What a whirlwind of a week.
So DJ's service was beautiful. I could barely keep it together though. When I watched my 6 friends carry that casket down the isle I lost my composure. I have been friends with these boys for 15-18 years. They were a part of my childhood, teen years and adult life. To loose someone who was such a great person was a tragedy.
I could not do the grave side though. After at the reception all my emotions took over me and my sister so we left sat in my car, hugged each other tied and cried so hard.
Life is too short, make the best of what little time you have and keep those who you adore close to your heart. Make time in your life for the people that matter because one day they could be taken away.
I've got some killer news to share.. HAZZARDOUS MATERIAL IS FREE! you can now hit my site and view the full art sets for FREE!
I am changing how we work things. I now will keep a personal fav image from every set and sell that as a limited edition art print. My art has grown so much over the past year and I've been shooting so many sets for clients that I removed the memberships to get our art shared all over this great big world.
VIEW HAZZARDOUS MATERIAL TODAY! AND REMEMBER...... SOME OF THIS IS NOT WORK FRIENDLY SO BE CAREFUL!
take the time to know each model and visit their fan pages.
xxx
Hazzard
So DJ's service was beautiful. I could barely keep it together though. When I watched my 6 friends carry that casket down the isle I lost my composure. I have been friends with these boys for 15-18 years. They were a part of my childhood, teen years and adult life. To loose someone who was such a great person was a tragedy.
I could not do the grave side though. After at the reception all my emotions took over me and my sister so we left sat in my car, hugged each other tied and cried so hard.
Life is too short, make the best of what little time you have and keep those who you adore close to your heart. Make time in your life for the people that matter because one day they could be taken away.
I've got some killer news to share.. HAZZARDOUS MATERIAL IS FREE! you can now hit my site and view the full art sets for FREE!
I am changing how we work things. I now will keep a personal fav image from every set and sell that as a limited edition art print. My art has grown so much over the past year and I've been shooting so many sets for clients that I removed the memberships to get our art shared all over this great big world.
VIEW HAZZARDOUS MATERIAL TODAY! AND REMEMBER...... SOME OF THIS IS NOT WORK FRIENDLY SO BE CAREFUL!
take the time to know each model and visit their fan pages.
xxx
Hazzard
This week I was sadden by the news of friend that passed and was dear to my heart. When these things happen I always feel like I was hit by a freight train. Body aches, tears flow and I feel empty inside.
Life is precious. We need to take every minute of every day and treat it as if it was our last. We never know when our time is up. Paths have been laid for each of us and we need to enjoy what time we have together and love life.
I've been known to be pessimistic about things. It angers me how little people care about others and how our world is turning into hatred fueled by racism and stereotyping. I fight these things all the time. I stand up for everyone and truly believe that each person is unique and love them for who they are.
Losing the second friend this year was a hard hit. You barely get over the grieving of one and now have to do this for another, but I always try to remember the good times. The times we've had together while they were still alive and living life.
DJ was a inspiration. His quirky sense of humor and love of life brought joy into mine. I can't remember a single time being out with him and not laughing my ass off or dancing my buns off. DJ had such a amazing sense of humor. He use to scream out Lil John quotes and the vocal resemblance was uncanny.
We use to do pub crawls after pub crawls and I will never forget how much fun we had on those. He use to run the bus with me and it was some of the best times in my life. I will never forget the year that next to no one came out for my birthday because unfortunately my day lands the day after Canada Day.
I got a raspy phone call from DJ saying to get ready were hitting 17th Avenue and that no matter how hung over he was were still going out. So me, Travis, Ana, Rodrigo and Carey hit Classic Jacks where the boys fed me 11 Prairie Fire Shooters and made my day really special despite it being cold and pouring rain in July.
When things like this happen in our lives we need to come together and support each other. We need to supply a shoulder to cry on and a hand for those who have fallen and need our help. Always live your life to the fullest and spend every waking moment with those you love. Care for your friends, family and strangers and try to make this world a better place.
It just takes one person at a time and together we can change and grow.
xxx
Hazzard
Life is precious. We need to take every minute of every day and treat it as if it was our last. We never know when our time is up. Paths have been laid for each of us and we need to enjoy what time we have together and love life.
I've been known to be pessimistic about things. It angers me how little people care about others and how our world is turning into hatred fueled by racism and stereotyping. I fight these things all the time. I stand up for everyone and truly believe that each person is unique and love them for who they are.
Losing the second friend this year was a hard hit. You barely get over the grieving of one and now have to do this for another, but I always try to remember the good times. The times we've had together while they were still alive and living life.
DJ was a inspiration. His quirky sense of humor and love of life brought joy into mine. I can't remember a single time being out with him and not laughing my ass off or dancing my buns off. DJ had such a amazing sense of humor. He use to scream out Lil John quotes and the vocal resemblance was uncanny.
We use to do pub crawls after pub crawls and I will never forget how much fun we had on those. He use to run the bus with me and it was some of the best times in my life. I will never forget the year that next to no one came out for my birthday because unfortunately my day lands the day after Canada Day.
