So I lived with my mom for about two months. Now I'm back in Aurora. Good times! Anyway..

I started a new blog about depression and anxiety and shit. Check it out maybeee? Not Always Raining

It's so humid right now. I feel like I need to be in a shower 24/7 to keep from overheating. This is ultimately a sign of things to come. On Sunday, I'm moving back to Florida to stay with my mom. I'm really excited to go back to my mommy. It's rough being without her.

Not much to say.. my snakebites are healing wonderfully. I'm so happy with them. I really want more piercings now, though.. I guess that's how it usually goes though. (:

Well, yesterday I finally got snakebites. I'm as happy as I can be. <3 I went to Kivaka at Skin of a Different Color in Aurora. He's amazing. I refused to go anywhere else, and I'm glad I did.


In other news, I've been going through a pretty rough battle with depression since January. Last week I came home a month early from college because I couldn't handle it. I'm taking next year off as well. It's been tough, but things are looking up. It's going to be alright.

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Well hello there fellow boob lovers. It's been a while since I last posted. Like six months. My bad! A lot lot lot has gone on in the last half a year. I believe my last post was written right after my summer orientation program. Well, I've just finished my first semester at the University of Illinois. All things considered, it went quite well. I'll break down updates by subject.

Life: it's been hectic. I've had to get used to living three hours away from my family and only seeing them during school breaks. It's been interesting to say the least. I feel like I've matured to some extent. I've been having to deal with a lot of issues on my own for the first time, especially panic attacks. In the past, I've always had my mom there to comfort me. Not anymore. Other than that, not much has happened. Got drunk for the first time (not that I haven't tried before). Got high for the first time. Both of those happened in the last two weeks, actually. Just in time for the new year!

Love: last year I started dating a guy in San Antonio. Fell head over fucking heels in the worst way. I basically developed an addiction to him. Everything was going great. We loved each other and let each other know often. We hadn't been able to meet in person yet, but we cammed sometimes and talked on the phone every day. Last week he broke up with me. He said it was because we never had time for each other anymore. I found out it was because the next day he was flying out to California to spend a month with another girl. A girl who last year he had to convince me he didn't have feelings for. This last week was excruciating. I literally wanted to die and end it all. Things have steadily gotten better, including our friendship. I'm trying to stop being depressed and pushing him away. I need him in my life, even if only as a friend.

School: this semester was not the best in terms of effort. I started out strong, but after the first month I stopped going to one of the lectures completely. I still hopefully managed a B in that class.. Anyway, I definitely could have attended class more often or tried harder. I ended up going from a sure A in child psych to a B because I didn't attend lecture at all the last few weeks. That was sad, but I can only blame myself. I didn't get any grade lower than a B, and I think I may have been able to pull a 3.5 gpa out of my ass. Exciting! Next semester, I promise I''m going to try harder. I have to. These classes are gonna be ridiculous. Other than grades, I've made some awesome friends. Two of them asked me if I wanted to lease an apartment with them next year. I can't wait! It's going to be fucking amazing. My roommate situation is meh. We get along, but we never talk. She's super quiet and reserved. It blows. I joined one club this year, the Illini Secular Student Association. I've never been around so many atheists in my life. It's fucking amazing. I'm so happpy.

Anyway, I'm on break for the next month. Hopefully I'll find the will to blog on here more. I'm fairly active on Twitter lately. Follow me at @glitchx and say what's up!

My trip to the University of Illinois is complete! I really should have taken pictures, but I was slacking. Sorry. So anyway, we left at like 4 am which was hellish because I got maybe 2.5 hours of sleep. Most of the ride was going through the middle of nowhere, including such hotspots as Strawn, IL, population 150. We passed a fairly large windmill farm, which resulted in the most quotable thing my mom has ever said.
"Oh, look, windmills! Those are powered by the sun, right?"
Needless to say, I'm not letting her live it down.

We got there early enough to where I got to get my i-card before everyone else. I ended up opening a new bank account because they were giving out free hoodies and weren't requiring a deposit. What can I say, I'm a sucker for a good deal. Everything really began around 9 with a couple ladies talking about the school and financial aid. There were a lot more people there than I expected, especially considering there are several transfer registration days. When they said the school is huge, they meant it. After the general presentation, we split up depending on which college we belonged to. Liberal Arts and Sciences is the biggest one, so I still had plenty of company. After another presentation from them, we split into smaller groups depending on our major. There were 13 psych majors there including me. One of them was this really hot Polish kid who I managed to find on Facebook knowing nothing but the school he's coming from.I would have added him if it wasn't going to make me look like a stalker (even if I am one).

So skipping a bunch of details, I ended up going to lunch late because I was trying to register for classes. I gotta say, finding a schedule that fits is really difficult. Ate, went back to finish registering, got a little lost, found my way. My schedule isn't too bad. Algebra, chemistry, child psych, Spanish 3, and a writing intensive class about the Holocaust. For the most part, I have classes later in the day... except my Holocaust discussion session is at 8 am on Fridays. Fuck. Whatever, I'll deal. I'm really excited.

We got to walk around a little bit. The Quad is big and beautiful. Full of trees and super green grass. I love it! I think I can definitely get used to living there when I go back in August.

I apologize for all the details and kinda rushing at the end. I'm super excited about it and also on my way to go pick up Chinese. Yay food! If I think of anything else, I'll fill you guys in! <3

I'm so addicted to Lady Gaga's new album Born This Way. Seriously, I haven't stopped listening to it since it came out. Just felt like sharing.

There are so many amazing songs on the album that I can't possibly pick a favorite. This one, however, is what's stuck in my head right now.


<3 Hope everyone is doing well!

My freshman year of college is OVER, and I couldn't be happier. I'm on to bigger and better things come August when I transfer to the University of Illinois. We we we so excited (sorry).

I finished out this year with a 4.0 gpa both semesters. I had my doubts these last few weeks, mostly because my friend got me hooked on World of Warcraft a month before finals. I think this proves I can have my cake and eat it too.

Speaking of cake, this is what my mom and I do to celebrate.



u jelly? <3

On June 1st, I'm heading down to U of I to register for classes. More updates on that when it happens.

Today marks three years of no cutting for me. What a long road it has been and will continue to be.

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So my friend got me to try out World of Warcraft. I feel like I've been introduced to meth.

That is all.

I can't believe March is almost over. I have one full month of school left! I'm really excited about finishing up here so I can transfer, not so excited about having to find a summer job. Well, okay, I don't HAVE to unless I want to pay my cell phone and internet bills, but that's a no-brainer.

Things have been going well since my last blog post. Nothing really new. My best friend and I went to Cafe Ba Ba Reeba on the 20th. It's a tapas bar in Chicago. The food wasn't very good, in my opinion. For three people, it cost $60. My best friend and I had an agreement going in: she would buy mine and I would buy hers and my moms. Well, I ended up with the entire bill. She put maybe $5 towards the tip, but she didn't try to say she would pay me back or anything. It's whatever now, but I am kind of ticked that I had to put forth a total of $84.50 that day, including $20 for gas and $4.50 for parking. I still love her to death, but damn.

I've been meaning to get that off my chest. I'll probably just do some homework for now. Hopefully I'll have more exciting things to blog about later.

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