Ok so today was ok i guess.. wasn't as sad as yesterday till i actually saw jeremy ..
Yea till I actually saw Jeremy i was having a good time talking with this stonner kid joe about stupid zombie movies and old friends.. then jeremy showed up and my hapiness just like dropped...
At least Big bro was trying to cheer me up, i luvs him he always there for me... i just hope he don't pummel Jeremy.. i still like him afterall...
And i know Dang is a very strong man... so just hoping no confrontation happens at all.. not at all.. yup...
But yea chilled at the other ex-b/f Mopo's for his b-day kickback, wik the stonner gang haha it was cute he was all like well jay, if you want some i can give you sum ya know to smoke, and hey if you ever get sad you know you can call me...
yup.. he's a sweet kid sometimes.. no wonder i went out with him.. he actually called me after i went to the doctor for the last time to check up on how i was... not many others did.. cept the bro of course..
Yup AND I POSTED PICTURES YAY... IT WAS GREAT!
i gots a pic of my buddy jorge that chills at the park with me, big bro, and tons o pix of me!! yay!!
today wasn't so bad.. feeling a little better.. probably the ammount of greasy food and stuff hahaha..
thanx for cheering me up guys you all rock!!!
Yea till I actually saw Jeremy i was having a good time talking with this stonner kid joe about stupid zombie movies and old friends.. then jeremy showed up and my hapiness just like dropped...
At least Big bro was trying to cheer me up, i luvs him he always there for me... i just hope he don't pummel Jeremy.. i still like him afterall...
And i know Dang is a very strong man... so just hoping no confrontation happens at all.. not at all.. yup...
But yea chilled at the other ex-b/f Mopo's for his b-day kickback, wik the stonner gang haha it was cute he was all like well jay, if you want some i can give you sum ya know to smoke, and hey if you ever get sad you know you can call me...
yup.. he's a sweet kid sometimes.. no wonder i went out with him.. he actually called me after i went to the doctor for the last time to check up on how i was... not many others did.. cept the bro of course..
Yup AND I POSTED PICTURES YAY... IT WAS GREAT!
i gots a pic of my buddy jorge that chills at the park with me, big bro, and tons o pix of me!! yay!!
today wasn't so bad.. feeling a little better.. probably the ammount of greasy food and stuff hahaha..
thanx for cheering me up guys you all rock!!!
*tear*
I told my love,
I told my love,
I told her all my heart;
Trembling cold, in ghastly fears,
Ah! she doth depart.
~William Blake
*sigh* change the "her" and "he" to him and he.....yea..*sniffle*
So i am no longer part of a couple.. it's kinda sad really i think i cried today more than i have cried in a couple of years... it makes me sad at the thought..
Who knew someone could have so much power over me..
at least he isn't going to be like my other ex boyfriends and be a dick and not want to talk to me and not wanna hang out with me, unless it's on their terms and when they want to because i am not worth their time unless they are going out with me or unless i lift the skirt...
He's actually somewhat reasonable about it.. although it breaks my heart.. i still like him *sigh* i am such a loser.
Toamrrow i am going to wake up,
, drink, , 
out, feel like 
, then get 
at stupid stuff and attack people with paintball gun...yea.. i think that's how my day will be...
oh yea and pick up my film and see if SG's fancey new format will let me POST MY DAMN PICTURES!!! ERRRGGGG!!
i feel like skating down the freeway right now... or beating the shit out of stuff with my baseball bat... or starting a fire or sumthing ahhhh!!!!!! I wanna put chinese fire crackers in ash trays and and fuckin.. take my spare bowling balls and roll them down huge hills..and and drink till i puke and my lips turn blue!!!!!
Make the pain stop damnit!!!! ARRRRRRR!
I told my love,
I told my love,
I told her all my heart;
Trembling cold, in ghastly fears,
Ah! she doth depart.
~William Blake
*sigh* change the "her" and "he" to him and he.....yea..*sniffle*
So i am no longer part of a couple.. it's kinda sad really i think i cried today more than i have cried in a couple of years... it makes me sad at the thought..
Who knew someone could have so much power over me..
at least he isn't going to be like my other ex boyfriends and be a dick and not want to talk to me and not wanna hang out with me, unless it's on their terms and when they want to because i am not worth their time unless they are going out with me or unless i lift the skirt...