I got a raspy phone call from DJ saying to get ready were hitting 17th Avenue and that no matter how hung over he was were still going out. So me, Travis, Ana, Rodrigo and Carey hit Classic Jacks where the boys fed me 11 Prairie Fire Shooters and made my day really special despite it being cold and pouring rain in July.
When things like this happen in our lives we need to come together and support each other. We need to supply a shoulder to cry on and a hand for those who have fallen and need our help. Always live your life to the fullest and spend every waking moment with those you love. Care for your friends, family and strangers and try to make this world a better place.
It just takes one person at a time and together we can change and grow.
xxx
Hazzard
YAWN........
Boy I've been going like a mad woman. Working non stop but its going to be paying off because in a little over a month I'll be on Maui!
So I am crushed. You see I get married in a month to the love of my life. Two of my Bridesmaids gave me stories about why they could not go. First one said "I've used up all my holidays at work" then last month was in Phoenix. Then the other one "I just had a baby and we need all the money for the family so we can't travel" Okay that is fine I understand family is first.. then she booked Dubai for 3 weeks... OVER MY STAGETTE and SHOWER which are both here in Calgary before I go.
It kills me to think these two were my best friends for the past ten years. I have organized several parties for the birthday's for my "best friends" and one of them got married just two years ago.. which I was in the wedding party, booked off the whole month of her wedding and personal planned and paid for the stagette.
Now last week I had a few emails and phone calls from my girls saying "Hey listen.. I got a bridal shower invite from your sister but nothing for the stagette? what is going on?"
I emailed both the girls asking what was going on because this summer they bitched out my sister for trying to take over everything and wanted some task.. Jess gave them the stagette. NO ONE FUCKING BOOKED A THING! this is during the Christmas rush also.. so shit should of been booked over a month ago.
Instead of being the bigger person and apologizing for not planning anything for me they turned around and bitched out my sister... that is my fucking blood for christ sakes. I said "Do you realize if I did not have a sister that nothing would of been planned for me". Still no apology and more finger pointing.
So Friday Night I spent my night booking and planning my own stagette. I knew this was going to happen. If I dont plan the party it does not get done.
My eyes are now open and I don't think I will ever forgive those two for the hurtfulness of not attending a wedding nor spending the time to plan it. I can't believe when it was finally my turn to be the Bride and have a red carpet laid out I am treated like nothing special and no one can be bothered.
I JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER..... ITS ABOUT MY DAY AND I KNOW I AM GOING TO LOVE HAVING MY WEDDING IN MAUI.
I am hosting a party in Cowtown. Were bringing up the IMPLANTS from LA. I have tix for these so if any of you local Calgarian's want to come message me and I'll get you the tix. Very affordable at $15
Boy I've been going like a mad woman. Working non stop but its going to be paying off because in a little over a month I'll be on Maui!
So I am crushed. You see I get married in a month to the love of my life. Two of my Bridesmaids gave me stories about why they could not go. First one said "I've used up all my holidays at work" then last month was in Phoenix. Then the other one "I just had a baby and we need all the money for the family so we can't travel" Okay that is fine I understand family is first.. then she booked Dubai for 3 weeks... OVER MY STAGETTE and SHOWER which are both here in Calgary before I go.
It kills me to think these two were my best friends for the past ten years. I have organized several parties for the birthday's for my "best friends" and one of them got married just two years ago.. which I was in the wedding party, booked off the whole month of her wedding and personal planned and paid for the stagette.
Now last week I had a few emails and phone calls from my girls saying "Hey listen.. I got a bridal shower invite from your sister but nothing for the stagette? what is going on?"
I emailed both the girls asking what was going on because this summer they bitched out my sister for trying to take over everything and wanted some task.. Jess gave them the stagette. NO ONE FUCKING BOOKED A THING! this is during the Christmas rush also.. so shit should of been booked over a month ago.
Instead of being the bigger person and apologizing for not planning anything for me they turned around and bitched out my sister... that is my fucking blood for christ sakes. I said "Do you realize if I did not have a sister that nothing would of been planned for me". Still no apology and more finger pointing.
So Friday Night I spent my night booking and planning my own stagette. I knew this was going to happen. If I dont plan the party it does not get done.
My eyes are now open and I don't think I will ever forgive those two for the hurtfulness of not attending a wedding nor spending the time to plan it. I can't believe when it was finally my turn to be the Bride and have a red carpet laid out I am treated like nothing special and no one can be bothered.
I JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER..... ITS ABOUT MY DAY AND I KNOW I AM GOING TO LOVE HAVING MY WEDDING IN MAUI.
I am hosting a party in Cowtown. Were bringing up the IMPLANTS from LA. I have tix for these so if any of you local Calgarian's want to come message me and I'll get you the tix. Very affordable at $15
GAH THIS WEEK IS SO SLOW!!!!
