Hey, so Im closing my account with SG as I am going travelling in a few weeks and Im trying to cut down any expenses on my credit cards and so on.
I post nearly everyday on my personal blog, which you can find here: Innocence & Wisdom
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I post nearly everyday on my personal blog, which you can find here: Innocence & Wisdom
Feel free to subscribe to it and leave comments, I like comments
hey, so ive not posted in a few days.
tomorrow is my birthday so i went and got a black star tattooed on my thumb. the lady at the shop asked me if it would affect my work and i said no. i couldnt give a fuck what anyone thinks. if you dont want me to work for you cos i got a star tattooed on my thumb, then i dont want to work for you!
it fucking hurt too! i always forget how much tattoos hurt!
but oh my gosh, i had a sudden rush of elation as i left! i felt like a fucking druggie that just had a hit after so long without. i was like, oh yeah! it feels so good to be inked again!
things are going really well with G, he is so perfect and lovely. We are going out tonight to celebrate me turning 29. Can you fucking believe it! 29!
I booked my flight to Sydney. Im leaving on the 3rd April. I spent all my savings on the flight, so I have two months to make the money back. Ive decided to go back to lap dancing. Sides, Im over waitressing.
It sucks Ive met such a great guy right before I leave...
I gotta go get ready, ill post more another time. Will take pics tonight x
Oh and, how hot is Alza??? Oh my gosh, I totally came in my panties looking at her set!
tomorrow is my birthday so i went and got a black star tattooed on my thumb. the lady at the shop asked me if it would affect my work and i said no. i couldnt give a fuck what anyone thinks. if you dont want me to work for you cos i got a star tattooed on my thumb, then i dont want to work for you!
it fucking hurt too! i always forget how much tattoos hurt!
but oh my gosh, i had a sudden rush of elation as i left! i felt like a fucking druggie that just had a hit after so long without. i was like, oh yeah! it feels so good to be inked again!
things are going really well with G, he is so perfect and lovely. We are going out tonight to celebrate me turning 29. Can you fucking believe it! 29!
I booked my flight to Sydney. Im leaving on the 3rd April. I spent all my savings on the flight, so I have two months to make the money back. Ive decided to go back to lap dancing. Sides, Im over waitressing.
It sucks Ive met such a great guy right before I leave...
I gotta go get ready, ill post more another time. Will take pics tonight
xOh and, how hot is Alza??? Oh my gosh, I totally came in my panties looking at her set!
Hey hey!
SO January is almost over, lets review...
Best of January 2008
* Meeting G
* Discovering affiliate marketing
* Launching Futurepulse.net
* Getting my British Passport
* Getting my Australia Working Holiday Visa
* The Golden Compass movie
* Developing my web businesses
* Learning and growing from being with G
* Knowing my future is going to be great
* Knowing I will be in Sydney in March
I really am enjoying my life so much. Things with G get better every day. We are so loved up and trying not to think about the fact that I will be leaving soon for a year or more traveling. It sucks, I meet such a great guy who loves me and Im leaving! He texts me good morning everyday, hopes I have a good day, just wants to do whatever makes me happy but keeps his own independence. He goes skating and filming and does his Uni work and respects my space, needs and decisions. He is always touching me wherever we are, if we're out drinking, he always has his arm around me, or stroking my back, or my neck. When he is visiting, we cuddle and kiss constantly. He thinks I am awesome and the best and tells me often.
And I have finally chilled about him, ya'll be pleased to know. Being with him has been good, its weeded out a lot of old shit that was still hanging around in my psyche from past relationships with men and its been good to have a normal, functional, rewarding relationship. I feel like it is setting me up for more good relationships. Being with G has given me so much confidence. I really do cherish him and cant even put into words to explain to him how thankful I am for him and how wonderful it has been knowing him. I think he has learned to appreciate himself more too from being with me. Everybody wins! We both feel equally lucky to be with eachother. I am truly blessed.
Aside from G, I have been working on my dream which is to run a web based business from my beloved macbook from anywhere in the world. I spent about 10hrs a day for about 3 days just reading up about internet and affiliate marketing and I have launched a site - FUTUREPULSE.NET that I am doing a lot of work on. It is only like 2 days old and will be doing a lot of changing in the near future. First of all I want to migrate it to Wordpress so I can Categorize the subjects I blog about into different pages. I think also, I will find an even more niche topic to blog about and will create an entirely separate site about that. I have already come up with another site concept that I will be putting into affect soon. Its hard finding the time to do my day to day things, see G, go to work, sleep and launch my career, but Im loving it. I cant wait to start seeing some revenue too!
