dancinditzColey: im just glad i finally found a campground with Wi-Fi
KingofSpades6058: wow, sounds like you're roughin' it
KingofSpades6058: haha

I haven;t felt quite like myself lately.
I've been kinda numb. I mean, I feel things off and on, but they don't last long, and I just return to a state of blank.
Talking to Zephyer didn't help.
Apparently one of the big reasons she dumped me was because she doesn't feel that she deserves a guy as good as me.
I don't understand that...
but apparently, when she was dumping me and she said that, if I had just told her she did deserve me, and I fought a little more, we'd still be dating.
Instead I layed down my perverbial sword and quit.
Good job Luke...
Fucked up nice and pretty on that one, all because you don't have a fucking spine.

I guess there is a legitimate reason that I can't keep a girl around...

And what's worse is when I start feeling like this...
this emptiness and numbness...
I start getting those old urges to cause bodily harm to myself.
I haven't cut in over 7 months, and I don't plan on starting again...
but something needs to make me feel again...
soon...
before I completely freeze over again.
I don't like frozen Luke.

-KOS