So I took off this week to get better (I've got a head cold) and get everything caught up before Halloween weekend and my November rush with Christmas Portraits. Time seems to be in reverse though.. I think its because I am just too darn excited for Halloween! Sunday I have nothing planned besides a horrific hangover on my couch! LOL
I am on cloud 9 today. My printing company has business cards, magnets, buttons and POSTERS! YES!!!! I can finally order in posters for the fans and have them at the shows so the models can autograph them.
We also started practice for our shows. We are bringing in some big bands in 2013 and the girls and guys are doing some gore sets with burlesque. I am so proud of them. As of today we have done 53 Hazzardous Tales for the site and I would love to get actual poster prints in for some of these so the babes can sign them for the fans.
So here is a couple teasers for Saturday's Release
Getting really excited for Halloween.. we have the first ever trio set dropping with Nicole Lazuli, Vespia Noir and Aydeen Amore... these babes are SMOKING!
xxxx
Hazzard
So I took off this week to get better (I've got a head cold) and get everything caught up before Halloween weekend and my November rush with Christmas Portraits. Time seems to be in reverse though.. I think its because I am just too darn excited for Halloween! Sunday I have nothing planned besides a horrific hangover on my couch! LOL
I am on cloud 9 today. My printing company has business cards, magnets, buttons and POSTERS! YES!!!! I can finally order in posters for the fans and have them at the shows so the models can autograph them.
We also started practice for our shows. We are bringing in some big bands in 2013 and the girls and guys are doing some gore sets with burlesque. I am so proud of them. As of today we have done 53 Hazzardous Tales for the site and I would love to get actual poster prints in for some of these so the babes can sign them for the fans.
So here is a couple teasers for Saturday's Release
Getting really excited for Halloween.. we have the first ever trio set dropping with Nicole Lazuli, Vespia Noir and Aydeen Amore... these babes are SMOKING!
xxxx
Hazzard
Dearest Health Gods Up There!!!
Clear me of this sickness before the weekend. Its the annual Hazzard Halloween Party and Ive got 55 guests coming to my place to rip it up and if this head cold doesnt leave I will drown you with Jack and I know my fiance will not like that because Hazzard is too crazy on the Jack D!
So everything is pretty much ready to go. I just have to spiderweb the shit out of the house because this year I got black lights for the rooms. Then I got my coffin ready in the basement along with the backdrop for everyone's photos. I'll make sure to post some of the funny ones on here.
I was at the Doctor today and I almost got into a fight. You see I am not a big fan of children.. or let me put it this way.. BRATTY CHILDREN. I adore kids and most of my friends have children so I do enjoy them but when they are poorly behaved and parents not parenting it is seriously my biggest pet peeve in the world.
I am sitting there with my Mom who was getting a checkup after surgery. She had surgery last month and got half of her stomach removed and they monitor her because it was a new procedure in Canada. So this piss poor excuse for a mom is on her phone blabbing with friends while her baby almost rolls off the chair next to her and then her 4 year old son is walking all over the place, throwing magazines and then all of a sudden a nurse rounds the corner with this brat and said to the mom "I found him in the supply room". This asshole rolls her eyes doesn't even thank the nurse, grabs his hands and then sits down with the phone.
I AM JAW DROPPED. No thank you, no I am sorry for my kid walking all over these walls like its a daycare.. NOTHING. So then the mom continues to sit on the phone, not watching her children and the little guy goes bolting down the hallway. He then starts opening up the patient rooms and walking into them. This Doctor is also a OB Gyno and god only knows what he saw. So I shake my head along with my Mom and the lady hangs up the phone and goes ballistic on me.
What the fuck do you think your doing shaking your head? Shake your head all you want because hes fucking autistic and you need to understand children with handicaps are different you should be ashamed.
So I snap right back and said autistic?? that doesn't matter! your kid could be full down syndrome and that still does not give you an excuse not to parent. How about get off your phone and watch your children? Let alone bring something like a color book to occupy him?. If that was my kid he would of had a spank already. He knew clearly what he was doing when he shot the nurse the evil eye before walking into those rooms.
My mom then puts her arm on my chest and said calm down. I get heated with people like this. I have friends who want children so band and can't because they went through ovarian cancer, survived and then you have shit heads like this who think its okay to let kids run wild. Oh so what? they can hurt themselves and you sue the practice?
I snapped at her and said listen.. I have family members who are autistic, I have a friend who is full down syndrome and you don't think I know how to deal with the mentally handicapped? did she forget that Autistic people are some of the smartest people in the world?? Last I checked one of them created Facebook for christ sakes!
For all you parents out there... take the time to teach your children how to act. Allowing them to ruin things in public, scream, throw things is bad behavior on your part. There is a thing called discipline... USE IT! and if your children are that bad keep them at home and deal with them there because I am sick and tired of spending money in a fancy restaurant on date night only to be ruined by bratty children.