Most of all, I cant wait to get to OZ! Its a scary thought if I let myself think about it. I have my British Passport and My Oz Working Holiday visa, I just need to buy my flight... I applied for and got a new credit card but it hasnt arrived yet so I dont know how much I have to spend and I am hoping it will be enough to cover a cost, if not, I will use the limit and some of my savings to book the flight and just apply for another one to top up my savings.
I have three friends living in Sydney who have all offered to show me around or put me up for some time so thats nice. I cant wait for my various sites to be properly up and running so that I can get down to writing content for them and managing affiliate merchant links to get the money coming in. I have already set up an excel spreadsheet for the two sites I am running in preparation for the money I will be earning.
I initially had this idea that I wanted to earn £15K per month because thats all I earned last year. But I think it is a better, more realistic and achievable goal to aim for £5000 per month earnings. Right now, I have to focus on earning £5! Ive already got that from signing up with an Affiliate Network, but I want to see some sales commissions coming in and that means creating good content on my site and getting traffic to it. Which brings me to the other site I am going to set up which will link to it. Luckily for me, my web host submits my sites to search engines for me which is nice.
Anyway, I am super into it all so I can talk for ages. I am absolutely brimming with ideas and project plans and so on that the work load is daunting especially that I am learning as I develop these things.
I just had another site idea, which brings me to four sites in total that need developing. I will reach my goal of £5000 per month earnings. I set goals and I achieve them.
By the way, have you guys visited Tattoodles.com? Its a pretty wicked site for Tattoo ideas, check them out - Tattoodles.com
SO January is almost over, lets review...
Best of January 2008
* Meeting G
* Discovering affiliate marketing
* Launching Futurepulse.net
* Getting my British Passport
* Getting my Australia Working Holiday Visa
* The Golden Compass movie
* Developing my web businesses
* Learning and growing from being with G
* Knowing my future is going to be great
* Knowing I will be in Sydney in March
I really am enjoying my life so much. Things with G get better every day. We are so loved up and trying not to think about the fact that I will be leaving soon for a year or more traveling. It sucks, I meet such a great guy who loves me and Im leaving! He texts me good morning everyday, hopes I have a good day, just wants to do whatever makes me happy but keeps his own independence. He goes skating and filming and does his Uni work and respects my space, needs and decisions. He is always touching me wherever we are, if we're out drinking, he always has his arm around me, or stroking my back, or my neck. When he is visiting, we cuddle and kiss constantly. He thinks I am awesome and the best and tells me often.
And I have finally chilled about him, ya'll be pleased to know. Being with him has been good, its weeded out a lot of old shit that was still hanging around in my psyche from past relationships with men and its been good to have a normal, functional, rewarding relationship. I feel like it is setting me up for more good relationships. Being with G has given me so much confidence. I really do cherish him and cant even put into words to explain to him how thankful I am for him and how wonderful it has been knowing him. I think he has learned to appreciate himself more too from being with me. Everybody wins! We both feel equally lucky to be with eachother. I am truly blessed.
Aside from G, I have been working on my dream which is to run a web based business from my beloved macbook from anywhere in the world. I spent about 10hrs a day for about 3 days just reading up about internet and affiliate marketing and I have launched a site - FUTUREPULSE.NET that I am doing a lot of work on. It is only like 2 days old and will be doing a lot of changing in the near future. First of all I want to migrate it to Wordpress so I can Categorize the subjects I blog about into different pages. I think also, I will find an even more niche topic to blog about and will create an entirely separate site about that. I have already come up with another site concept that I will be putting into affect soon. Its hard finding the time to do my day to day things, see G, go to work, sleep and launch my career, but Im loving it. I cant wait to start seeing some revenue too!
Most of all, I cant wait to get to OZ! Its a scary thought if I let myself think about it. I have my British Passport and My Oz Working Holiday visa, I just need to buy my flight... I applied for and got a new credit card but it hasnt arrived yet so I dont know how much I have to spend and I am hoping it will be enough to cover a cost, if not, I will use the limit and some of my savings to book the flight and just apply for another one to top up my savings.