He's actually somewhat reasonable about it.. although it breaks my heart.. i still like him *sigh* i am such a loser.
Toamrrow i am going to wake up,
, drink, , out, feel like , then get at stupid stuff and attack people with paintball gun...yea.. i think that's how my day will be...oh yea and pick up my film and see if SG's fancey new format will let me POST MY DAMN PICTURES!!! ERRRGGGG!!
i feel like skating down the freeway right now... or beating the shit out of stuff with my baseball bat... or starting a fire or sumthing ahhhh!!!!!! I wanna put chinese fire crackers in ash trays and and fuckin.. take my spare bowling balls and roll them down huge hills..and and drink till i puke and my lips turn blue!!!!!
Make the pain stop damnit!!!! ARRRRRRR!
The Fireman in Training story hehe
so I had just turned 16 and i went to sum rich bitch girls party at the hilton on the very top floor, dressed in a black and red corsette, tight leather pants, red feather boa, dark lipstick and red and black eyeliner... i see all these girls dancing and all the guys sulking around.. so i grabbed the nearest fellow, which happened to be the most buff and had tattoos all over him.
I proceeded to make him dance with me so there would be a man on the dance floor. Then after the dance i pulled the next nearest fellow who had the brightest red liberty spikes and did the same thing. At the end of the night i gave both of them my number, not my name, just my number and left just as fast as i came..
The next day both of them called so i made dates with both of them... met one with the liberty spikes at the mall and he told me his fireman in training brother dropped him off and would bring him home and then go on his date with "sum hot asian grl" he met at a party last night. Me still being a little hung over didn't figure this out right away that they were brothers hahaha...
So this kid tells me his name is Evan and he's 16 and that he has an older brother that's 18 and is a fireman in training really buff with tattoos all over him..i start thinking but am still to hung over to figure it out and we kiss and i tell him i will call him another time, he had to get home anyways, his brother had a big date lol..
So i walk down the street to the tattoo parlor where i was to meet this buff guy and we hang out look at tattoos and he talks to the artist there and we start heading out. by this time i had forgotten what Evan had said about his brother and acted like i hadn't even been told.. hehe...
Kyle was this guys name, he said he was a fireman in training, and we hung out. he bought me dinner and we headed over to his house for sum drinks and maybe some fun afterwards... so i pound up on a couple of screwdrivers and we are in his room, listening to music with LOTS of bass and me with my weak ankles i fall over on top of him... just my luck.. his bed broke our fall...isn't that cute?
So we started to kiss, i ripped off his shirt..and it just became this frenzy of ripping clothes off, kissing, tackle, and pinning. before we knew it we were all over eachother hehe for an hour, little did i notice the knocking on the door when we were finally finished.. BAM! the door opens and all of Evan's band is there and two of Kyles friends..and their mom...
That's when i realized ..KYLE AND EVAN WERE BROTHERS!!! I look over at kyle as he scrambles to lose the door and I see evan's face.. he was sooo mad. I felt kinda bad... then kyle looked really sad as well, he said that the whole way back from my date with Evan, Evan was ranting on about how i was the one he wanted to date i was soo rad and i liked the same music and i was his age and blah blah blah... man so evan really liked me!?!?
And i was soo mean I had sex with his older brother while he was in the next room... kyle was pretty studly if i do say so myself... but yes soo this was the fireman in training story...
We dated a lil after that and he told me he didn't wanna see me anymore because his brother now hated him and still wanted me.. man that was drama haha but i got to see him in his fireman outfit at least before we stopped seeing eachother..
As for Evan..i went to his bands shows and all his friends to this day still tease him that i had done it with his brother... but we went on another date...but that'a another story hehe...
so I had just turned 16 and i went to sum rich bitch girls party at the hilton on the very top floor, dressed in a black and red corsette, tight leather pants, red feather boa, dark lipstick and red and black eyeliner... i see all these girls dancing and all the guys sulking around.. so i grabbed the nearest fellow, which happened to be the most buff and had tattoos all over him.