I PRAY FOR A DAY WHERE YOU NEED TO TAKE FIRST AID AND A PARENT TEST BEFORE YOU HAVE CHILDREN... FINE THOSE ASSHOLES WHO LIVE OFF THE GOV'T AND SIT ON THEIR FAT ASSES DRINKING OR POPPING BON BONS, FINE THOSE WHO POP OUT A BILLION BABIES LIKE THE DUGGARDS AND THEN GET A REALTY SHOW.... PEOPLE ARE RUINING SOCIETY AND PROPER ETIQUETTE WHEN YOUR IN PUBLIC AND I AM NOT SHUTTING MY MOUTH NO LONGER! I WILL YELL AT YOU AT THE GROCERY STORE, I WILL SAY SOMETHING AT DINNER AND YOU BET YOUR ASS I WILL YELL AT YOU AT THE DOCTORS OFFICE!
RANT OVER!
xxx
Hazzard
Clear me of this sickness before the weekend. Its the annual Hazzard Halloween Party and Ive got 55 guests coming to my place to rip it up and if this head cold doesnt leave I will drown you with Jack and I know my fiance will not like that because Hazzard is too crazy on the Jack D!
So everything is pretty much ready to go. I just have to spiderweb the shit out of the house because this year I got black lights for the rooms. Then I got my coffin ready in the basement along with the backdrop for everyone's photos. I'll make sure to post some of the funny ones on here.
I was at the Doctor today and I almost got into a fight. You see I am not a big fan of children.. or let me put it this way.. BRATTY CHILDREN. I adore kids and most of my friends have children so I do enjoy them but when they are poorly behaved and parents not parenting it is seriously my biggest pet peeve in the world.
I am sitting there with my Mom who was getting a checkup after surgery. She had surgery last month and got half of her stomach removed and they monitor her because it was a new procedure in Canada. So this piss poor excuse for a mom is on her phone blabbing with friends while her baby almost rolls off the chair next to her and then her 4 year old son is walking all over the place, throwing magazines and then all of a sudden a nurse rounds the corner with this brat and said to the mom "I found him in the supply room". This asshole rolls her eyes doesn't even thank the nurse, grabs his hands and then sits down with the phone.
I AM JAW DROPPED. No thank you, no I am sorry for my kid walking all over these walls like its a daycare.. NOTHING. So then the mom continues to sit on the phone, not watching her children and the little guy goes bolting down the hallway. He then starts opening up the patient rooms and walking into them. This Doctor is also a OB Gyno and god only knows what he saw. So I shake my head along with my Mom and the lady hangs up the phone and goes ballistic on me.
What the fuck do you think your doing shaking your head? Shake your head all you want because hes fucking autistic and you need to understand children with handicaps are different you should be ashamed.
So I snap right back and said autistic?? that doesn't matter! your kid could be full down syndrome and that still does not give you an excuse not to parent. How about get off your phone and watch your children? Let alone bring something like a color book to occupy him?. If that was my kid he would of had a spank already. He knew clearly what he was doing when he shot the nurse the evil eye before walking into those rooms.
My mom then puts her arm on my chest and said calm down. I get heated with people like this. I have friends who want children so band and can't because they went through ovarian cancer, survived and then you have shit heads like this who think its okay to let kids run wild. Oh so what? they can hurt themselves and you sue the practice?
I snapped at her and said listen.. I have family members who are autistic, I have a friend who is full down syndrome and you don't think I know how to deal with the mentally handicapped? did she forget that Autistic people are some of the smartest people in the world?? Last I checked one of them created Facebook for christ sakes!
For all you parents out there... take the time to teach your children how to act. Allowing them to ruin things in public, scream, throw things is bad behavior on your part. There is a thing called discipline... USE IT! and if your children are that bad keep them at home and deal with them there because I am sick and tired of spending money in a fancy restaurant on date night only to be ruined by bratty children.
I PRAY FOR A DAY WHERE YOU NEED TO TAKE FIRST AID AND A PARENT TEST BEFORE YOU HAVE CHILDREN... FINE THOSE ASSHOLES WHO LIVE OFF THE GOV'T AND SIT ON THEIR FAT ASSES DRINKING OR POPPING BON BONS, FINE THOSE WHO POP OUT A BILLION BABIES LIKE THE DUGGARDS AND THEN GET A REALTY SHOW.... PEOPLE ARE RUINING SOCIETY AND PROPER ETIQUETTE WHEN YOUR IN PUBLIC AND I AM NOT SHUTTING MY MOUTH NO LONGER! I WILL YELL AT YOU AT THE GROCERY STORE, I WILL SAY SOMETHING AT DINNER AND YOU BET YOUR ASS I WILL YELL AT YOU AT THE DOCTORS OFFICE!
RANT OVER!
xxx
Hazzard
TGIF!
Thank god! LOL I've had a long week. I've been doing the Press Bound Album and "Thank You Cards" for one of my wedding clients and NOTHING was good enough. This Bride has turned out to be the "Bridezilla" I've been warned to watch for. I've done a total of 5 weddings and never had to deal with anyone high maintenance until her.
I always sit down with my clients after the set is edited and sent digitally. I then get details for the Disk Case, Prints, Press Bound Album and then if they want to do "Thank You" Cards with me I sit down and get all those details.