I have three friends living in Sydney who have all offered to show me around or put me up for some time so thats nice. I cant wait for my various sites to be properly up and running so that I can get down to writing content for them and managing affiliate merchant links to get the money coming in. I have already set up an excel spreadsheet for the two sites I am running in preparation for the money I will be earning.
I initially had this idea that I wanted to earn £15K per month because thats all I earned last year. But I think it is a better, more realistic and achievable goal to aim for £5000 per month earnings. Right now, I have to focus on earning £5! Ive already got that from signing up with an Affiliate Network, but I want to see some sales commissions coming in and that means creating good content on my site and getting traffic to it. Which brings me to the other site I am going to set up which will link to it. Luckily for me, my web host submits my sites to search engines for me which is nice.
Anyway, I am super into it all so I can talk for ages. I am absolutely brimming with ideas and project plans and so on that the work load is daunting especially that I am learning as I develop these things.
I just had another site idea, which brings me to four sites in total that need developing. I will reach my goal of £5000 per month earnings. I set goals and I achieve them.
By the way, have you guys visited Tattoodles.com? Its a pretty wicked site for Tattoo ideas, check them out - Tattoodles.com
Funny how relationships show you how psycho you are hey?
Like woah!
But guess what, today G took a shower and left his phone in the room and I didnt even want to look thru it. Its not that I trust him, its just that, well, id like to think Ive matured from doing that and also, I dont need to deal with the drama of knowing.
Ive been a bit out of sorts lately, I dont know why, Im just... meh. ya know?
Anyway, we missed the courier today who was delivering my shiney new British Passport - boo! So now I have to wait around tomorrow to get it. And then I can apply for the Ozzie visa.
I AM GOING TO AUSTRALIA! I know it, with every fiber in my being.
Maybe thats why Ive been out of sorts, Im feeling restless. I just want to go already. I want to find a cool bar to bartend in, a rad place to stay on the beach, take up surfing again, explore the hippy/arty suburbs, explore Sydney, visit Moz, and maybe even find a biker bar type strip club where I can be "Bossy", yeah thats my name fucker, Im BOSSY. Id also like to take up regular pole dancing lessons, get super fit pole dancing and surfing. I wish I had bought a pole insted of decks, Id be so fit and much better on the pole by now if I had.
That reminds me, I need to get in touch with that Saffa surf judge friend of mine who works for the ASP (Association of Surfing Professionals) - he lives in Sydney, he may have some good suggestions and leads for me of where to stay and work.
IM FUCKING GOING TO BE IN AUSTRALIA IN A FEW WEEKS TIME!
I just need money for the flight, which I need to book ASAP. Im waiting to hear back from Capital One to see if they will give me a credit card so I can book my flight.
I have been working on setting up a new site, this one for all my affiliate links. Take a look at the links to the right, all personally selected by myself, all shops I do or would shop from.
Ive just signed up for iTunes and Ebay affiliates as well, so I will be working on those too. Speaking of Ebay, I will be starting the mountain of Ebay listings I need doing today.
Stayed at G's last night. Felt a bit annoyed with him, I dont know why. We watched 300, that movie is such a turn on! Hot men being strong and honourable - LOVE IT! Then I fucked him but I couldnt come, I dont know why, I am definately out of sorts. I woke up grumpy with a sore back so G gave me a back massage which was nice, then he went down on me and we had a quick fuck cos he came real quick cos I had made him wait so long.
I definately want to experience having a submissive boyfriend. In fact, I think most men are inclined to be "submissive" in that, they like their woman to be in charge and to do the things she asks him to do. Id like to boss my boy around so that he cleans my house, cooks me dinner, massages me, and I can use him sexually the way I want to so that I get off everytime. Im tired of straight/vanilla sex where Im just doing it and then realise Im not actually enjoying it.
Sometimes I get this urge, when Im on top, to punch whoever Im fucking in the face. Its weird. Sometimes I really have to suppress the urge... Im also a biter. Im always biting and nipping the guys Im with. I was definately a cat in my past life. DEFINITELY.
