As I told everyone in my last blog my wife was six weeks pregnant and I was so very happy but now it seems that happiness has turned to sorrow as we had a miscarriage two days ago on the day of our first OB appointment. I find myself questioning why God would give such a blessing just to take it away so suddenly but I am trying to hold on to the faith that what can happen once can happen again so we will keep trying and if it is meant to be it will happen

Hello again everyone well just wanted to give you the lastest news. I am going to be a father for the first time. My wife is pregnant almost 5 weeks. I am so incredibly happy right now because we didn't think she could get pregnant but miracles do happen. I just wanted to share this great news with all my SG friends and wish you all the best love you all.

Hello all I have had some sad news my dad had a heart attack over the weekend and died so I will be going to his funeral. Although me and my dad were not as close as we should have been he was my dad no matter what else he might have been. His passing has forced me to think about alot of things I never dwelt on before and I regret that I didn't make more effort to see him more and get to know him but things happen for a reason and life must go on.

Good news after giving it some thought I have decided to stay with SG and all my friends here. I realize I would miss all of you too much to just walk away that easily you guys are really like family to me and have been there when I was at the lowest point of my life and I do believe you helped me get through all that to see a brighter future so I thank all of you and hope the new year brings you all great joy and happiness.

Hello all well it has been a tough decision but I have decided to leave SG I will truly miss all the friends I have come to know from the site and maybe I will talk to you again someday but for now this decision is the best for me and my future. I love you all and will remember you always

Hello all it has been awhile since I posted anything so I thought I would tell you what is new in Hozilla world
Working my ass off and hoping to get all my Christmas shopping done. Hating that it is getting cold here now especially since now I have to find a way to heat my house and money is very tight right now but I will survive. That which does not kill us as they say. Well love you all and hope to see you in chat sometime

Hello all time to post a new blog and let you all know what is new in Hozilla land. Well I am planning to get married in September if all goes well. The plan is to do the whole thing in Vegas which should be pretty cool if I can get the money together to make it all happen as planned so wish me luck. I never thought I would find someone special in my life so I am so happy to finally be with someone who really adores me and just wants to be with me for who I am and not make me someone else. Well until next time hope everyone out there can be as happy as I am now. Love you all

Well hello again everyone decided to post a new blog and fill you all in on the lastest in my on going search for the perfect relationship. I am beginning to think I am cursed somehow, the latest girl I started seeing turned out to be a spy for my ex and started passing her information about what I said to her about my past relationship and the reasons it ended. To make matters worst i then get angry messages from my ex telling me that I was stirring up shit by telling people what happened. In addition to all this drama this new girl is a liar and told my ex that I was cheating on her before we broke up which I did not and would not do although considering I got accused of it anyway I probably should have but that is not me. So once again I sit here alone and the only place I can vent is here on the site so that is what I am doing.

I am so sick of this bullshit, so sick of how pathetic my life has become. If another woman tells me she just wants to be friends I swear I will probably strangle her. Or I don't want to get serious I want to date other people, bullshit. You want to fuck other people plain and simple, Just once it would be nice to meet someone that says what they really mean and doesn't insult my intelligence. I don't even want to do this whole dating thing anymore. What is the fucking point to it anyway. You spend a bunch of money on someone and talk only to have them run off with the next guy. Fuck that noise in it's fat ass
It is true nice guys finish last so now it is time to not be a nice guy and see what that gets me. Straight fucking no kissing from now on. If it aint about getting blown fuck your conversation and your motherfucking feelings. So long mr sensitive I can't wait to get my heart kicked in, hello I don't give a fuck about you hoes

Well I have broken things off with my girlfriend of 5 years. We have been having problems for sometime but I was willing to try to make it work but in the end I was the only one trying and it just got to be too painful to keep trying to hold on to someone that was not really there. In truth she has always been in love with another man and that man died last Feb and since that time she has drifted away from me completely despite my trying to be there for her. I was very hurt and depressed for a long time but now I see this as a chance to maybe find someone that really cares about me so I am hopeful about the future for the first time in a long time.