WOOT HALLOWEEN!
i went to a "day after halloween" party and ended up playing an impromptu show.
it was amazing. i've never done anything like that in my life. we had a dj going with us so we played hip-hop
and some rappers jumped in and spat a few lines. fucking ballin'
and guess who just happened to be there
my good friend miss caprica suicide yay!
so tonight was pretty cool
my roommates and i went out to a hole in the wall type of joint
and saw some bands play drank some beers smoked some cigarettes
overall pretty cool atmosphere, very underground, "indie".
there was going to be a party afterwards but g-non was meeting up with a lady friends
so we came back and had some burritos
now is pretty chill.
sitting listening to devendra banhart with stu
apparently all the people i was reading on blogger dont have accounts anymore.....
i feel lonely... haha.
tomorrow is gunna be really fun
haunted house then party/ies
.......
last weekend was the shit
we threw a party at our apartment
it went down without a flaw
awesome
my roommates and i went out to a hole in the wall type of joint
and saw some bands play drank some beers smoked some cigarettes
overall pretty cool atmosphere, very underground, "indie".
there was going to be a party afterwards but g-non was meeting up with a lady friends
so we came back and had some burritos
now is pretty chill.
sitting listening to devendra banhart with stu
apparently all the people i was reading on blogger dont have accounts anymore.....
i feel lonely... haha.
tomorrow is gunna be really fun
haunted house then party/ies
.......
last weekend was the shit
we threw a party at our apartment
it went down without a flaw
awesome
some lyrics from my music
www.myspace.com/gregbdrums
Dream (this is a test):
i floated up towards you
i mean if i was even there
your eyes they teared up
my heart it swelled up with fear
i took your hand in mine
and then we both walked away
from the burning wreckage
as if we didnt even care
put your gun to my temple
this is where i worship you
and all your pathetic movements
i dont know what else i should do
so i pull my hair out
of my bleeding scalp and then
tell you that i love you
to see you squirm in your skin
this is just a dream
i dont need you
this is just a dream
i wake up without you
this is just a dream
this is a just a test
this just a dream
and i dont need you
My Fetish, My Friend:
you've become the object of my sexual desires
my fetish, my friend you live to die
living with moments of insanity i let these monsters take the best of me
split me right down the middle
take both sides of my third eye
(gain some insight
so that i may) die
my fetish, my friend
you live to die
19yrs. :
the last time i saw you
you were caught in the rain
the next time i see you
youll be screaming in pain
retreat to your bedroom
visions of a cave
your mother will whisper
nothing will save you now
i was lost in your garden
i was saved in your eyes
took me 19 years but
the time has gone by
if nothing will save you
when will you compromise?
if your soul is forsaken
why wont you be mine?
dont make art for the state
dont make art for your soul
dont make art for anybody
dont make art at all
Sacred Lotus:
flower in the spiders web
withered, the sacred lotus
suck the life straight from my head
and i did it all on purpose
my martyr ways were fruitless
so i kissed the dragonfly
she bit me on the lip
and then she sucked me dry
drag your razor finger
from my cheek to my chin
i wont whimper
i wont care
cuz i did it all on purpose
just to see you cry
my martyr ways were fruitless
so i kissed the dragon fly
Truth:
I am lost and torn between
what i think is right for me
is my shell a waste of life?
i dont actually know
i hope to god i will soon find out
i know youre wrong and i figured it out
tell me the truth
i have not yet sold my soul
but you can have it
if you'd like
jump into the great unkown
and kiss me just for spite
you hate me
i already know
you need me
so i must go
Well im single once again
and im hoping to stay this way for a little while
i'm just not ready to be in a relationship right now. i thought getting into a relationship would help me get over natty quicker but it's only made things worse for me. no... im not going to go back to natty.....
dating right now just wouldnt work for me...... i have to much on my plate and im choking, what with work and class. i just need friends right now. the thing with dating is that it makes me feel obligated to go be with the person im dating... and sure i am.. but i dont want to feel obligated to do anything right now.... im never obligated to hang out with friends.... it's not totally expected... i can do whatever i want whenever with friends... but dating makes me feel soooo confined and like i said... obligated.
in other news
i saw dark knight last night
IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!
the joker is by far the best villain of our century.
it's soooo dark. i love it!
some people just like to see the world burn..... and im one of em
and im hoping to stay this way for a little while
i'm just not ready to be in a relationship right now. i thought getting into a relationship would help me get over natty quicker but it's only made things worse for me. no... im not going to go back to natty.....
dating right now just wouldnt work for me...... i have to much on my plate and im choking, what with work and class. i just need friends right now. the thing with dating is that it makes me feel obligated to go be with the person im dating... and sure i am.. but i dont want to feel obligated to do anything right now.... im never obligated to hang out with friends.... it's not totally expected... i can do whatever i want whenever with friends... but dating makes me feel soooo confined and like i said... obligated.