Its not like I want to dress in latex and wield a wip and have my boy crawling all over the place. I think that sort of behaviour is masculine and stems from women over compensating their inability to be powerful for so many thousands of years with the only power they know - masculine power. I think it is possible, and NECESSARY for women to find their own unique FEMININE power and use that instead, I think it is an infinitely more powerful power also. Masculine power is domineering and forceful. Feminine power simply commands and expects her desires to be met and if the man does not, he continues to live an unbalanced, unfulfilled life, always feeling like there is something missing. Men come with a joy stick for fuck sake! Control the cock, control the man - AND THEY LOVE IT.
And even tho, these are my beliefs, I still find myself feeling bad for not standing by what I want. Like Last night, I fucked G and then I was so knackered from trying to come and getting off on him, I just wanted to rest and bless him, he is not the type to demand his share of the fun and games, besides, he LOVES it when I am on top, that IS is share! Anyway, I woke up this morning to his usual morning glory and felt annoyed because I felt like I owed him an orgasm, eventually I mentioned this to him and he laughed and said I dont and I shoudnt feel that way and a huge weight was taken off my shoulder. And writing this has just made me realise how lucky I am to be with a boy who just wants me to be happy and fulfilled and is happy to provide my happiness however he can.
But still, maybe I can bring out the submissive in G, if I would but just take charge, no? There have been a couple times where I have been so caught up in riding him and he moves around so much under me, trying to give me pleasure that Ive slapped his legged and ordered him to KEEP STILL and he says he loves it when I do that. He likes how my eyes change when I am like that. Its funny, I have played the online Mistress for two years and never done so in my real life. Mind you, this is the first relationship I have been in since Cassiano a year ago.
But I would like to have hands on experience of having a boy, or boys around me that honour and obey me as their Queen and who dedicate their lives to my pleasure. Not so much "live-in slaves" altho that would be nice had I had a place for them to live-in. But boys I can command and have such a relationship with that we can learn together the beauty of a woman's desires and a man's service to her desires. Mama Gena describes it further in her book Mama Gena's Owners and Operator's Guide to Men.
Being so cat like, it would be lovely to languish on a comfortable bed or divan in my beautiful home and have my boys fawn over me and jump to my ever wish and command. Some cleaning my home, some massaging my feet, some brushing my hair, some working at making money to support my desires and expenses. And each being eternally grateful for the opportunity.
And this is such a rare thing. I would call it my own personal fetish. It is rare to find such men who are strong and selfless enough to provide in such a way and to see that such service is their ultimate gain. Having been involved in the online BDSM/Money Slavery business for the past two years, there are far too many fetishistic guys out there looking to be ordered into a wank or self hating freaks looking for a bossy woman to degrade and humiliate them. I am just not into that. I am not a man hating woman. Yes, there are plenty of men out there worthy of being hated, beaten and ruined, and plenty who know it and pay to be treated exactly so, but I have no interest in these men. My one and only interest is in those men who seek to serve a woman's desires and find deep fulfillment and satisfaction from doing so.
It must be said however, my current desires are finances for travel, first class flights, and becoming debts free. (My debts only amount to £300 credit card, £500 overdraft and a £60 bar tab at work). In my work as a "Money Domme", I have met such men, but they are far and few between and due to the saturation of man hating greedy "Goddesses" on the net all saying the same things, they are often caught up too quickly in destructive ways which burn them for life. Which is unfortunate. They began their search because they knew they needed to serve the desires of a woman, that they needed her commands, and were so eager to do so that they thought that what all these so called "Princesses" were telling them to do was what they needed to do to fulfill this calling they felt they had. Unfortunately, many a good man has been lost in this way.
I am going to do some more work in my Financial Devotion / Pleasure Principle / She Desires website and wait for those rare Princes among swine to come my way so that I can begin a fulfilling relationship with these men, allowing them to do what they need to do and find fulfillment in serving my desires. For that is the true nature of man - Women desire, men serve.
Like woah!
But guess what, today G took a shower and left his phone in the room and I didnt even want to look thru it. Its not that I trust him, its just that, well, id like to think Ive matured from doing that and also, I dont need to deal with the drama of knowing.
Ive been a bit out of sorts lately, I dont know why, Im just... meh. ya know?
