I haven't posted much for a while. I've been really trying to reevaluate my life, and the way I've been doing things. I am on academic probation(since I didn't have my head in the game last semester), so I'm taking some time to change the way I view my happiness. I'm back in the gym to get my fat lazy ass in shape, and trying to surround myself with positive people. So far it's been a bit of a struggle, but I'm making good progress. I'm the only one in control of my happiness, and I'm taking charge of my life. I'm done trying to seek happiness from others who don't seem to give a shit about me. Right now I'm laying in bed watching the greatest film of all time("The Boondock Saints" of course).

I don't have a whole lot to say today, but I just wanted to post a pic of my new kilt. I'm pretty pumped about it, and might have to grow my beard out again just for the kilt

As of lately I've been getting this very stagnant feeling. I feel like my life is just standing still, when the reality is that it is flying past me. My job just feels so boring and meaningless. School is a complete drag this semester, and I'm falling behind. I used to have a much more exciting life and job, and all I wanted was a "normal" life. Now that I have that(sort of) I can't help but miss the chaos. I also can't help but notice that I seem to either attract chaos, or seek it out. When it comes to women, all that seems to come my way is relationships that I know are doomed from the start, but I can't help myself. I guess I'm just a glutton for punishment. Maybe they are drawn to me because I'm a very mellow stable person, or maybe I seek them out from some sort of subconscious need for chaos. Either way it's frustrating only being able to find crazy women.

I just got home from a baby shower for my brother and his wife. It was surprisingly fun(mostly because my family is hilarious). I ate a metric ton of cupcakes. This will be the first baby in the family, and it's my little brother. I'm pretty excited to meet my new niece.

Right now I'm going through some pretty big changes in my life. I'm newly out of a relationship, working my ass off, and school at night. I'm pretty stressed out about school and work. I don't quite know where life is taking me right now, but hope I can sort it all out.