in other news
i saw dark knight last night
IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!
the joker is by far the best villain of our century.
it's soooo dark. i love it!
some people just like to see the world burn..... and im one of em
oooh man i have a lot going on right now and i havent written on this blog in soooooooo long
i guess ill start with some pics from bonnaroo
BONNAROO WAS FUCKING AWESOME
i was stoned the entire time and then tweaked on shrooms and ended up in a med tent
sigur ros was my favorite act then gogol bordello then surprisingly umphrees
the fools i went with
sooooooooo high- i love the contrast between my face and the rabbits
in other news:
my new girlfriend ellie
and im quitting smoking
wish me luck!
i guess ill start with some pics from bonnaroo
BONNAROO WAS FUCKING AWESOME
i was stoned the entire time and then tweaked on shrooms and ended up in a med tent
sigur ros was my favorite act then gogol bordello then surprisingly umphrees
the fools i went with
sooooooooo high- i love the contrast between my face and the rabbits
in other news:
my new girlfriend ellie
and im quitting smoking
wish me luck!
YAY random photo blog! 
can i be an suicide girl now?? XD
here is my dad as a punk rocker
aaron lazaar from the giraffes (seriously if you want music that will get you wet, listen to the giraffes....www.myspace.com/thegiraffes)
my tat
can i be an suicide girl now?? XD
here is my dad as a punk rocker
aaron lazaar from the giraffes (seriously if you want music that will get you wet, listen to the giraffes....www.myspace.com/thegiraffes)
my tat
so i got april fooled awful today
my ex girlfriend texted me (which should have been the first sign)
that she was pregnant.
which would make some sense because we had fucked recently
i totally freaked out though
my heart fell into my stomach and i almost passed out.
im eighteen god damnit im not ready for kids!
im not ready for anything!!!!!!!!!
anyway last weekend was amazing i went to visit my buddy at Uof I
he has the most amazing friends out there
i had a great time
first night out there we went to a bar. they had to find me an ID, which they did and we got in fine.
some girls came up to me and my buddy and we talked for a while. they werent unattractive (i was drunk enough) but i dunno i wasnt into em.
i got a lot of compliments on my leather jacket and the beer tasted like pissed. so we left and walked all over the campus and just made fools of ourselves it was amazing.
the next day my buddy had to do some flying so i went with his friends to a mall and we spent maybe 6 hours there. i had a blast. they were all so funny.
have you seen beerfest??? well they considered me the new landfill haha. meaning i was conar (my buddy) but better hahaha.
later that night we went to a frat party. it was kind of lame but i got pretty drunk. it was a highlighter party which is like a black light party and you wear white shirts and write on everyone with a highlighter so you can only really see it with a black light
we left around one and went back to his friends dorm room and i hung out there for a while.
overall the it was an awesome end to a spring break. i would totally transfer to U of I but i have a scholarship here and many other reasons but god it was amazing.
the giraffes are in town tomorrow
im going down with joe
it's gunna be fucking awesome!!!!
wooo i wrote a lot
gooooodnight!
love,
greg
my ex girlfriend texted me (which should have been the first sign)
that she was pregnant.
which would make some sense because we had fucked recently
i totally freaked out though
my heart fell into my stomach and i almost passed out.
im eighteen god damnit im not ready for kids!
im not ready for anything!!!!!!!!!
anyway last weekend was amazing i went to visit my buddy at Uof I
he has the most amazing friends out there
i had a great time
first night out there we went to a bar. they had to find me an ID, which they did and we got in fine.
some girls came up to me and my buddy and we talked for a while. they werent unattractive (i was drunk enough) but i dunno i wasnt into em.
i got a lot of compliments on my leather jacket and the beer tasted like pissed. so we left and walked all over the campus and just made fools of ourselves it was amazing.
the next day my buddy had to do some flying so i went with his friends to a mall and we spent maybe 6 hours there. i had a blast. they were all so funny.
have you seen beerfest??? well they considered me the new landfill haha. meaning i was conar (my buddy) but better hahaha.
later that night we went to a frat party. it was kind of lame but i got pretty drunk. it was a highlighter party which is like a black light party and you wear white shirts and write on everyone with a highlighter so you can only really see it with a black light
we left around one and went back to his friends dorm room and i hung out there for a while.
overall the it was an awesome end to a spring break. i would totally transfer to U of I but i have a scholarship here and many other reasons but god it was amazing.
the giraffes are in town tomorrow
im going down with joe
it's gunna be fucking awesome!!!!
wooo i wrote a lot
gooooodnight!
love,
greg