Anyway, we missed the courier today who was delivering my shiney new British Passport - boo! So now I have to wait around tomorrow to get it. And then I can apply for the Ozzie visa.
I AM GOING TO AUSTRALIA! I know it, with every fiber in my being.
Maybe thats why Ive been out of sorts, Im feeling restless. I just want to go already. I want to find a cool bar to bartend in, a rad place to stay on the beach, take up surfing again, explore the hippy/arty suburbs, explore Sydney, visit Moz, and maybe even find a biker bar type strip club where I can be "Bossy", yeah thats my name fucker, Im BOSSY. Id also like to take up regular pole dancing lessons, get super fit pole dancing and surfing. I wish I had bought a pole insted of decks, Id be so fit and much better on the pole by now if I had.
That reminds me, I need to get in touch with that Saffa surf judge friend of mine who works for the ASP (Association of Surfing Professionals) - he lives in Sydney, he may have some good suggestions and leads for me of where to stay and work.
IM FUCKING GOING TO BE IN AUSTRALIA IN A FEW WEEKS TIME!
I just need money for the flight, which I need to book ASAP. Im waiting to hear back from Capital One to see if they will give me a credit card so I can book my flight.
I have been working on setting up a new site, this one for all my affiliate links. Take a look at the links to the right, all personally selected by myself, all shops I do or would shop from.
Ive just signed up for iTunes and Ebay affiliates as well, so I will be working on those too. Speaking of Ebay, I will be starting the mountain of Ebay listings I need doing today.
Stayed at G's last night. Felt a bit annoyed with him, I dont know why. We watched 300, that movie is such a turn on! Hot men being strong and honourable - LOVE IT! Then I fucked him but I couldnt come, I dont know why, I am definately out of sorts. I woke up grumpy with a sore back so G gave me a back massage which was nice, then he went down on me and we had a quick fuck cos he came real quick cos I had made him wait so long.
I definately want to experience having a submissive boyfriend. In fact, I think most men are inclined to be "submissive" in that, they like their woman to be in charge and to do the things she asks him to do. Id like to boss my boy around so that he cleans my house, cooks me dinner, massages me, and I can use him sexually the way I want to so that I get off everytime. Im tired of straight/vanilla sex where Im just doing it and then realise Im not actually enjoying it.
Sometimes I get this urge, when Im on top, to punch whoever Im fucking in the face. Its weird. Sometimes I really have to suppress the urge... Im also a biter. Im always biting and nipping the guys Im with. I was definately a cat in my past life. DEFINITELY.
Its not like I want to dress in latex and wield a wip and have my boy crawling all over the place. I think that sort of behaviour is masculine and stems from women over compensating their inability to be powerful for so many thousands of years with the only power they know - masculine power. I think it is possible, and NECESSARY for women to find their own unique FEMININE power and use that instead, I think it is an infinitely more powerful power also. Masculine power is domineering and forceful. Feminine power simply commands and expects her desires to be met and if the man does not, he continues to live an unbalanced, unfulfilled life, always feeling like there is something missing. Men come with a joy stick for fuck sake! Control the cock, control the man - AND THEY LOVE IT.
And even tho, these are my beliefs, I still find myself feeling bad for not standing by what I want. Like Last night, I fucked G and then I was so knackered from trying to come and getting off on him, I just wanted to rest and bless him, he is not the type to demand his share of the fun and games, besides, he LOVES it when I am on top, that IS is share! Anyway, I woke up this morning to his usual morning glory and felt annoyed because I felt like I owed him an orgasm, eventually I mentioned this to him and he laughed and said I dont and I shoudnt feel that way and a huge weight was taken off my shoulder. And writing this has just made me realise how lucky I am to be with a boy who just wants me to be happy and fulfilled and is happy to provide my happiness however he can.
But still, maybe I can bring out the submissive in G, if I would but just take charge, no? There have been a couple times where I have been so caught up in riding him and he moves around so much under me, trying to give me pleasure that Ive slapped his legged and ordered him to KEEP STILL and he says he loves it when I do that. He likes how my eyes change when I am like that. Its funny, I have played the online Mistress for two years and never done so in my real life. Mind you, this is the first relationship I have been in since Cassiano a year ago.
