I have the feeling of that so many things are going in the right direction in my life, but yet there is still this cold, empty hole inside of me. One minute I feel confident, secure, totally pleased with who I am and what I'm doing. The next, there is a lump in my throat, a reminder that something that I want so badly is not a part of my life. Patience is a motherfucker. But, I'll still wake up tomorrow and do the best I can, try to stay open to every new opportunity, and try to be as positive as possible. It's not always so easy.