I proceeded to make him dance with me so there would be a man on the dance floor. Then after the dance i pulled the next nearest fellow who had the brightest red liberty spikes and did the same thing. At the end of the night i gave both of them my number, not my name, just my number and left just as fast as i came..
The next day both of them called so i made dates with both of them... met one with the liberty spikes at the mall and he told me his fireman in training brother dropped him off and would bring him home and then go on his date with "sum hot asian grl" he met at a party last night. Me still being a little hung over didn't figure this out right away that they were brothers hahaha...
So this kid tells me his name is Evan and he's 16 and that he has an older brother that's 18 and is a fireman in training really buff with tattoos all over him..i start thinking but am still to hung over to figure it out and we kiss and i tell him i will call him another time, he had to get home anyways, his brother had a big date lol..
So i walk down the street to the tattoo parlor where i was to meet this buff guy and we hang out look at tattoos and he talks to the artist there and we start heading out. by this time i had forgotten what Evan had said about his brother and acted like i hadn't even been told.. hehe...
Kyle was this guys name, he said he was a fireman in training, and we hung out. he bought me dinner and we headed over to his house for sum drinks and maybe some fun afterwards... so i pound up on a couple of screwdrivers and we are in his room, listening to music with LOTS of bass and me with my weak ankles i fall over on top of him... just my luck.. his bed broke our fall...isn't that cute?
So we started to kiss, i ripped off his shirt..and it just became this frenzy of ripping clothes off, kissing, tackle, and pinning. before we knew it we were all over eachother hehe for an hour, little did i notice the knocking on the door when we were finally finished.. BAM!
the door opens and all of Evan's band is there and two of Kyles friends..and their mom...That's when i realized ..KYLE AND EVAN WERE BROTHERS!!!
I look over at kyle as he scrambles to lose the door and I see evan's face.. he was sooo mad. I felt kinda bad... then kyle looked really sad as well, he said that the whole way back from my date with Evan, Evan was ranting on about how i was the one he wanted to date i was soo rad and i liked the same music and i was his age and blah blah blah... man so evan really liked me!?!?And i was soo mean I had sex with his older brother while he was in the next room... kyle was pretty studly if i do say so myself... but yes soo this was the fireman in training story...
We dated a lil after that and he told me he didn't wanna see me anymore because his brother now hated him and still wanted me.. man that was drama haha but i got to see him in his fireman outfit at least before we stopped seeing eachother..
As for Evan..i went to his bands shows and all his friends to this day still tease him that i had done it with his brother... but we went on another date...but that'a another story hehe...
Today was exciting! filled with a car explosion(well fire), an injury at work, and a kick ass steak dinner mmmm!
Yea i was at the skate park reading a Kurt Vonnegut book when i notice a car in the parking lot next to the sk8 park smoking with white smoke... i am thinkin damn that car must be over heated...then out of nowhere a BIG ASS BOOOM!
Then the smoke soon turned black and brown and flames came from the engine and engulfed the inside of the car! it was so great looking.. i took pictures of it.. yea me the action photographer running near the burning car..
what can i say!?!? i can't stay away from a fire... but ya took pix of the car it was covered in flames and the tree next to it was burning as well. Then the fire poepel came and put it out before the BIG explosion happened...
Then some lil cute kid was skating around and he fell from on eof the ramps and just started to cry violently.. and he had no visible scratched or anything!! so i was all worried but i kept my kewl and told him to take off all the safety gear he had on.
He took off his elbow pads and the rivots in the elbow pads that hold the pads together had gone through the padding and cut really deep into the little boys poor skinny arms!!!!
There was a circle shaped piece of his FLESH not attached to his arm!!!!!! and there was blood all over his arms... so i rushed him to the water fountain with paper towels and pushed the flesh back together and put aneseptic and guaze and medical tape and wrapped it all around really really tight!
I instructed his father(who wasn't even aware of what happened because he was sitting in the car talking on his cell phone leaving this kid alone in the park) to brin ghim directly to the doctor's emergency room and have him see a doctor because he might need stiches...
I think i handled that situation well..at least i hope soo and don't get sued!
Afterwards we headed to tony romas where i bought a steak dinner complete with baked potato, chicken tortilla soup, bread rolls, baked beans, fried onion rings, and mushrooms... man that was a lot to eat...