They told me exactly what they wanted verbally. No samples to follow so this one I had to do it in my head. So I sent over the first template to show. NO GOOD! Second.. NO GOOD.. Third NO GOOD. So I said okay listen you need to give me a sample of these Celtic Knots you want and where on the card. You said you wanted to border your image and that is what I've done along with the quote selected.
I get a response. "I didn't think your photography was this difficult" This is after I had to show these clients how to use Dropbox. What's not to know? You create your own password with the link I email and you click DOWNLOAD. In all 80 of the dropboxes I've done for clients this year this is the first couple who were too stupid to understand it. Even my 55 year old boudoir client this spring could do it.
So 4th times a charm this week and they finally liked a design. I've got a massive stress headache from these two. If you could only read the email conversations we had. I asked her several questions and I got back no answers and DO IT THE WAY I TOLD YOU. Usually I send 3 samples of Thank You cards with the image and the clients usually write back "Oh I love it! I want to go with the tri-fold or the 5x7 insert" . Even with my announcements I do for newborns or "expecting" have I had this much difficulty.
So I wanted to share my version of the "Creepy Clown" Character.
This one was awesome because I got to take Kelsey out of her pretty little box and make her finally something scary. Kelsey was my Pinball Princess and Bond Girl. She always does pretty so finally I took her out of her shell.
This one was crazy. I found a fence that was perfect for the set over in the industrial area up by the airport. We just finished shooting and all of a sudden a red truck with #YYC Airport Security rolls up.
Doug is frantic trying to cover Kesley's nude body and I just laughed and said calm down I've got this. I talked to security and apparently my strobes were making the planes think they had to land farther then the airport. Also my magnetic pulse was interfering with the tower control and we almost caused a plane crash.
Now that is what I call Hazzardous Material.
xxx
Hazzard
Thank god! LOL I've had a long week. I've been doing the Press Bound Album and "Thank You Cards" for one of my wedding clients and NOTHING was good enough. This Bride has turned out to be the "Bridezilla" I've been warned to watch for. I've done a total of 5 weddings and never had to deal with anyone high maintenance until her.
I always sit down with my clients after the set is edited and sent digitally. I then get details for the Disk Case, Prints, Press Bound Album and then if they want to do "Thank You" Cards with me I sit down and get all those details.
They told me exactly what they wanted verbally. No samples to follow so this one I had to do it in my head. So I sent over the first template to show. NO GOOD! Second.. NO GOOD.. Third NO GOOD. So I said okay listen you need to give me a sample of these Celtic Knots you want and where on the card. You said you wanted to border your image and that is what I've done along with the quote selected.
I get a response. "I didn't think your photography was this difficult" This is after I had to show these clients how to use Dropbox. What's not to know? You create your own password with the link I email and you click DOWNLOAD. In all 80 of the dropboxes I've done for clients this year this is the first couple who were too stupid to understand it. Even my 55 year old boudoir client this spring could do it.
So 4th times a charm this week and they finally liked a design. I've got a massive stress headache from these two. If you could only read the email conversations we had. I asked her several questions and I got back no answers and DO IT THE WAY I TOLD YOU. Usually I send 3 samples of Thank You cards with the image and the clients usually write back "Oh I love it! I want to go with the tri-fold or the 5x7 insert" . Even with my announcements I do for newborns or "expecting" have I had this much difficulty.
So I wanted to share my version of the "Creepy Clown" Character.
This one was awesome because I got to take Kelsey out of her pretty little box and make her finally something scary. Kelsey was my Pinball Princess and Bond Girl. She always does pretty so finally I took her out of her shell.
This one was crazy. I found a fence that was perfect for the set over in the industrial area up by the airport. We just finished shooting and all of a sudden a red truck with #YYC Airport Security rolls up.
Doug is frantic trying to cover Kesley's nude body and I just laughed and said calm down I've got this. I talked to security and apparently my strobes were making the planes think they had to land farther then the airport. Also my magnetic pulse was interfering with the tower control and we almost caused a plane crash.
Now that is what I call Hazzardous Material.
xxx
Hazzard
God I love October..........
It's brisk and chilly and everything feels right with skulls adorned in stores and this time of year I stock up on my home decor because it's not out of the norm to find bats and skulls. AAAAAAAAHHHHHH YES
So I was approached by a society in Red Deer to donate a photography package. I gladly offered my services after I found out it was Suicide Prevention.
You see one of my best friends older brother killed himself when we were kids. That was my first encounter with someone who took their own life. Watching my best friend grow up without his brother was so difficult. He struggled emotionally and I can personally remember fight after fight he got in because his anger was so strong. One time he punched a phone booth (yup I am that old phone booths still existed) and his arm went right through the glass... it tore open his arm and exposed the flesh. I ran to my Blazer and grabbed my hoodies that were in the trunk and tied his arms and took him to the hospital where I phoned his parents. His Mom to this day thanks me for being there to support her son. We've been BFF's for over 15 years and a day doesn't pass where I thank the gods that he never ended his life also because I know at times he did struggle.
Then came the day when two teens killed themselves at our school. Bullying was so bad that these two boys ended their lives. One of them I grew up with and the other I just met in Grade 10. I still run into his brother here and there who is now a monk.