But I would like to have hands on experience of having a boy, or boys around me that honour and obey me as their Queen and who dedicate their lives to my pleasure. Not so much "live-in slaves" altho that would be nice had I had a place for them to live-in. But boys I can command and have such a relationship with that we can learn together the beauty of a woman's desires and a man's service to her desires. Mama Gena describes it further in her book Mama Gena's Owners and Operator's Guide to Men.
Being so cat like, it would be lovely to languish on a comfortable bed or divan in my beautiful home and have my boys fawn over me and jump to my ever wish and command. Some cleaning my home, some massaging my feet, some brushing my hair, some working at making money to support my desires and expenses. And each being eternally grateful for the opportunity.
And this is such a rare thing. I would call it my own personal fetish. It is rare to find such men who are strong and selfless enough to provide in such a way and to see that such service is their ultimate gain. Having been involved in the online BDSM/Money Slavery business for the past two years, there are far too many fetishistic guys out there looking to be ordered into a wank or self hating freaks looking for a bossy woman to degrade and humiliate them. I am just not into that. I am not a man hating woman. Yes, there are plenty of men out there worthy of being hated, beaten and ruined, and plenty who know it and pay to be treated exactly so, but I have no interest in these men. My one and only interest is in those men who seek to serve a woman's desires and find deep fulfillment and satisfaction from doing so.
It must be said however, my current desires are finances for travel, first class flights, and becoming debts free. (My debts only amount to £300 credit card, £500 overdraft and a £60 bar tab at work). In my work as a "Money Domme", I have met such men, but they are far and few between and due to the saturation of man hating greedy "Goddesses" on the net all saying the same things, they are often caught up too quickly in destructive ways which burn them for life. Which is unfortunate. They began their search because they knew they needed to serve the desires of a woman, that they needed her commands, and were so eager to do so that they thought that what all these so called "Princesses" were telling them to do was what they needed to do to fulfill this calling they felt they had. Unfortunately, many a good man has been lost in this way.
I am going to do some more work in my Financial Devotion / Pleasure Principle / She Desires website and wait for those rare Princes among swine to come my way so that I can begin a fulfilling relationship with these men, allowing them to do what they need to do and find fulfillment in serving my desires. For that is the true nature of man - Women desire, men serve.
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ive not posted in a while, two weeks in fact!
G and I are doing really well! We spend a lot of time together, watching films, fucking, going out for drinks, talking about film editing and all kinds of stuff. he is a really lovely, good guy and im super stoked to be with him!
I think its taken me a little while to get my head around it all to be honest. I am used to guys taking their time about deciding if they want to be with me or anyone really, and stalling and all that crap but G is well into and not afraid to get right into it. Ive stayed over at his place four times now and we watch movies and fuck and sleep and cuddle and kiss. He says he loves kissing me. In fact, he says I rule and Im unbelievable and that my body is so much fun and that I taste amazing and I know how to just chill and that he loves everything about me and that Im lovely and he loves how I speak my mind and dont take any shit from anyone and Im really funny and that I look good in the morning and amazing on top.
We sleep so well together, we just fit together like puzzle pieces. When we are out together, we always have our hands on eachother, in eachother's back pockets, or he strokes my neck, or has his arm around me and i stroke the skin on his back or stomach - he has freakishly smooth skin! He has such a slim toned body, every muscle toned to perfection from years of skating and long, strong fingers which Im in love with, me being a girl with a fingering fetish...
He looks out for me, takes care of me, makes sure Im ok and comfortable. He's not always trying to fuck me and can stroke my body without going for my boobs or pussy which just gets annoying, he can appreciate me for being there and not just for being fuckable and that goes a long, long way! On Saturday night, he waked to my house to get me, we chose a movie and went home. We were kissing on the bed and he ate me out till I came in his mouth and then got up and put the movie on. It was so nice to be able to just enjoy him getting me off and not have to fuck him also. I told him I really liked that.
We have really great sex. Sin City was on TV the other night and we were lying on the couch watching it and I just wanted to fuck him on that couch, so I straddled him and took off my top and kissed him like mad, then I took off my jeans and fucked him till I came three times. He said it was the best thing ever and still goes on about it. Its weird, we've only been together since Christmas Eve but its all good.
Im stoked to be with someone who send me a text msg every day, calls me, comes to get me and walks me home, loves to cuddle, has a great body, kisses me constantly, strokes me, wants to be with me, fucks me perfectly and lets me be me and thinks im sexy in everything i do.
