I'm incredibly lonely.
I grew closer to my ex in the six months that we dated than I think I've ever been with anyone in my entire life. And on top of that, I was mentally broken down to a level I've never been over those six months. Dealing with the whole thing, the severe depression, anxiety, abuse, uncertainty... she was my entire world for six months, even though I was miserable for most of it. It was a burden more than it was a blessing, but it consumed me pretty much entirely.
Now I'm single, work is slow, and I'm really having a hard time being so lonely. I'm irritable and grumpy at everyone, all the time. I have significantly less patience than I normally do. I'm not fun to be around. I'm driving people away, and at the same time, I CRAVE contact. I crave intimacy, and conversation, and just... companionship. I had constant companionship for six solid months, and now I'm alone and bored and I don't know what to do.
I don't WANT to be this way, but I am.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I need to talk to someone.
Halp?
I grew closer to my ex in the six months that we dated than I think I've ever been with anyone in my entire life. And on top of that, I was mentally broken down to a level I've never been over those six months. Dealing with the whole thing, the severe depression, anxiety, abuse, uncertainty... she was my entire world for six months, even though I was miserable for most of it. It was a burden more than it was a blessing, but it consumed me pretty much entirely.
Now I'm single, work is slow, and I'm really having a hard time being so lonely. I'm irritable and grumpy at everyone, all the time. I have significantly less patience than I normally do. I'm not fun to be around. I'm driving people away, and at the same time, I CRAVE contact. I crave intimacy, and conversation, and just... companionship. I had constant companionship for six solid months, and now I'm alone and bored and I don't know what to do.
I don't WANT to be this way, but I am.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I need to talk to someone.
Halp?
AUG 01, 2012 08:45 AM
AUG 01, 2012 10:12 AM
I'd suggest talking to a professional. I'm looking into therapists again because I miss being able to go "Fucking hell I don't understand how I can't deal with this shit! What's wrong with me?", and have them say a couple of non-judgmental words that make me figure out what my real issue is with whatever it is. Try and find someone kind of nerdy though. I really liked my last therapist, but I hated having to sometimes stop and explain geek references. 