I lost my friend Greg on the night of his CD release and that one was a total shocker. He was my Florida friend I enjoyed visiting annually and watching his band play live. These boys finally made it. They were one of the songs you hear on the WB and also featured on One Tree Hill so when he ended his life it made me question what happened? Greg was always all smile and even when he was on tour he took the time to write me and tell me what fun things went down. He left his brother who the last time I was in Florida met. They play in the same band but it was hard this time meeting his brother because when I look at him I see Greg. They dedicated the show to him and it was so hard to listen to the music and fight the tears.
Then came this year. I am sure plenty of you saw my posts looking for a friend who went missing. My buddy Andrew was sent to BC to an addictions center to live as he battled with a alcoholic addiction. Funny thing.. when we were younger he never ever touched the stuff. People were always like wtf?? why don't you party? but Andrew always offered to be the D.D. When I was 17 he told me why he always offered to drive. He was schizophrenic and because of his mental illness was on heavy duty medication. When we entered our mid 20's Andrew's demons got the best of him and he was on a downward spiral with booze and his Mom made the choice to move him away.
This year I got a chilling phone call from a friend asking if he contacted me. Andrew is missing. Weeks went by and then I had a bone chilling dream where Andrew visited me. He was on the steps of my parents house and saying how much he missed me and this was the last place he knew where to find me. I started to cry in my dream and say how worried we are and you need to call you mom. Andrew went blank. He dropped his face into his hands and cried. He said it is too late. Then I saw a flash of forest and felt cold. I woke up in a shock.
The next day.. they found his body. They posted a photo of where I saw him in my dream. What was even more weird... at the memorial I talked to the other two friends who were really close and I started to cry and tell them about the dream and how that is when I knew he was dead. My one friend threw up and the other went blank. They both had the exact same dream.
So Suicide hits home with me. My sister is a suicide survivor and on medication to battle her depression. When she told me about trying to kill herself years ago it almost killed me to hear this. She was the product of high school bullies and we were not friends in high school. I was the "Lil Miss Popular" who was a part of the mean girls group and she was that lonely nerd in the hallways with only one friend. Every day for two months she came home and cried. Finally I got her to tell me what the issue was. The mean girls in her grade were throwing things at her in class.. taping notes to her back and making fun of her for being fat. As my sister cried telling me these things I knew that I was going to do something. I waited outside of her class and when the bell rang I grabbed the head mean girl by her arm and threw her into the locker. I held her there and told her what a horrible person she was and if she doesn't treat people with respect she will have to deal with me.
I don't condone violence of any kind but I put the fear of god into these girls. She told me she doesn't know what I am talking about and when my sister walked out she froze and went blank. I said that right there is my little sister and what your doing is wrong. After watching two kids in my grade kill themselves for being in my sisters shoes I have zero tolerance with bullies. As soon as they saw my sister I got the whole "I didn't know she was your sister" THAT DOES NOT MATTER! A PERSON IS A PERSON!. So after making a big scene those girls for the rest of there school days left my sister alone. She yelled at me when I got home about how much I embarrassed her and now everyone at our school knows who she is.. she is now the little sister.
A couple years ago she told me that if I never did that for her she was going to take her own life.
So that is why suicide hits home with me. It's a part of my life and prevention is key.
It's brisk and chilly and everything feels right with skulls adorned in stores and this time of year I stock up on my home decor because it's not out of the norm to find bats and skulls. AAAAAAAAHHHHHH YES
So I was approached by a society in Red Deer to donate a photography package. I gladly offered my services after I found out it was Suicide Prevention.
You see one of my best friends older brother killed himself when we were kids. That was my first encounter with someone who took their own life. Watching my best friend grow up without his brother was so difficult. He struggled emotionally and I can personally remember fight after fight he got in because his anger was so strong. One time he punched a phone booth (yup I am that old phone booths still existed) and his arm went right through the glass... it tore open his arm and exposed the flesh. I ran to my Blazer and grabbed my hoodies that were in the trunk and tied his arms and took him to the hospital where I phoned his parents. His Mom to this day thanks me for being there to support her son. We've been BFF's for over 15 years and a day doesn't pass where I thank the gods that he never ended his life also because I know at times he did struggle.
Then came the day when two teens killed themselves at our school. Bullying was so bad that these two boys ended their lives. One of them I grew up with and the other I just met in Grade 10. I still run into his brother here and there who is now a monk.
I lost my friend Greg on the night of his CD release and that one was a total shocker. He was my Florida friend I enjoyed visiting annually and watching his band play live. These boys finally made it. They were one of the songs you hear on the WB and also featured on One Tree Hill so when he ended his life it made me question what happened? Greg was always all smile and even when he was on tour he took the time to write me and tell me what fun things went down. He left his brother who the last time I was in Florida met. They play in the same band but it was hard this time meeting his brother because when I look at him I see Greg. They dedicated the show to him and it was so hard to listen to the music and fight the tears.
