I need to be cheered up... make it happen

Now what.

Yeah so, him and I gave it another shot... And instead of the wonderful reconcilation that I was hoping for, we got drunk and ended up having the end all be all of fights. I made a complete asshole out of myself and because of it.. I doubt he'll ever trust me again. I'm a fucking idiot. I was drunk is never an acceptable answer, but how does alcohol some how magically assist in your doing or saying things you'd never dream of doing in a million years? I hate myself so much right now.

So I broke up with the boyfriend.. apparently romance didn't occur to him and making me feel special was too much.. I was too needy I treated him the way I expected to be treated and I was the asshole.. whatever. So I'm taking applications for someone who wants to be in a relationship where we make each other feel special and no one person does all the work. If I don't feel good.. pamper me and don't say "You're not invalid.."

Never make someone a priority when to them you are only an option.

Its my bday

I don't update this nearly as much as I do my facebook lol!

I feel like making a statement;

If I'm drunk and I get in a car with a drunk who is driving and I die... its my fault that I died. I'm perfectly sober typing this.. and I am fully aware that I am responsible for my actions. So.. again... if I get in the passenger seat of a car KNOWING that my driver is intoxicated and I die in a car accident... ITS MY FAULT... because I am stupid and know better. 1. I should have never got in the car 2. I should have called a sober friend or a taxi to drive me home.

That is all.

I feel like I'm in my own version of Ground Hog's Day...