Thus the day of activity ends and i kill those damn brain cells by looking into the bright lighted box of doom,... aka the comp screen....
my eye will look like this tomarrow and i wil need an eyepatch like this 
....
Yea i was at the skate park reading a Kurt Vonnegut book when i notice a car in the parking lot next to the sk8 park smoking with white smoke... i am thinkin damn that car must be over heated...then out of nowhere a BIG ASS BOOOM!
Then the smoke soon turned black and brown and flames came from the engine and engulfed the inside of the car!
it was so great looking.. i took pictures of it.. yea me the action photographer running near the burning car..what can i say!?!? i can't stay away from a fire... but ya took pix of the car it was covered in flames and the tree next to it was burning as well. Then the fire poepel came and put it out before the BIG explosion happened...
Then some lil cute kid was skating around and he fell from on eof the ramps and just started to cry violently.. and he had no visible scratched or anything!! so i was all worried but i kept my kewl and told him to take off all the safety gear he had on.
He took off his elbow pads and the rivots in the elbow pads that hold the pads together had gone through the padding and cut really deep into the little boys poor skinny arms!!!!
There was a circle shaped piece of his FLESH not attached to his arm!!!!!! and there was blood all over his arms... so i rushed him to the water fountain with paper towels and pushed the flesh back together
and put aneseptic and guaze and medical tape and wrapped it all around really really tight!I instructed his father(who wasn't even aware of what happened because he was sitting in the car talking on his cell phone leaving this kid alone in the park) to brin ghim directly to the doctor's emergency room and have him see a doctor because he might need stiches...
I think i handled that situation well..at least i hope soo and don't get sued!
Afterwards we headed to tony romas where i bought a steak dinner complete with baked potato, chicken tortilla soup, bread rolls, baked beans, fried onion rings, and mushrooms... man that was a lot to eat...
Thus the day of activity ends and i kill those damn brain cells by looking into the bright lighted box of doom,... aka the comp screen....
my eye will look like this
tomarrow and i wil need an eyepatch like this ....a bird in the hand is worth 1 in your hand??wait that's not how that saying goes... damnit!
Well anyways.. today a rad thing happened!
This beautiful bird with a black/shiney purple greenish tint in the sun..and white speckles all over it's brest flew into my house today..it was truely remarkable!
perhaps it is only I who think so..i think birds are soo pretty..and independant.. sometimes i wish i was a bird..
but this bird although beautiful was kinda stupid... it flew into the window several times.. and started to freak out.. so i had to take off my shirt and catch it. Ya know to cover it's eyes so it will think it is night and calm down..
so i just coverd the eyes and pet it and gave it a little hug and kiss and lead him outside to fly away to freedom again...
i love birds..
::sigh::
yup then i watched nightmare before christmas and ate icesubes..mmm icecubes... man i wish i had icecream..
Well anyways.. today a rad thing happened!
This beautiful bird with a black/shiney purple greenish tint in the sun..and white speckles all over it's brest flew into my house today..it was truely remarkable!
perhaps it is only I who think so..i think birds are soo pretty..and independant.. sometimes i wish i was a bird..
but this bird although beautiful was kinda stupid... it flew into the window several times.. and started to freak out.. so i had to take off my shirt
and catch it. Ya know to cover it's eyes so it will think it is night and calm down..so i just coverd the eyes and pet it and gave it a little hug and kiss and lead him outside to fly away to freedom again...
i love birds..
::sigh::yup then i watched nightmare before christmas and ate icesubes..mmm icecubes... man i wish i had icecream..
ok news flash update ...dun dun duuunnnnn
I went to sleep today.. in the afternoon
*gasp*
And when i woke up... I ...went ... to Islands and ate a shitload of "tiki tenders" and fries haha
And then we passed the supermarket where everyone is on strike!
I yelled out the window "fuck ralphs, support employee medical needs" and everyone cheered back and stuff it was fun.... yea people on stike are so kewl..
I wish i had something to go on stike for ya know? Get people all angry and stick it to the man! yea.. too bad i work for the city and get paid well....
oh well i guess i can always go to ralphs and help them hold up signs or bring them something to drink.. they did look a little thirsty from all their yelling and sticking it to the man stuff ... yea i think i will go over there..
