I've been neglecting SG in lieu of my Facebook, which I apologize for:
Working in SF is awesome. I work in the same building as Zynga, the Farmville/Frontierville/Cityville/Everythingville people. It's a really cool place to work. People wear Woot/Threadless shirts and chucks to the office and bring their puppies.
I'm making Facebook games for The History Channel and I work with three awesome dudes. That's our entire development team. I'm a production assistant, which means I do a little bit of everything. Photoshop, coding, editorial, community management, bug tracking, shopping for office supplies, etc.
I'm couchsurfing right now and living out of a suitcase, which is hectic and stressful. I usually don't know where I'm sleeping until I get off work and see who wants to hang out and then let me crash on their couch. It's adding some stress, and some back pain from not sleeping in my bed, but...
I'm going to be moving into an amazing house with three of the coolest people I've ever met (not my co-workers). My basement room is 800 sq. feet. I'm going to be able to set up my drums in there, plus have a little gaming nook with a few ikea couches and a TV, plus my bed, a wardrobe, and who knows what else. 800 sq. feet is an incredible amount of space. There's also my own refrigerator, bathroom with shower, and a hot tub in the basement with me. Yes, a hot tub. The house has a stained glass greenhouse attached to it where one of my future roommates, a professional chef, grows his own herbs. The living room has a 5' diameter circular gaming table with a 3' diameter rotating platform in the middle, like a dim sum table. I'm so fucking ecstatic about moving in here.
Driving to and from Reno every few weeks to pack, work on cleaning and moving out of my house there, etc. It's hectic.
Spending time with a few awesome people from SG, too. Mavenist is kind of special and I heart her a lot. Met DelaneyJae the other day and squee'd when she swore. She's all kinds of adorable and I hope to hang more with her in the future.
Had a vacation in Boston for PAX East and I met Steffie, Gigabrain, and Ravioli, which was awesome. I almost saw Ravioli's boobs. Next time!
Anyway. That's my hastily typed update. I heart you all and hopefully I'll be more settled soon.
Working in SF is awesome. I work in the same building as Zynga, the Farmville/Frontierville/Cityville/Everythingville people. It's a really cool place to work. People wear Woot/Threadless shirts and chucks to the office and bring their puppies.
I'm making Facebook games for The History Channel and I work with three awesome dudes. That's our entire development team. I'm a production assistant, which means I do a little bit of everything. Photoshop, coding, editorial, community management, bug tracking, shopping for office supplies, etc.
I'm couchsurfing right now and living out of a suitcase, which is hectic and stressful. I usually don't know where I'm sleeping until I get off work and see who wants to hang out and then let me crash on their couch. It's adding some stress, and some back pain from not sleeping in my bed, but...
I'm going to be moving into an amazing house with three of the coolest people I've ever met (not my co-workers). My basement room is 800 sq. feet. I'm going to be able to set up my drums in there, plus have a little gaming nook with a few ikea couches and a TV, plus my bed, a wardrobe, and who knows what else. 800 sq. feet is an incredible amount of space. There's also my own refrigerator, bathroom with shower, and a hot tub in the basement with me. Yes, a hot tub. The house has a stained glass greenhouse attached to it where one of my future roommates, a professional chef, grows his own herbs. The living room has a 5' diameter circular gaming table with a 3' diameter rotating platform in the middle, like a dim sum table. I'm so fucking ecstatic about moving in here.
Driving to and from Reno every few weeks to pack, work on cleaning and moving out of my house there, etc. It's hectic.
Spending time with a few awesome people from SG, too. Mavenist is kind of special and I heart her a lot. Met DelaneyJae the other day and squee'd when she swore. She's all kinds of adorable and I hope to hang more with her in the future.
Had a vacation in Boston for PAX East and I met Steffie, Gigabrain, and Ravioli, which was awesome. I almost saw Ravioli's boobs. Next time!
Anyway. That's my hastily typed update. I heart you all and hopefully I'll be more settled soon.
And still, after three months, talking to my ex fills me with anxiety and an awful feeling in my stomach. She wants to see me before I move. Would it be totally fucked up to tell her that I don't want to see her at all before I move to San Francisco?
So many things to do. My bedroom is full of dirty clothes, my kitchen is a mess, and my car is dirty. This would all be perfectly reasonable for me to deal with, except I'm moving to San Francisco in like... a month. Oh, and I'm taking a week long vacation in exactly two weeks. Oh, and I'm living out of a suitcase for the work week for the forseeable future.
Gotta clean enough clothes to get me through the week, go to Wal-Mart and buy travel-sized everything, and clean out my car.
I'm so excited, though. I'm probably going to end up living in a big house with a few of my friends, which is great. I'm taking the basement, which is huge and will accommodate my 2-bedroom house amount of stuff quite nicely. I have to condense down, so I'm going to have a garage sale in the next few weeks. Couch goes, recliner goes, washing machine goes, treadmill goes, cedar chest goes... so much furniture I'm accumulated over the years living in Reno.
It will be nice to start over. I've had some amazing experiences in Reno, but I'm looking forward to a change of scenery and people. I hopped on OK Cupid and almost every woman on there is above an 80% match. Clearly the bay area is my kind of place. I can get away from my ex and the bad feelings she still brings up. I've got an awesome job working with a really good friend of mine, doing something I'm passionate about.
And the icing on the cake? Mavenist, _Felix_, and DelaneyJae are all within an hour! I can has, please? Yay!
Gotta clean enough clothes to get me through the week, go to Wal-Mart and buy travel-sized everything, and clean out my car.
I'm so excited, though. I'm probably going to end up living in a big house with a few of my friends, which is great. I'm taking the basement, which is huge and will accommodate my 2-bedroom house amount of stuff quite nicely. I have to condense down, so I'm going to have a garage sale in the next few weeks. Couch goes, recliner goes, washing machine goes, treadmill goes, cedar chest goes... so much furniture I'm accumulated over the years living in Reno.
