Sadly, Over the past couple months. Things have taken a hell of a down hill dive.

My fiance moved out as well as my son. I was upset that I was the only one supporting the family and made it known. I was unhappy with the way things were going and not having much gratitude or anything for everything that I had done. Unfortunately things didn't change and they went the way they did. I still see my son and get him all the time. Which I am eternally grateful for. But it's hard.

Being a single father is a pain. I love my son. But I can't go out and date or anything. I know I shouldn't worry about that right now. But it's rough to sleep in a cold bed when you have nothing anymore. I'm trying to get passed that with force inducing sleep by taking melatonin. It's working slightly. But still has it's sad side effects.

I need to find some people to hang out with. Some people that are willing to show me the ropes of being single again. I'm a decent looking guy, which I know. But my problem is... I'm shy. That is a hell of a flaw in this position.

Well, I wish you all a happy evening. Have a good night.

Life has recently been... rough. Since Lucian was born things have gone by faster, but at a slower pace.

I'm working one job which requires an intense amount of mental awareness as well as peak physical shape. My days start at 6am and end around 5pm Monday - Friday. But now... more support is needed. I just took on another job. Working 5+ days a week. So now my days will start at 6am and end around 12am.

This new cycle is going to be rough. But for my family, it is the necessary thing to do. I don't want my son growing up in a struggling family as I once had.

So get this...

My sons name is Lucian. Named after a werewolf.
He was born on Halloween night
and we just got his social security card in...
the last numbers of his social are 666

Something is going on here. O.o

October 31st, 2012.

My first born was brought into this world. How did I manage to have a baby on Halloween?! I know I'm good, but not good enough to calculate that timing out haha.

Well. Welcome to the world my son
Lucian Lee Collard

So, Tuesday we found out that Krista (my fiance) had started to dilate. Which means "Lucian Lee" will soon be joining this world.

I'm excited to be a father. It's been one of the things in life that I feel is necessary to experience.

On another note. My grandfather died last week. I had to make an emergency trip to Florida over the weekend. The funeral was rough. But all in all it was a weekend that I needed. Was able to spend time with my father and family. Stayed in a nice hotel. Went swimming at the Orange Lake Resort and just enjoyed life to the best of my ability. Rest in peace Grandpa Erdman.

Soon my first born son will be born "Lucian Lee Collard".

I can honestly say I've never been so scared yet excited in my life. Thoughts constantly racing threw my mind about being a good father. I know I will be because life was rough for me as a child. I don't want my son to endure the same pains I have. Yet the pains that I have been threw have made me the strong man I am today. I know one thing is absolute though. If he wants tattoos, piercings, body mods and etc. I will support him 100% in every way possible. My parents didn't accept the way I was for a long time. My son will know what it's like to have a supportive family if he runs down the route that I took as well.

Enjoy your day my fellow SG fans.

This man is the most incredible person in the world lol

I love you baby <3
~Krista

My grandmother passed away last week. The funeral is today. Going to be a rough day. Especially without my fiance Krista not going to be able to be there with me.

On top of that, have internal bruising on my spine and collar bones from Friday night's go kart racing. 35-40mph hair pin turns without any seat padding or shoulder strap padding.

Also in other news... working on my new project. I was given a slab of quartz unto which I'm using to etch the TriForce into it. I'll post the finished photo when I'm done.

Have a good day.
Nathan

Another day in the life if me.

Nerd news: Got my new chassis in for my computer! Woot! To bad the 12v secondary power cord is 4 inches to small... denying me use of my computer until I get an extension for it.

Other news: Plans for my next tattoo have begun. I am doing my sons name. Yet have not figured out where I want to put it.

How about this. I know some of you are artists like myself. Draw me a tattoo incorporating my sons name (Lucian Lee) in it. Whoever draws up the best tattoo, will win... nothing, But the satisfaction of me placing it on my body. From there I can send a picture So you can place it in your portfolio.

I don't expect any entries. But it would be neat. So surprise me!

enjoy the rest of the day.

Last night had to kick a roommate out. It ended up with me removing my fist from his face. I hate childish people. Had to attempt to bring my family into it by downing them. He deserved what he got.

In other news. 12 weeks left and my son Lucian Lee will be brought into this world. I can't wait.