Then came this year. I am sure plenty of you saw my posts looking for a friend who went missing. My buddy Andrew was sent to BC to an addictions center to live as he battled with a alcoholic addiction. Funny thing.. when we were younger he never ever touched the stuff. People were always like wtf?? why don't you party? but Andrew always offered to be the D.D. When I was 17 he told me why he always offered to drive. He was schizophrenic and because of his mental illness was on heavy duty medication. When we entered our mid 20's Andrew's demons got the best of him and he was on a downward spiral with booze and his Mom made the choice to move him away.
This year I got a chilling phone call from a friend asking if he contacted me. Andrew is missing. Weeks went by and then I had a bone chilling dream where Andrew visited me. He was on the steps of my parents house and saying how much he missed me and this was the last place he knew where to find me. I started to cry in my dream and say how worried we are and you need to call you mom. Andrew went blank. He dropped his face into his hands and cried. He said it is too late. Then I saw a flash of forest and felt cold. I woke up in a shock.
The next day.. they found his body. They posted a photo of where I saw him in my dream. What was even more weird... at the memorial I talked to the other two friends who were really close and I started to cry and tell them about the dream and how that is when I knew he was dead. My one friend threw up and the other went blank. They both had the exact same dream.
So Suicide hits home with me. My sister is a suicide survivor and on medication to battle her depression. When she told me about trying to kill herself years ago it almost killed me to hear this. She was the product of high school bullies and we were not friends in high school. I was the "Lil Miss Popular" who was a part of the mean girls group and she was that lonely nerd in the hallways with only one friend. Every day for two months she came home and cried. Finally I got her to tell me what the issue was. The mean girls in her grade were throwing things at her in class.. taping notes to her back and making fun of her for being fat. As my sister cried telling me these things I knew that I was going to do something. I waited outside of her class and when the bell rang I grabbed the head mean girl by her arm and threw her into the locker. I held her there and told her what a horrible person she was and if she doesn't treat people with respect she will have to deal with me.
I don't condone violence of any kind but I put the fear of god into these girls. She told me she doesn't know what I am talking about and when my sister walked out she froze and went blank. I said that right there is my little sister and what your doing is wrong. After watching two kids in my grade kill themselves for being in my sisters shoes I have zero tolerance with bullies. As soon as they saw my sister I got the whole "I didn't know she was your sister" THAT DOES NOT MATTER! A PERSON IS A PERSON!. So after making a big scene those girls for the rest of there school days left my sister alone. She yelled at me when I got home about how much I embarrassed her and now everyone at our school knows who she is.. she is now the little sister.
A couple years ago she told me that if I never did that for her she was going to take her own life.
So that is why suicide hits home with me. It's a part of my life and prevention is key.
The Hearse Song
Do you ever think as a hearse goes by,
that you may be the next to die?
They wrap you up in a big white sheet
From your head down to your feet.
They put you in a big black box,
And cover you up with dirt and rocks.
All goes well for about a week,
Then your coffin begins to leak.
The worms crawl in, the worms crawl out,
The worms play pinochle on your snout.
They eat your eyes, they eat your nose,
They eat the jelly between your toes.
A big green worm with rolling eyes,
Crawls in your stomach and out your eyes.
Your stomach turns a slimy green,
And pus pours out like whipping cream.
You spread it on a slice of bread,
And that's what you eat when you are dead.
This poem is my fav all time poem since I was a little girl. It was in a book called "Scary Stories" and I've been dying to do a Hazzardous Tale of this one. The best part... we shot this set in daylight
You should of seen the reaction from people with live worms and blood. I think this goes down as one of my fav sets of all time.
This weekend I am shooting my first 4 some. That's right... four hot hazz mat girls are going to come together in a dark tale. I built a pretty rad set for this one and the ladies accessories just came in.. all I can say is this set is going to be BLOODY awesome
Happy October
xxx
Hazzard
Do you ever think as a hearse goes by,
that you may be the next to die?
They wrap you up in a big white sheet
From your head down to your feet.
They put you in a big black box,
And cover you up with dirt and rocks.
All goes well for about a week,
Then your coffin begins to leak.
The worms crawl in, the worms crawl out,
The worms play pinochle on your snout.
They eat your eyes, they eat your nose,
They eat the jelly between your toes.
A big green worm with rolling eyes,
Crawls in your stomach and out your eyes.
Your stomach turns a slimy green,
And pus pours out like whipping cream.
You spread it on a slice of bread,
And that's what you eat when you are dead.
This poem is my fav all time poem since I was a little girl. It was in a book called "Scary Stories" and I've been dying to do a Hazzardous Tale of this one. The best part... we shot this set in daylight
You should of seen the reaction from people with live worms and blood. I think this goes down as one of my fav sets of all time. This weekend I am shooting my first 4 some. That's right... four hot hazz mat girls are going to come together in a dark tale. I built a pretty rad set for this one and the ladies accessories just came in.. all I can say is this set is going to be BLOODY awesome
Happy October
xxx
Hazzard
Happy Monday SG'ers!
So this weekend was a good one!
