Khoos to the rescue.
I'm having a pretty difficult time with my girlfriend right now, and we had a pretty serious conversation that left my brain spinning. I was unable to sleep and I just wanted someone to talk to, so I could just... get everything out, you know?
Messaged Khoos on kind of a whim, mostly because she had just posted on FB a few minutes ago, and we had a long conversation via IM and Skype that a) gave me some really useful suggestions and b) just let me talk for a while and spill my guts. I feel SO much better.
mydogfarted, you have an amazing wife and two gorgeous daughters. I know you know how special your family is, but I thought I'd remind you.
<3 to all four of you.
I'm having a pretty difficult time with my girlfriend right now, and we had a pretty serious conversation that left my brain spinning. I was unable to sleep and I just wanted someone to talk to, so I could just... get everything out, you know?
Messaged Khoos on kind of a whim, mostly because she had just posted on FB a few minutes ago, and we had a long conversation via IM and Skype that a) gave me some really useful suggestions and b) just let me talk for a while and spill my guts. I feel SO much better.
mydogfarted, you have an amazing wife and two gorgeous daughters. I know you know how special your family is, but I thought I'd remind you.
<3 to all four of you.
I just tried a Tenga egg for the first time. I was with the lady at Good Vibrations the other day and we couldn't really find anything we wanted, but the Tenga eggs were $2.50, so I bought one, put it in my bag, and forgot about it.
Cut to five days later. I haven't masturbated or orgasmed at all in five days. I suddenly have a very real case of blue balls, I go to masturbate, and then I think, "HOLY SHIT, I HAVE A TENGA EGG."
It was worth pretty much exactly what I paid. $2.50. A nice little twist on masturbation. Nothing crazy or exciting. I'd keep a few around when I wanted something that felt a little different, but it's not going to change the way I get myself off and if it was $5, I wouldn't buy another one.
Anyway. Thought you all might like to know that.
Cut to five days later. I haven't masturbated or orgasmed at all in five days. I suddenly have a very real case of blue balls, I go to masturbate, and then I think, "HOLY SHIT, I HAVE A TENGA EGG."
It was worth pretty much exactly what I paid. $2.50. A nice little twist on masturbation. Nothing crazy or exciting. I'd keep a few around when I wanted something that felt a little different, but it's not going to change the way I get myself off and if it was $5, I wouldn't buy another one.
Anyway. Thought you all might like to know that.
Happiest I've been in quite a while.
What's going to happen if Alix visits, she's amazing, we really are in love with each other like we think we are, and in May she moves out here?
Seriously?
I have an amazing job and the start of a life-long, lucrative career. I live in an awesome city in a great part of the world, in a house with some of my best friends. I'm young and (relatively) healthy.
Along comes a woman who I adore, who loves me just as much as I love her, who shares my hobbies and my kinks in the bedroom, who I'm ecstatic about seeing, who I'm proud to introduce to my friends. Add her to the mix.
What's going to happen, exactly?
That's what I'm nervous about. What happens when you get everything you could possibly want, or at least the BIG things?
What's going to happen if Alix visits, she's amazing, we really are in love with each other like we think we are, and in May she moves out here?
Seriously?
I have an amazing job and the start of a life-long, lucrative career. I live in an awesome city in a great part of the world, in a house with some of my best friends. I'm young and (relatively) healthy.
Along comes a woman who I adore, who loves me just as much as I love her, who shares my hobbies and my kinks in the bedroom, who I'm ecstatic about seeing, who I'm proud to introduce to my friends. Add her to the mix.
What's going to happen, exactly?
That's what I'm nervous about. What happens when you get everything you could possibly want, or at least the BIG things?
Alix (that's her name, how amazing is that) bought a plane ticket today. E-mailed me the itinerary and everything.
So I guess it's about to get real. Well, in a month from now.
She'll be here during Valentine's Day.
My brain just can't shut off. I just start smiling at random times throughout the day, even if we aren't talking.
I got my career start by meeting people at PAX. Now it looks like I might meet someone incredibly special via PAX, too.
Seriously, I can't believe this girl. Look. LOOK!
So I guess it's about to get real. Well, in a month from now.
She'll be here during Valentine's Day.
My brain just can't shut off. I just start smiling at random times throughout the day, even if we aren't talking.
I got my career start by meeting people at PAX. Now it looks like I might meet someone incredibly special via PAX, too.
Seriously, I can't believe this girl. Look. LOOK!
Oh boy. Things are moving reeeeeeeeeeeeeally fast.
