Where is the rain and the thunder and ligbtning? Where are the nights sitting in a chair staring out the back door? Where are her flirtatious smiles beckoning me out into the shower? They are in my mind and my soul. I will keep them there until the spring when she will make them real again. And where will i be? Kissing her rain covered skin. Hoping that it never ends.
Chat is for people watching. That's fucked up.
I sent her a picture of my tongue in you. She sent me a picture of wet fingers. Now for a picture of you starring at me with me in your mouth.
I sent her a picture of my tongue in you. She sent me a picture of wet fingers. Now for a picture of you starring at me with me in your mouth.
I have a life size Mike and Sulley from Monsters Inc in my basement. Sometimes I pretend that they come to life and we play cards at my poker table. Mike is a sore loser. He gets mad when he is down and eventually quits the game to hammer back beers and shots on the couch. He's absolutely obsessed with documentaries, but constantly mixes up the facts so he tells two half truths 100% of the time. Sulley pays no attention to his sidekick. He quietly watches me as the new cards are laid out on the table, looking for that one indicator. I try and bluff a few times. He's catching on, so I throw in a good pair of cards and a small pile of chips to throw him off. He sips dirty vodka martinis. Later we'll open a bottle of 16 year old Middleton's and talk about who has it worse. Monsters or Humans. Mike is passed out in the easy-chair and snores like a C-130 taking off in a hurricane. They leave and as I am cleaning up I curse Sulley for shedding on my carpet worse than the dogs. I swear I'll quit inviting Mike, but he'll show up with Sulley anyway.
What a great fucking weekend! Saturday was Mel's 40th birthday party. today was a day at the Ren Fest. I will be dog tired tomorrow, but happily so. Saw Bill and Shelly there today. I miss seeing them. Its been two or three years and we live 40 minutes apart. le sigh.
Great beginning to a great week. Taught my children about American history, medievil weaponry, ate lots of beef and pork, drank a few beers and spent time with good friends while doing it.
Great beginning to a great week. Taught my children about American history, medievil weaponry, ate lots of beef and pork, drank a few beers and spent time with good friends while doing it.
Mowed my lawn and my next door neighbors lawn at a near sprint today. She tried to pay me, again. I refused. again. Always feels good to do it. Not to mention that the 'weight gain' side effect has been warded off off for another day!
Had an interesting conversation. My logic:
If a child minds, then they are obeying or doing as asked. If Someone minds doing something, then they don't want to do it. Wouldn't they then be antonyms of one another?
Its all 19...
Had an interesting conversation. My logic:
If a child minds, then they are obeying or doing as asked. If Someone minds doing something, then they don't want to do it. Wouldn't they then be antonyms of one another?
Its all 19...
Day 4 on new meds almost over. Its interesting that I think I am looking so hard for something to change, that I may be stressing myself out more. Haha. Just going to let it go and chill. It will happen when it does.
I start antidepressants tomorrow. The odd thing is that I started trying to figure out when I started feeling the way I do and it turns out it wasn't 6 months ago. It was 4 years ago. How accustomed I have become to this disposition that I believed it is who I was. That will all change will a little pharmaceutical assistance and a great attitude.
Great baseball game with my boys. Fireworks were fucking fantastic. exhausted. Car show tomorrow. Gotta love a drive-in car show. Especially when it benefits Autism Speaks!
