So I went to watch my mother's choir this monday and a girl in it got my oxytocin-carousell spinning. All she did was look at me alot. Plus look funny and cute during a certain song. I was wishing to see her afterward but I don't think I did (if I did I ditched her cause I thought she was someone else so then that's kinda settled I guess). I always feel wierd when I like a girl. I think I know my way around myself and women at a club, the better part of the last 10 times I went out getting numbers or makeouts or both. When it comes to women that I meet at other places in life and I feel like doing more than just flirt (I flirt with exactly everyone so that's no big deal) I panic though. I never even held the hand of a girl I liked if I didn't meet her at a club. Guess I just gotta move on and hope to see her next time. Though sadly I write this message on the death throes of the oxytocin mumbo jumbo. That's actually the reason for me writing this. I miss how I used to feel. I can already feel my brain regearing to relationship anarchy and she's drifting away in my mind.

I guess I know they're "sjung nu" and through the profile pictures of the ones in the facebook choir-group I found her facebook, bloggs and cheeleading team within like 20 minutes of coming home. So I guess I could send her a message? That feels wierd though. I have no idea what to do in these kinds of situations.