She admitted that she had a crush on me prior to this. We had rubbed shoulders at PAX a few times and I had asked to see her tattoo once at a party (I was shy and ran away after she showed me, because she's fucking gorgeous and I got scared).
She's amazing, she really is. We have an incredible amount of stuff in common. She's my age, my body type, my personality type. We're both huge nerds, we both volunteer for PAX, we're both totally kinky in bed, we're both huge sweethearts at our core. She's really everything I'm looking for in a person...
She lives in Boston, though.
She's talking about flying out here in a few weeks for a visit, then I'd probably fly out to Boston sometime in February or March. PAX East is in April, so we'd see each other then. And she finishes up grad school in May. She's already talking about moving out here.
In her defense, she had her sights set on Seattle. So San Francisco isn't a huge change. And there are lots of opportunities for her here (she has a M.A. in Anthropology).
Still, though. Moving awfully fast for only being acquaintances prior to this, and only talking to each other for like... two weeks. We even dropped the "L" word today. But everything in me says it's the right thing to do. It FEELS right.
Part of me thinks maybe this is my "internal clock" asserting itself. I'm 26, almost 27. Single. I have a great job; a career, not just a job; and I have amazing friends. The ONLY thing missing in my life was a girl. And now this girl comes along, and it just seems so perfect... I think I'm leaping at opportunities I would have considered insane a few years ago.
Still though...
Yikes.
She admitted that she had a crush on me prior to this. We had rubbed shoulders at PAX a few times and I had asked to see her tattoo once at a party (I was shy and ran away after she showed me, because she's fucking gorgeous and I got scared).
She's amazing, she really is. We have an incredible amount of stuff in common. She's my age, my body type, my personality type. We're both huge nerds, we both volunteer for PAX, we're both totally kinky in bed, we're both huge sweethearts at our core. She's really everything I'm looking for in a person...
She lives in Boston, though.
She's talking about flying out here in a few weeks for a visit, then I'd probably fly out to Boston sometime in February or March. PAX East is in April, so we'd see each other then. And she finishes up grad school in May. She's already talking about moving out here.
In her defense, she had her sights set on Seattle. So San Francisco isn't a huge change. And there are lots of opportunities for her here (she has a M.A. in Anthropology).
Still, though. Moving awfully fast for only being acquaintances prior to this, and only talking to each other for like... two weeks. We even dropped the "L" word today. But everything in me says it's the right thing to do. It FEELS right.
Part of me thinks maybe this is my "internal clock" asserting itself. I'm 26, almost 27. Single. I have a great job; a career, not just a job; and I have amazing friends. The ONLY thing missing in my life was a girl. And now this girl comes along, and it just seems so perfect... I think I'm leaping at opportunities I would have considered insane a few years ago.
Still though...
Yikes.
And then sometimes a fellow Enforcer has a dream about you taking her to Hooters, so you start talking and pretty soon you spend the next three days on the phone for at least four hours a day.
It's nice when life throws you curveballs, and you just knock them out of the park.
It's nice when life throws you curveballs, and you just knock them out of the park.
Okay. Opinions wanted.
I hooked up with a girl a while ago. It was recently after I had broken up with my girlfriend (about 2 months prior) and I had a thing for this girl for a long time. We actually almost had a threesome, this girl and my girlfriend and me. Got very close, and then she backed out (because, turns out, she didn't dig my girlfriend at the time).
So, this girl and I, we went out, had some drinks, went back to her place, and made out. There were hands in places, etc. After it was over I left.
We've stayed friends since then, and we've talked a lot. I made my interest in her pretty clear at the time, because I genuinely like her. I like her as a person, as a lover, etc. I'm interested in her in a way that I'm usually not interested in most people, men or women, sexual or no. She didn't really reciprocate, for reasons that are explained below. She didn't flat out reject me, or say she wasn't interested. It was more a, "you're awesome, and I am interested, but..."
This girl now, she thinks she's a lesbian. She's young (23) and she has feelings for girls, and she finds them beautiful, and she thinks she's in love with a girl, etc. She has lots of mixed feelings about men, because she sleeps with them or leads them on (or both), but the entire time she feels like it's "wrong" or that she's not that interested, and it makes her feel guilty. She told me that after we fooled around, that she felt guilty almost immediately after because she felt like it wasn't right, despite how much fun she had. The fact that she had fun and enjoyed it made it worse for her. And I honestly do think she's confused, but mostly I think she's just young, and in love with someone who isn't in love back, and unsatisfied. I don't think she's a closeted lesbian or anything. She might like girls, or be in love with a girl, but that doesn't make her a lesbian. That might sound judgmental or a typical heterosexual thing to say, but I know her fairly well, we've talked about it a lot, and that's honestly what I think. It's not just that I'm interested in her that's driving me to think that.
