I keep having dreams about another life where my family is still together.
We all live in the same city, in the same house, and my dad is still healthy and cranky. He isn't in a wheelchair and estranged from most, if not all of us.
My job and my college experience have somehow merged into one thing, and I'm always late. Perpetually late, even. There's a feeling of finality, of "this can't last, and isn't real." Maybe it's like that new television show "Awake," where this is another universe I go into, but if it is, it's a collapsing one. Things usually collapse into me fighting with my dad about something, telling my mother she's being an idiot (something I would never do, but probably would've in my teenage years) and then waking up.
I know where the dreams are coming from, I know why I feel so ill at ease. Change is coming. Some good times, some bad times, but always change. It normally terrifies me, but I know some of these changes are permanent and once they happen, there's no going back.
We all live in the same city, in the same house, and my dad is still healthy and cranky. He isn't in a wheelchair and estranged from most, if not all of us.
My job and my college experience have somehow merged into one thing, and I'm always late. Perpetually late, even. There's a feeling of finality, of "this can't last, and isn't real." Maybe it's like that new television show "Awake," where this is another universe I go into, but if it is, it's a collapsing one. Things usually collapse into me fighting with my dad about something, telling my mother she's being an idiot (something I would never do, but probably would've in my teenage years) and then waking up.
I know where the dreams are coming from, I know why I feel so ill at ease. Change is coming. Some good times, some bad times, but always change. It normally terrifies me, but I know some of these changes are permanent and once they happen, there's no going back.
Sigh. Seriously?
Work is getting all weird.
I think I may take some time off before the fit hits the shan.
Either I'll get promoted, or end up disgruntled, rather than gruntled.
We shall see.
Work is getting all weird.
I think I may take some time off before the fit hits the shan.
Either I'll get promoted, or end up disgruntled, rather than gruntled.
We shall see.
Yay for warmer weather in Chicago!
Boo for my allergies coming back in full force!
I'll be glad when it cools off a little again and kills some of these sinus issues and itchy eye problems.
Sigh.
Boo for my allergies coming back in full force!
I'll be glad when it cools off a little again and kills some of these sinus issues and itchy eye problems.
Sigh.
So, another night of avoiding responsibility and sitting (not literally) on my hands.
Ugh.
Ugh.
Just a note, and something I mentioned three years ago before my account went inactive.
I don't add people as friends just because they are hopefuls hoping to get people to "vote" on their sets, etc. Just as I'm sure some of you talented, intelligent and lovely ladies of SG would appreciate a guy or girl not just talking to you because you're pretty/hot, I would appreciate someone talking to me because they think I'm interesting or funny or smart....not because I can "do something" for them on the site.
I'm not saying you have to talk to me first or something. I'd actually prefer it if someone doing that doesn't bother (really, I like to be the one to pursue a friendship first, usually). Talking to people online, for me, has to be as organic as talking to people in person. I wouldn't make friends in real life with someone only trying to sell me something or convert me to a certain branch of Christianity, so I wouldn't do it here, either.
No, what the hopefuls are doing isn't the same of that, but it's not something I really go for.
I'm sure if you're meant to go pink, you will. Otherwise, cut it out, okay?
Thanks.
I don't add people as friends just because they are hopefuls hoping to get people to "vote" on their sets, etc. Just as I'm sure some of you talented, intelligent and lovely ladies of SG would appreciate a guy or girl not just talking to you because you're pretty/hot, I would appreciate someone talking to me because they think I'm interesting or funny or smart....not because I can "do something" for them on the site.
I'm not saying you have to talk to me first or something. I'd actually prefer it if someone doing that doesn't bother (really, I like to be the one to pursue a friendship first, usually). Talking to people online, for me, has to be as organic as talking to people in person. I wouldn't make friends in real life with someone only trying to sell me something or convert me to a certain branch of Christianity, so I wouldn't do it here, either.
No, what the hopefuls are doing isn't the same of that, but it's not something I really go for.
I'm sure if you're meant to go pink, you will. Otherwise, cut it out, okay?
Thanks.