I went to sleep today.. in the afternoon
*gasp*
And when i woke up... I ...went ... to Islands and ate a shitload of "tiki tenders" and fries haha
And then we passed the supermarket where everyone is on strike!
I yelled out the window "fuck ralphs, support employee medical needs" and everyone cheered back and stuff it was fun.... yea people on stike are so kewl..
I wish i had something to go on stike for ya know? Get people all angry and stick it to the man! yea.. too bad i work for the city and get paid well....
oh well i guess i can always go to ralphs and help them hold up signs or bring them something to drink.. they did look a little thirsty from all their yelling and sticking it to the man stuff ... yea i think i will go over there..
arrg pirates avast ye mates....Ok sorry thought it would be a good pirate moment right there...
TODAY WAS BADASS!!!
haha well it was hell of a lot better than the past few days of CRAP CRAP and oh CRAP?
Yea, i woke my little lazy azn ass up this morning slinked into the shower and headed off to work. Boss talked to me about shooting some skate pictures for him at this pool up the street. yup...
Then they headed off.. and I was in Queen, Manager, and Supreme Being of the skate shop once again bwahahahaha! THE SKATE SHOP WAS MINE TODAY HAHAHAHA!
well... it looked kinda shabby so i rearanged everything to my liking hehehe.. then i kicked back and watched skate videos, listened to music, and cut out a wicked design in some grip tape yup...
today ..is a great day..I talked with these old skool skaters about the skate park i work at and they want to hang out with me and have me shoot some pictures for them haha..
They told me my names been floating around town..and word on the street is that Jay"badass mohawk" Jay is a rad person to knock a few beers back with, and just hang out and chill...man.. they must think i am kewl... whoa... i have a following!?!? nice..
Then when i was working my stalker fan club guy haha Zak... this guy is 20 and like follows me everywhere and is like my sheep..too bad i don't look like little bo peep huh? but he wouldn't leave the shop my WHOLE entire shift from 12 - 7 hahahaha
He's a member of my cracked out cult/fan club "The Underground Realm" ... yes one day i was sitting around and thought.. man I am a badass person.. i wonder if anyone else would agree, so i thought, hey i will start up a following, so word got spread around the valley and people began confronting me askin if they could join my cult, i mean club..yea...
So now.. i have 32 members of my said cult/club.. that really started out as kind of a joke between my friends.... yes this joke has now spread out and become alive. Members even get a membership card isn't that sooo lame!?!? yea i thought so too..
hehe I have a fan club... man am I a LAME ASS LOSER....yea...it's great... haha it's just a bunch of lonely hermit like skater people, confused young teens, and stalkers
... great variety for a fan club huh? ahh today..today ..today ...today...
what can i say about today?
well i woke up, put the mohawk up, walked out the door, slinked over and laid in the grass for about an hour or so, till anyone realized i was gone.
It was really funny to hear them asking where i was....
then my friends pulled up to bring me to the hospital and threw pepsi cans at me... that was nice of them to do that, ya know throw pepsi cans at me...
We went to my friends old highschool first to drop something off and i scared a whole mess of people, someone walked into a tree, in seeing me with a mohawk..i did have really long hair before i went insane and decided it should be cut off...
We get to the hospital and it's completely empty..except for the lab..where i was supposed to go..there were old people EVERYWHERE! yea they too had to get thier blood taken.. leave the old people alone damnit they need that blood!!!
But i only took 2 viles of blood today, the lady was making fun of me, she said,"back so soon, just can't get enough of those needles huh?" and "aww a hardcore girl like you doesn't like needles"
To which i replied, it's not that i don't like needles, it's people who are inconsiderate and jab them into the wrong places, and then later on take too much of my blood that i have a problem with
.
she shut up after that...
yup but those two viles were not really great to get used to.. because they had taken so much blood from my last visit my lil veins didn't have that much so she was flicking my arm for a bit till she could get a vein that was "sutible' enough for them to suck my blood out of...eewww..
boss called werking tomarrow at the skate shop since Eric Grisham is gonna be in a sk8 tournament tomarrow i get to take over the shop and lock up..man i hope someone visits me. i hate it when i work the whole day and random idiots who have NO clue what they are talking about, come in and try to tell me i don't know anything about skateboarding...