So here's my question. I want to pursue this girl, but at the same time, I do want to be respectful of her. I don't want it to come off as, "you're not a lesbian, you just haven't met the right man yet." Even though that IS kind of what I think, I know how that sounds. I don't want to be dismissive of her. I want to help her. I also want to make an effort to get with her again, and not just fuck her. I'd like to, like, date her.
So, how do I navigate that?
I hooked up with a girl a while ago. It was recently after I had broken up with my girlfriend (about 2 months prior) and I had a thing for this girl for a long time. We actually almost had a threesome, this girl and my girlfriend and me. Got very close, and then she backed out (because, turns out, she didn't dig my girlfriend at the time).
So, this girl and I, we went out, had some drinks, went back to her place, and made out. There were hands in places, etc. After it was over I left.
We've stayed friends since then, and we've talked a lot. I made my interest in her pretty clear at the time, because I genuinely like her. I like her as a person, as a lover, etc. I'm interested in her in a way that I'm usually not interested in most people, men or women, sexual or no. She didn't really reciprocate, for reasons that are explained below. She didn't flat out reject me, or say she wasn't interested. It was more a, "you're awesome, and I am interested, but..."
This girl now, she thinks she's a lesbian. She's young (23) and she has feelings for girls, and she finds them beautiful, and she thinks she's in love with a girl, etc. She has lots of mixed feelings about men, because she sleeps with them or leads them on (or both), but the entire time she feels like it's "wrong" or that she's not that interested, and it makes her feel guilty. She told me that after we fooled around, that she felt guilty almost immediately after because she felt like it wasn't right, despite how much fun she had. The fact that she had fun and enjoyed it made it worse for her. And I honestly do think she's confused, but mostly I think she's just young, and in love with someone who isn't in love back, and unsatisfied. I don't think she's a closeted lesbian or anything. She might like girls, or be in love with a girl, but that doesn't make her a lesbian. That might sound judgmental or a typical heterosexual thing to say, but I know her fairly well, we've talked about it a lot, and that's honestly what I think. It's not just that I'm interested in her that's driving me to think that.
So here's my question. I want to pursue this girl, but at the same time, I do want to be respectful of her. I don't want it to come off as, "you're not a lesbian, you just haven't met the right man yet." Even though that IS kind of what I think, I know how that sounds. I don't want to be dismissive of her. I want to help her. I also want to make an effort to get with her again, and not just fuck her. I'd like to, like, date her.
So, how do I navigate that?
The girl I'm sleeping with right now is into biting my nipples, so I thought it would be nice if I shaved around them. I have a fair amount of chest hair. Never done that before, but I shave my cock and balls every few days, so how much different could it be?
Fast forward 20 minutes, after I've nicked all around my nipples while shaving them because they got hard during the process. I spray cologne on my chest, because that's what I always do.
Fast forward 20 minutes, after I've nicked all around my nipples while shaving them because they got hard during the process. I spray cologne on my chest, because that's what I always do.
Life is kick ass lately. I'm now a Producer for a video game developer, which is pretty awesome promotion. Making good connections and really stepping it up at work. Got a $3,000 bonus today, which I'm going to put towards a down payment on a new car. I'm thinking a Honda Fit, a Nissan Versa, or a Volkswagen Golf. Can't decide, will have to test drive.
In the love life area... not so kick ass. Been seeing this girl (same girl from previous blogs), and I'm just not into her. Basically gave her the cold shoulder tonight and let her drive 30 minutes home to her house, instead of spending the night here and having sex. First time I've ever turned a girl down when I was really horny. How do you tell a person you're just not into them, when it's obvious that they're super into you, without totally breaking their heart? The conversation has to happen soon; I don't want her to think I'm leading her on, and it's getting to the point where I am.
Going out with a girl tomorrow who swears she can kick my ass at Mario Kart. Let's see if there's any potential there.
In the love life area... not so kick ass. Been seeing this girl (same girl from previous blogs), and I'm just not into her. Basically gave her the cold shoulder tonight and let her drive 30 minutes home to her house, instead of spending the night here and having sex. First time I've ever turned a girl down when I was really horny. How do you tell a person you're just not into them, when it's obvious that they're super into you, without totally breaking their heart? The conversation has to happen soon; I don't want her to think I'm leading her on, and it's getting to the point where I am.
Going out with a girl tomorrow who swears she can kick my ass at Mario Kart. Let's see if there's any potential there.
