oh, apprently I am just like I am in chat... that's a 3rd person (or 4th) who says so now... I shouldn't be aloud to get bored too... On the way home last night, it was dark and I was on the m6 toll road all on me jacksee, and I started to think of cool things to put in my blog, non of which I remember for the record, and noticed the shape of cats eyes, and how they're... well... kinda cool.... see I told you, shouldn't be aloud to get bored.

just had one of the best weeks ever. Spent most of it with laura. It's been great!!! just... well... Now I miss her like crazy. It's just not fun. I know I've done this post before but, I miss her so much.
Had to have Big Mac to make my self feel better... comfort food. Didn't work but anyways. And I just got 3 texts off laura all at once, and now feel really bad for something else.... silly petey. xxx

okay, right, so it's thrusday. I picked laura up on tuesday, and had her round here till this morning when I took her home... I am home again now, and my house feels so empty. And my life too. God I miss her. I miss the laughter she brings to my little home. She comes over again tomorrow. I need this girl to move in my life.
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Right.... the big secret was that I was going to propose to Laura today... I did it. I supprised her at work with a ring. She said yes btw. so YAY!

okay okay, i'll stop... but only cos you're all bloody nuts, and one of you lives close enough to actually come round and kick my hairy ass....
Life? well.. Work is going GREAT... loads of fun. Really enjoying actually going
OH! Me and laura got a romantic weekend away this weekend, so YAY! woo! Also managed to stop tripping over my self and sort it so laura came come round stop mine soon so yay... Plus I have a big supprise for Laura at the weekend... I'd put it here but I KNOW she'll read it. Supprised she's not been fishing for hints... I think she'll like it. I hope she will... mmm.... anyway... Stink poo bums.

I think I might have to quit SG... I mean I don't use it half so much as I used to anymore... and I dunno somethings changed. I'm not sure if it me or it chat, or what... I think I might becoming less tollerant towards people and "morons".
I can't be arsed with lots of things of late. Just all seems like too much of a pain in the arse.
Oh Laura got a job, so yay. She's been a little emotional and moany at me of late... Somewhat my fault I guess, but I mean, I am a grown up these days, and have been capable of looking after my self for some time. Plus I have said more than once, I am a really bad person to have as a boy friend. Somedays I'm better at it that others but still... meh.

okay I love the summer! We (me and laura) went to a theme park on friday... Now I ain't big on theme parks really, I like being in control of my self too much these days for going on the rides and having my fate in other folks hands, but it was fun. Laura dragged me on to rides (god I hate her so much that I love her!!!), and it was good.
I think I might be a bit of a freak too. I was noticing loads of women wearing open shoe type things, so you can see toes... And i found my self looking at womens feet more. I don't know why but there's something about well looked after, good looking, cute toes. Yes laura, you have them. Cute toes-ees.

okay talking to somebody the other day, and something that happened to me once came up, and I realised that probably the scariest place I have ever been to is my own past. I hate it. It gives me the willies.... not somewhere I'd like to go ever again. I think I'd prefer to pick and choose what I remember, and while I wouldn't change it (after all it's what makes me who am I), I realised that 95% of it embarses me... is that stupid or what?

I saw laura last night. Yay!!! And we watched a DVD and made love.... it was GOOD! FYI laura is a great lover and probably the best I've ever had.
I do love spending time with laura, and we're seeing more of each other than ever, which is good, and and and! it's not all sex related. Like I went round saturday and we were totally good... as in we just held hands hugged and kissed, no touchy feely. I love that girl so damn much.

this is an appology to all that stand for the last 12 weeks, for today, and the next 12 months.
Sorry for being an angsty depressed little twat. Life and work is getting me down. Much. And I know I don't do well with depression. Also I might have drank alittle too... Not so good on drink. Very not good with drink.
Anyway there we are, this is the first, last, and only, so take it or fecking leave it, I couldn't give a rats ass.
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