's quite amazing how much one person can change things for you.

Until later....

Xoxo