A week and a half ago, I moved to a new apartment complex and I STILL do not have internet at the apartment, and won't have it until the 15th. I think two weeks on new internet in horrible customer service, and I can safely say I do not plan on keeping AT&T internet much longer.

Now lets see if I can get caught up with what is going on here on Suicide Girls!


PS- Today would be my 5 year anniversary with my ex. It kills me a little.

It's been a long week of packing and cleaning so I don't have to worry about it all week while I am working. I really hate moving, and the fact that this was OUR (me & my ex) home makes it harder to say goodbye.


He wants to move back up here and possibly to Austin with me in the future. Why can't he just stop being so scared of forever and let it happen. Why do all these guys go though this period of time, where they know who/what they want, but it scares them and they push it away. I wish they would just man up, be brave and go for what they want. I watched like 5 of my friends go though this just to end up back together, I guess it was bound to happen to me sooner or later.


In other news I am ready for another tat, or to add the stuff to the tat I just got. Now that I know the process isn't painful or that annoying I have nothing, but money (which I am fine with right now! YAY!!), holding me back.


Hopefully once I move I'll have some time to go book shopping and get back into reading because I miss it soo much. I loved being a book worm.. except that I go though books so quickly that I have to buy them in bunches. Anyone want to donate or buy any books for me?!


RIP Michael Jackson!! You were such an amazing singer and dancer, you will be missed!

I finally got my first tattoo! WOO. I am already ready for the rest of them to get started.


"The course of true love never did run smooth"
-William Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream"

It's not finished because I found my original tattoo would not work as I had hoped, so I decided to do it like this and then add around it.


My entire visit in SoFla has been spent with my ex (and others, but he was with me 24/7 minus when he was working), he wants to spend every moment with me. We talk for hours and hours... I still don't get how two people can spend everyday for almost 5 years of their life together and still have so much to talk about. IDK

Not much has been happening in my life worth writing about.

I have been busting my ass at work hustling hours to make some bank paychecks. I finally have money and might get my tattoo!! WOO HOO!

I am visiting down in south Florida at my parents. It's a nice change of pace.

And in the boy department, I don't have any idea what is going on. My ex visits me, tells me he loves me, calls me all the time, wants to sleep over all the time, and says he loves having sex with me but tells me that he doesn't want to be with me. If we act like a couple, and dated for 5 years, why can't we just be together? Guys, any help would be amazing. lol

Lately I have been acting so out of character, but I think it's finally sunk in that I am single.

I really want to get into a good book but I am unsure of what I want to read. Does anyone have any books they would suggest?

I really don't feel like writing much even tough I have had so much going on. I've been working my ass off and partying a lot.


I'm a mess.

Wow, I feel like I'm not in my own body..

My ex (we dated for 5 years) and I have been broken up for about 3 months but we live together and basically were together just without the title. Anyways, hes down visiting his family this week and Tuesday night I was talking to him on facebook messenger and he tells me he doesn't love me anymore.

I have no idea what to do. I feel sick. At this point I rather have swine flu.



I can't even talk about it.

Happy Earthday!


I spent mine at Sea World<3.

This week has been a long, hard week.

First of all, my job, because it is Spring Break and I work at a theme park, has been crazy. I only had Monday off last week, and this week will be the same. On top of that school is winding down so I have been one hell of a busy lady. The sad thing is, I like being like this. When I am this busy with work and school everything just flows, unlike when I have nothing to do all day which makes me feel lazy and unproductive. My mom is the same way, maybe we are addicted to making money? lol. I can't explain how nice it felt to say I worked like 50 hours this week. (BTW, I realize 50 may not sound like a lot, but lately my hours have been around 15, so I feel amazing about 50!!!)

And even on top of that I have been having about a million problems with my internet connection. I would never recommend AT&T to even my worst enemy! They have messed up our internet pretty much EVERY month- how does that happen! I was venting about this the other day in class and one of my class mates is a woman who works for AT&T and she says she gets an amazing discount, and even with that she had it for a month and then canceled. Now that tells me something!

Lastly, I'm not religious, but I would like to wish everyone a happy bunny who lays eggs day! I'll be at work not getting any yummy Easter dinner, Easter egg hunt and whatever else may be going on today.

So my roommate/ex-boyfriend left to spend the weekend back visiting his family and I'm left here, by myself which I know will make me stay up until all hours in the morning, and I hate it. I could never live in a place by myself, I think I might be a little too codependent.

Which brings me to one of the biggest pains in the ass at the moment; I need to find a new place to live. My lease is up in June and I need to find roommates and a place. It sucks and is stressing me out to no end. Are there any good sites out there like rent.com or craigs list that help you find condos or homes for rent?


Ugh. Stressssssssssss. I want this semester to be over already!

So I am addicted to Scene It!: BOS for XBOX 360! It's horrible how addicting it is, and it's even worse how much it makes me want to go watch all these movies I have not seen in years! My ex and I stayed up late playing because I kept beating him (3/3 games)!

Does anyone have L,C,A for XBox? Is it worth it?

PS- I got my SG book- you ladies look lovely, and once I get a coffee table you bet your ass it will be on it!! .