It will be nice to start over. I've had some amazing experiences in Reno, but I'm looking forward to a change of scenery and people. I hopped on OK Cupid and almost every woman on there is above an 80% match. Clearly the bay area is my kind of place. I can get away from my ex and the bad feelings she still brings up. I've got an awesome job working with a really good friend of mine, doing something I'm passionate about.
And the icing on the cake? Mavenist, _Felix_, and DelaneyJae are all within an hour! I can has, please? Yay!
Big news. I've taken a job in San Francisco as a production assistant for a company that develops Facebook games for The History Channel. I've already given notice at my current job. I'll be moving to San Francisco in the next month or so, probably living with friends in a mansion near Golden Gate Park.
So that previous blog, about wanting to move to the bay area? Yeah, that's happening.
I'm on top of the world right now. What is it with February being an amazing, awesome, life changing month for me? Every February for the past three years my life has taken radical, fundamental turns.
Everything is coming up Milhouse.
So that previous blog, about wanting to move to the bay area? Yeah, that's happening.
I'm on top of the world right now. What is it with February being an amazing, awesome, life changing month for me? Every February for the past three years my life has taken radical, fundamental turns.
Everything is coming up Milhouse.
Mavenist is an absolute doll, and is one of the big reasons why I want to move to the bay area. Just saying.
My bed is so soft and comfy and warm right now. I'm loving it.
So the girl mentioned in the previous blog has had an awful week, and I offered to cook dinner for her and try to make it suck less. Naturally, she agreed. Sometime this week.
My question to you is: what should I make? I tried a recipe for pork wellington (pork tenderloin stuffed with apples, brushed with dijon mustard, wrapped in puff pastry and baked) and it was actually really disappointing, so I'm back to the drawing board.
A friend of mine suggested kebabs, because they're kind of a fun finger food, but I'm not sure I want to be grilling outside in the cold weather, dipping in and out of the house and leaving her alone.
Pasta is always a good choice, but I feel like it's a little cheezy. Every time I think of making pasta I just think of that Lady and the Tramp spaghetti scene.
Would homemade macaroni and cheese be too "low rent?" Would a steak be overboard? Help me find some good date food. I can cook anything.
For dessert, I'm making homemade bread pudding. Amazing bread pudding from scratch should do it, right? Especially if there's a little wine beforehand? I'd love to fuck this girl. She's so sexy.
So the girl mentioned in the previous blog has had an awful week, and I offered to cook dinner for her and try to make it suck less. Naturally, she agreed. Sometime this week.
My question to you is: what should I make? I tried a recipe for pork wellington (pork tenderloin stuffed with apples, brushed with dijon mustard, wrapped in puff pastry and baked) and it was actually really disappointing, so I'm back to the drawing board.
A friend of mine suggested kebabs, because they're kind of a fun finger food, but I'm not sure I want to be grilling outside in the cold weather, dipping in and out of the house and leaving her alone.
Pasta is always a good choice, but I feel like it's a little cheezy. Every time I think of making pasta I just think of that Lady and the Tramp spaghetti scene.
Would homemade macaroni and cheese be too "low rent?" Would a steak be overboard? Help me find some good date food. I can cook anything.
For dessert, I'm making homemade bread pudding. Amazing bread pudding from scratch should do it, right? Especially if there's a little wine beforehand? I'd love to fuck this girl. She's so sexy.
Annnnd life goes on. Met up with a girl I've had a thing for, for quite a while. We actually almost had a threesome when my ex and I were together, but she wasn't really attracted to my ex. A few pitchers of beer later and I left her house at 4:30am after making out and some hands in some places. It was very nice.
So I think we're going to work ourselves into a FWB kind of thing, which is excellent. I've never done that before, though. It's going to be hard not to over-indulge and bug her too much.
Still, though. Such a pretty girl. I've wanted to do things to her for suuuuuch a long time. It's always a nice boost to my self esteem to go out with a girl who I want, and then get her.
So I think we're going to work ourselves into a FWB kind of thing, which is excellent. I've never done that before, though. It's going to be hard not to over-indulge and bug her too much.
Still, though. Such a pretty girl. I've wanted to do things to her for suuuuuch a long time. It's always a nice boost to my self esteem to go out with a girl who I want, and then get her.
I think the hardest part about this is how much of a rollercoaster I am right now. I'll be fine, and all of a sudden she'll pop into my head and put me in a completely foul mood. Just out of the blue. I hate that I can sink into these bad moods and bad places so quickly.
Finally told my ex how I feel: that I would have never, ever, have done to her what she did to me. That breaking up with me when we were both in love with each other, just to go fuck around with this other guy because she was attracted to him, felt like she bailed on our relationship without even trying to fix it. That she didn't give our relationship the chance it deserved. That apparently all it takes is being interested in someone for her to give up on someone who loved her. That the fact that she didn't wait for us to properly break up and for our feelings for each other to subside before she put herself out there for someone else, both emotionally and physically, felt like a betrayal and destroyed me. That sometimes I'm not convinced that she cares about me anymore, when she claims to. That seeing her with another person so soon, willing to care about someone so soon after me, willing to set time aside for someone and NOT for me, emotionally consumes me. That she broke my heart, and that I want to move away from this entire city, and people I love, just to start over and sever my connection to her so my heart won't ache anymore.
I feel like a monster for making her cry and forcing her to hang up the phone because she couldn't make words anymore, but at the same time, I know that those things all had to be said.
Can I have a hug, please?
I feel like a monster for making her cry and forcing her to hang up the phone because she couldn't make words anymore, but at the same time, I know that those things all had to be said.
Can I have a hug, please?
