Good luck McCain. Obama went down the list... point by point. Even if he can do half of what he promises to deliver... it's still better then going in reverse like we have for the last eight years.

Right now... I'm just kind of numb with the winter blahs. I'm ready for spring (my favorite time of year). Bring it on.

I finally got around to watching Sicko. I dunno... Italy and France have been in the back of my mind for a while now. It's looking more and more like a possibility as time goes by. I'm really getting sick of being an "American" whatever that means these days. I've never considered myself to be terribly patriotic. Perhaps in some people's eyes that's a bad thing... this is where I just happen to have been born. That's the way I've always looked at it. I am thankful for the opportunities that have been available to me here, but things have really taken a horrible direction in the last 10 years. And, many other countries have the same opportunities as well. This isn't really the land of the free or the brave anymore. It's become the land of lying, sleazy cheats, and the greedy. I know this country has always been about capitalism and that's fine But, if someone's out to make a buck at whatever the cost. Even if peoples lives are at stake... well I find that very disconcerting. I feel like i'm living in this soulless cesspool of strip malls, fast food restaurants, and snotty-nosed spoiled teenagers with too much of their parents money to care about anything other than themselves. The only culture we seem to have is pop-culture. I need something more in my day to day life than that. I am very fortunate to live within close proximity to San Francisco where I can seek out such things. And, i'm forever grateful for that. People there are great and it's an amazing city. But, a lot of people aren't that lucky.

Anyway, if you haven't seen this film yet... do yourself a favor. You owe it to yourself to be informed. I've met alot of people who have told me "I don't want to see it, it's too depressing". That's the kind of attitude that is partially to blame for getting us in to situations like this in the first place. Where big medical insurance companies can write fat checks to congressman and buy them off. Complacency kills.

I think Michael Moore is an American hero. I know there has been a backlash that started around the time Bowling for Columbine came out. That was bound to happen eventually. It was inevitable. Once someone makes a big stink about something and they gain some notoriety someone always wants to take them down.

Aside from the accusations about him "gilding the lilly" in the editing room to get his point across in his previous film (which I think pale's in comparison to the travesties he has exposed about our government and it's officials in much of his work) I feel he has helped open so many people's eyes, and he's managed to do so in a well-crafted, entertaining, and even humorous manner to boot.

Cheers to you Mr. Moore!

Life has been very unpredictable lately. My mother is very ill and things seem to be dissolving right before my eyes. Not a very good feeling.

I leave later today to go see my mum and start fixing up a room in rental house I have for myself and for her to stay at while she recovers from heart surgery. I'm dreading it... the work, dealing with her sister and brother-in-law. Even having to deal with her... she's onery now and very quick to snap at you due to her poor health. I can't really blame her I wouldn't be in the best mood either, but it's still very frustrating and it bothers me. I haven't been feeling well myself, but all of this has to be done. C'est la vie.

It's going to be a long-haul... I hope in the end it will be worth it.

-Peace

Hmm... I just discovered how mortifying it is to have someone walk in on you while you're polishing the ole' rocket. Especially when it's a female. My friend Julia just walked in to my room while I was taking care of some "binnis". That hasn't happened to me since... shit, ever! I want to die.

Well at least she thought it was funny. I still want to die,

There is nothing worse than being homesick for a place i'll never be.

I haven't been on SG in awhile. It's kind of like walking in to an old house that I used to live in, but now someone else lives there and everything is a bit different. The place looks good though.

I don't know what to say right now... other than this: I love Peaches! She rocked the fucking Casbah last night at the Fillmore Along with Eagles of Death Metal and Burning Brides. And, I loved every minute of it. God bless the Fillmore and they're groovy posters that they give away after every show. So much fun.

Hmm... I haven't been around for quite sometime. Work, school, and random weirdness has kept me busy lately. For now it's just work and random weirdness. So many changes lately have my head spinning. Some good friends are moving an hour away, not too far, but still sad. A strange romance with a girl that I know probably isn't right for me, but I still want her.

That's the big one. It's been a long time since I have been interested in anyone and this girl iiniated the whole thing, and now that I have finally yielded to her advances, she's backing off a bit. There is always this "push and pull" with her... a bit of a tug 'o war, while I have always maintained a pretty even keel. She's a lot younger than me (just turned 21), but she is mature beyond her years. We've discussed this matter, and she has assured me it is a non-issue with her. And, I believe her. But, she's afraid to get attatched because she might be going away for awhile. And, to make matters even more complicated... I have competition, apparently.

She told me she is also "casually" seeing someone else. She doesn't want to get attatched to him either. She mentioned that he is beautiful, but selfish. Whatever that means. She hasn't slept with him, and I'm inclined to believe her, only because she says she wants too. Churn. But, she slept with me the same night she mentioned all this to me over dinner. Finally, after two months. So I don't know where things are going with her, she's a bit of a flake i.e. doesn't return calls or e-mails right away. Which is irrititating. And, I hardly ever call or e-mail in the first place (because of this). I'm tired of "near misses" and "flakey" girls. One reason why I feel like not even bothering anymore. I'm ready to become a Monk. I already live like one anyway.

In lighter news... I got a wonderful new digital SRL camera, that I am in love with. I'll post photos soon.

P.S. Also, seeing The Eagles of Death Metal last night was the most fun I have had in a very long time... I love them.

Weird to be back.