Friday I hosted another Hazz Mat Party. This time we had something special. We did a Fundraiser for LIGHT THE NIGHT and then donated all the door proceeds and the 50/50 in my friend Sarah's name. She is a cancer survivor and took the time to speak to us about it. I am proud to say we donated over $1,000 in door money and then almost $300 in 50/50 tickets (not to mention what people pledged before the show).
I had 7 of the models out in the Hazz Mat gear so fans got to meet some of the guys and dolls. Then we had 3 fantastic Alberta Metal Acts that melted everyone's faces off!
This Photo I LOVE because it screams metal to me
I love having my parties at Verns because I know the management and it's totally that hole in the wall pub that people love to get crazy in. The only downfall is the stage is lit up by a simple track light with three tungsten mini lights on the stage so shit is DARK. At least with bright stage lights I can get less grainy images but this place I have to BUMP up that ISO to almost max of what my camera can do.
So here is my cute model Blake. THE LADIES SWOOOOOON for this guy. He is beautiful inside and out. It was hilarious because every single girl model at one point in the night said "I want to shoot with him!!!! that guy is HOT" but sadly he's dating a girl who doesn't understand art and will not let him model with girls.. only guys. I have even offered this girl to come sit on set and watch that there is no "behind the scenes porn' going on. LOL aaaaaaah people crack me up!.
Here is the singer of MAIMED WOLF. They came in from out of Calgary for my show which I thought was super rad of them. I am a huge fan of death metal and this singer could growl! I haven't been to a hardcore metal show in a while so it was nice to get some headbanging in
This last image is World Class White Trash. I've heard so many things about this group of dudes and they were awesome live. Not to mention the crowd went CRAZY for them.
So my next Hazz Mat hosting party is not until Dec. We are bringing in the IMPLANTS from LA to play this gnarly show for us. We also booked a couple of big names for 2013 shows but I am not allowed to talk about who they are until we announce them in December. So when I get the go ahead I will announce who we have coming for early 2013. All I can tell you is we are hosting a V-Day Massacre Party.
Here is my Babe of the Week. KATNOIR is back in this metalriffic set. I love when I get to work with this babe (you might even recognize her as I did her Hopeful sets on SG years ago) and every time we shoot her hair is TOTALLY different then the last. She matches is to a T to the outfits, location and theme.
Well SG'ers I am off! I need to edit like a mad women and finish up that first wedding I shot this month. I meet with the Bride and Groom early next week to pick the prints and images for the Press Bound Album.
xxx
Hazzard
So this weekend was a good one!
Friday I hosted another Hazz Mat Party. This time we had something special. We did a Fundraiser for LIGHT THE NIGHT and then donated all the door proceeds and the 50/50 in my friend Sarah's name. She is a cancer survivor and took the time to speak to us about it. I am proud to say we donated over $1,000 in door money and then almost $300 in 50/50 tickets (not to mention what people pledged before the show).
I had 7 of the models out in the Hazz Mat gear so fans got to meet some of the guys and dolls. Then we had 3 fantastic Alberta Metal Acts that melted everyone's faces off!
This Photo I LOVE because it screams metal to me
I love having my parties at Verns because I know the management and it's totally that hole in the wall pub that people love to get crazy in. The only downfall is the stage is lit up by a simple track light with three tungsten mini lights on the stage so shit is DARK. At least with bright stage lights I can get less grainy images but this place I have to BUMP up that ISO to almost max of what my camera can do.
So here is my cute model Blake. THE LADIES SWOOOOOON for this guy. He is beautiful inside and out. It was hilarious because every single girl model at one point in the night said "I want to shoot with him!!!! that guy is HOT" but sadly he's dating a girl who doesn't understand art and will not let him model with girls.. only guys. I have even offered this girl to come sit on set and watch that there is no "behind the scenes porn' going on. LOL aaaaaaah people crack me up!.
Here is the singer of MAIMED WOLF. They came in from out of Calgary for my show which I thought was super rad of them. I am a huge fan of death metal and this singer could growl! I haven't been to a hardcore metal show in a while so it was nice to get some headbanging in
This last image is World Class White Trash. I've heard so many things about this group of dudes and they were awesome live. Not to mention the crowd went CRAZY for them.
So my next Hazz Mat hosting party is not until Dec. We are bringing in the IMPLANTS from LA to play this gnarly show for us. We also booked a couple of big names for 2013 shows but I am not allowed to talk about who they are until we announce them in December. So when I get the go ahead I will announce who we have coming for early 2013. All I can tell you is we are hosting a V-Day Massacre Party.
Here is my Babe of the Week. KATNOIR is back in this metalriffic set. I love when I get to work with this babe (you might even recognize her as I did her Hopeful sets on SG years ago) and every time we shoot her hair is TOTALLY different then the last. She matches is to a T to the outfits, location and theme.
Well SG'ers I am off! I need to edit like a mad women and finish up that first wedding I shot this month. I meet with the Bride and Groom early next week to pick the prints and images for the Press Bound Album.
xxx
Hazzard
