Have you ever made a mistake that could have ruined everything that you have worked so hard to achieve?

Just recently I decided to let my boyfriend sleep with my best friend.

My girlfriend had just recently broken up with her guy and she was feeling really down. So my boyfriend and I took her out with us for the night. We ended up getting wasted and went back to her place with some other friends. I have always known that my boyfriend thought my friend was hot and vice-versa, but knew they wouldn't ever do anything about it. So anyways, one thing led to another, and I found myself watching my friend and the love of my life fuck.

Now the thing is, I really thought that I was going to be ok with it. I have been in similar situations before and it really never bothered me. But, man, did it bother me this time. I didn't know what to do, I was jealous and bitter. I turned into exactly what I hate.

What makes things worse is that my "best-friend" has secretly been talking to my boyfriend and trying to meet up with him. My boyfriend told me this and more bulshit last night. He says that he hasn't seen her sense, but I really don't know.

When I confronted my friend she completely blew up, saying I did this to myself, and she is going to do anything to take my man.

Honestly she is right; I did do this to myself. You can't give a chocoholic a candy bar and expect them not to want more.

This whole situation sucks ass. I love my boyfriend, we live together and plan(ed) on getting married soon. But know I am left without my best friend that I have had for years and a space between me and my boyfriend that keeps getting bigger.

I don't mean for anyone to read all of this jabber. I just needed to vent and figured that this was a safe place to do so.

Lesson learned: Don't fuck around with friends!