Dear motivation,
thanks for coming back and making me feel like i'm not completely useless all the time
xoxo
R
thanks for coming back and making me feel like i'm not completely useless all the time
xoxo
R
well i survived my birthday. now i'm ready for some much needed sobriety. I think i've earned it.
This is the year of failed relationships and car trouble. Maybe next year everyone will be happy in love and driving shiny new toys. Becky is still not moved in yet because of car trouble. My car is in the shop again right now costing me yet another $500 to fix. I have a love/hate relationship with my Cadi. I love that it's so comfy to drive. I love that it tells me when it's not feeling well. I HATE that it costs so goddamn much to fix and there is always something wrong.
enjoying my last night alone in my house for a while. Becky moves in with me tomorrow. Yay roomates!
oh i hate packing. even for an overnight trip it makes me crazy. I can never find that nice balance between feeling over or underpacked. I never feel like i'm taking just enough stuff with me. It doesn't help that i'm constantly worrying about what everyone else is gonna forget to bring. one of the girls might need tampons so i should bring those. someone might need a toothbrush so i should bring a spare. What about food?? what the hell are we doing and what do i wear?!?!
Tomorrow night i'm getting on a schoolbus with all my friends and we're going to spokane to party. I've never been able to be a part of the whole out of town party thing before. It's exactly the kind of thing that G would've never go along with and i couldn't go without him so i was stuck home. Now i'm gonna party! It will be an adventure.
Tomorrow night i'm getting on a schoolbus with all my friends and we're going to spokane to party. I've never been able to be a part of the whole out of town party thing before. It's exactly the kind of thing that G would've never go along with and i couldn't go without him so i was stuck home. Now i'm gonna party! It will be an adventure.
Having a life is really hard!! I didn't realize how out of practice i really was at keeping in touch with people and doing things. My friends and family have been great though. If i can just knock off all the drinking all the time i might be able to get back on balance. It's awesome to feel like people want to be around me and like me and all that, but it's also nice to be home alone with my cats right now.
Went to the coast with my dad to collect my sister for the weekend. I think 2 days is all i can take of him even medicated. He's the most clingy man i've ever met! My poor mother. At least i can go home when he starts pissing me off haha. But it was a good time and it was good to see my Monkey. Now it's back to work for 3 more days of much-needed boredom. Work, home, dinner, bath, sleep with cats. That's my plan for the next few days. sounds good.
Went to the coast with my dad to collect my sister for the weekend. I think 2 days is all i can take of him even medicated. He's the most clingy man i've ever met! My poor mother. At least i can go home when he starts pissing me off haha. But it was a good time and it was good to see my Monkey. Now it's back to work for 3 more days of much-needed boredom. Work, home, dinner, bath, sleep with cats. That's my plan for the next few days. sounds good.
well, my internet is still working, but the end of the month fell on a weekend so we'll see what happens tomorrow. I think i'm gonna try to live at least a week without it. I have things i need to do! but now that the house is all lonely i end up sitting here at the computer. I need to do some serious cleaning around the house. I need to move my wardrobe and my library out of the dining room. I need to move furniture (what little i have left) and i need to vaccuum EVERYTHING. The carpet cleaners will be here Thursday. So i figure that if i can get my house back in order this week I'll reward myself with turning the internet back on.
my cats, i love them to death, the little monsters. but i came home today to find that one of the precious little furballs puked ALL OVER MY BED. and now that i'm ready to go to sleep, instead i'm waiting for my sheets in the washing machine. I usually don't let the puking get to me. I clean it up and we all go on with our lives. Because really, they can't help it. They get hairballs. They're cats. But what kind of idiot pukes right where he sleeps??? Atrus, That's who.
my cats, i love them to death, the little monsters. but i came home today to find that one of the precious little furballs puked ALL OVER MY BED. and now that i'm ready to go to sleep, instead i'm waiting for my sheets in the washing machine. I usually don't let the puking get to me. I clean it up and we all go on with our lives. Because really, they can't help it. They get hairballs. They're cats. But what kind of idiot pukes right where he sleeps??? Atrus, That's who.
my internets will probably be shut off at the end of the month but i should have it back on soon.
well my living room looks like santa exploded in it. Now the hard part is getting rid of all the boxes and tissue paper and ribbons that the cats are so enthralled with. I swear i keep so much "garbage" around the house for their amusement. lol
it was a good Christmas even though i worked today. My dad dressed up as Santa (beard and everything) and brought me hot cocoa at work. Presents and games with the inlaws this evening was a lot of fun. all the gifts went over really well. I got some very eclectic and interesting clothes including an alpaca sweater and a hat and coat from Nepal. the coat is the strangest yellow/green/black acid wash color with handpainted designs and it's almost ugly... but so interesting that i love it. (the description makes it sound horrid but it's really not that bad)
I love giving presents so much i wish i could afford to do it all year. But i get to do it all over again with my family on Saturday. I'm still really bummed out that my sister probably won't be able to make it over from Seattle this weekend but the driving conditions are bad and i understand. It's just the first Holiday that we haven't all been together as a family EVER but we're planning on heading over there for new years so i'll get my time with my Monkey.
gonna go pass out now.
it was a good Christmas even though i worked today. My dad dressed up as Santa (beard and everything) and brought me hot cocoa at work. Presents and games with the inlaws this evening was a lot of fun. all the gifts went over really well. I got some very eclectic and interesting clothes including an alpaca sweater and a hat and coat from Nepal. the coat is the strangest yellow/green/black acid wash color with handpainted designs and it's almost ugly... but so interesting that i love it. (the description makes it sound horrid but it's really not that bad)
I love giving presents so much i wish i could afford to do it all year. But i get to do it all over again with my family on Saturday. I'm still really bummed out that my sister probably won't be able to make it over from Seattle this weekend but the driving conditions are bad and i understand. It's just the first Holiday that we haven't all been together as a family EVER but we're planning on heading over there for new years so i'll get my time with my Monkey.
gonna go pass out now.