I HATE THAT ERRRGG...
At least tomarrow i get to watch skate videos and do whatever i want*drools* put together skate decks and watch animal chin *drools* ...yum
that should make me feel a lot better..that is if i don't collapse or sumthing....yea....
what can i say about today?
well i woke up, put the mohawk up, walked out the door, slinked over and laid in the grass for about an hour or so, till anyone realized i was gone.
It was really funny to hear them asking where i was....
then my friends pulled up to bring me to the hospital and threw pepsi cans at me... that was nice of them to do that, ya know throw pepsi cans at me...
We went to my friends old highschool first to drop something off and i scared a whole mess of people, someone walked into a tree, in seeing me with a mohawk..i did have really long hair before i went insane and decided it should be cut off...
We get to the hospital and it's completely empty..except for the lab..where i was supposed to go..there were old people EVERYWHERE! yea they too had to get thier blood taken.. leave the old people alone damnit they need that blood!!!
But i only took 2 viles of blood today, the lady was making fun of me, she said,"back so soon, just can't get enough of those needles huh?" and "aww a hardcore girl like you doesn't like needles"
To which i replied, it's not that i don't like needles, it's people who are inconsiderate and jab them into the wrong places, and then later on take too much of my blood that i have a problem with
.she shut up after that...
yup but those two viles were not really great to get used to.. because they had taken so much blood from my last visit my lil veins didn't have that much so she was flicking my arm for a bit till she could get a vein that was "sutible' enough for them to suck my blood out of...eewww..
boss called werking tomarrow at the skate shop since Eric Grisham is gonna be in a sk8 tournament tomarrow i get to take over the shop and lock up..man i hope someone visits me. i hate it when i work the whole day and random idiots who have NO clue what they are talking about, come in and try to tell me i don't know anything about skateboarding...
I HATE THAT ERRRGG...
At least tomarrow i get to watch skate videos and do whatever i want*drools* put together skate decks and watch animal chin *drools* ...yum
that should make me feel a lot better..that is if i don't collapse or sumthing....yea....
Ok so yesterday was bad.... today was a total downer....yea.
I called the nurse today to get my results from the blood tests and what not... yea it sucked
The doctor had to call back and explain that I have something wrong with my blood, it looks like a deficiency of some sort anemia or sumthing bah!
damnit damnit damnit why do i always have to have SOMETHING wrong with me!?!?
YEA, I have to go back to the hospital tomarrow and they have to TAKE MORE BLOOD to make sure they are right.. ahh!!!! ok ...so if i have something wrong with my blood and i really need it now because there aren't enough blood cells... why take my blood away from me ...WHY?!?!?
i hate being sick......
I called the nurse today to get my results from the blood tests and what not... yea it sucked
The doctor had to call back and explain that I have something wrong with my blood, it looks like a deficiency of some sort anemia or sumthing bah!
damnit damnit damnit why do i always have to have SOMETHING wrong with me!?!?
YEA, I have to go back to the hospital tomarrow and they have to TAKE MORE BLOOD to make sure they are right.. ahh!!!! ok ...so if i have something wrong with my blood and i really need it now because there aren't enough blood cells... why take my blood away from me ...WHY?!?!?
i hate being sick......
I feel likes craaap!
Yesterday i went to the doctors and they were only supposed to check my ankles...
i ended up being there for 3 hours or so. They were doing tests on me and what not I was so confused!
THEN they stole my blood akk i need that to live!! They took 6 viles from me... then they tested me for diabetes since my doctor said i lost a lot of weight and what not bah!!
on top of that i find out that i have bad allergies now too so i have to get all that allergy crap and ear drops! eeewww ear drops that's so nastey..
Yesterday i went to the doctors and they were only supposed to check my ankles...
i ended up being there for 3 hours or so. They were doing tests on me and what not I was so confused!
THEN they stole my blood akk i need that to live!! They took 6 viles from me... then they tested me for diabetes since my doctor said i lost a lot of weight and what not bah!!
on top of that i find out that i have bad allergies now too so i have to get all that allergy crap and ear drops! eeewww ear drops that's so nastey..