Thanks Goddess!
G and I are doing really well! We spend a lot of time together, watching films, fucking, going out for drinks, talking about film editing and all kinds of stuff. he is a really lovely, good guy and im super stoked to be with him!
I think its taken me a little while to get my head around it all to be honest. I am used to guys taking their time about deciding if they want to be with me or anyone really, and stalling and all that crap but G is well into and not afraid to get right into it. Ive stayed over at his place four times now and we watch movies and fuck and sleep and cuddle and kiss. He says he loves kissing me. In fact, he says I rule and Im unbelievable and that my body is so much fun and that I taste amazing and I know how to just chill and that he loves everything about me and that Im lovely and he loves how I speak my mind and dont take any shit from anyone and Im really funny and that I look good in the morning and amazing on top.
We sleep so well together, we just fit together like puzzle pieces. When we are out together, we always have our hands on eachother, in eachother's back pockets, or he strokes my neck, or has his arm around me and i stroke the skin on his back or stomach - he has freakishly smooth skin! He has such a slim toned body, every muscle toned to perfection from years of skating and long, strong fingers which Im in love with, me being a girl with a fingering fetish...
He looks out for me, takes care of me, makes sure Im ok and comfortable. He's not always trying to fuck me and can stroke my body without going for my boobs or pussy which just gets annoying, he can appreciate me for being there and not just for being fuckable and that goes a long, long way! On Saturday night, he waked to my house to get me, we chose a movie and went home. We were kissing on the bed and he ate me out till I came in his mouth and then got up and put the movie on. It was so nice to be able to just enjoy him getting me off and not have to fuck him also. I told him I really liked that.
We have really great sex. Sin City was on TV the other night and we were lying on the couch watching it and I just wanted to fuck him on that couch, so I straddled him and took off my top and kissed him like mad, then I took off my jeans and fucked him till I came three times. He said it was the best thing ever and still goes on about it. Its weird, we've only been together since Christmas Eve but its all good.
Im stoked to be with someone who send me a text msg every day, calls me, comes to get me and walks me home, loves to cuddle, has a great body, kisses me constantly, strokes me, wants to be with me, fucks me perfectly and lets me be me and thinks im sexy in everything i do.
Thanks Goddess!
oh yes baby! welcome to the new year and what a great start to it I had. Mine and G's night was PERFECT!
After an amazing night out with all my friends and the whole town dressed up in costumes G and I went home to his parent's hotel and our room with the massive four person bed and proceeded to bone each other's brains out for hours. We actually went through seven condoms and only got out of bed at 4pm this afternoon. What a great day of naked love and fucking!
Here's a pic of me and my mom:
After an amazing night out with all my friends and the whole town dressed up in costumes G and I went home to his parent's hotel and our room with the massive four person bed and proceeded to bone each other's brains out for hours. We actually went through seven condoms and only got out of bed at 4pm this afternoon. What a great day of naked love and fucking!
Here's a pic of me and my mom:
more assage:
Tonight is the night, we are going to bring in the new year with a bang
haha!
Night before last we went out for a drink and to see this band at one of the local rock clubs, he had his arm around me or stroked me the entire time and I couldnt keep my hands out of his pants - it hangs solid! I love to tease him in public and he loves it too.
After he walked me home, he sent a text to say he really does need to relieve the tension that ive created down below! hahaha! shame. Boy hasnt had a wank in like a week waiting for me to let him in. hehehehehe!
Where I live, everyone dresses up for NYE and goes out, he is dressing in a white suit and shoes (remember, I live in a surfer town so smart IS dressing up) and Im going as a 50's rockabilly chick. I so cant wait! I cant wait to get dressed up and undressed later I told him that too haha
You know, I love my life so much. Ever since I moved down here I have had the best time with the best people. People LIVE in this town. We are a community, I know just about everyone who lives here, I cannot leave the house without bumping into someone I know. Right now Im sitting at my Macbook on the bar of my favourite drinking spot, where I worked last year. Eating pizza and looking out the huge windows at the surfers in the ocean, listening to loud rock music on the PA. I fucking love this town and I fucking love my life!
I cant wait for tonight! Stay posted for photos and an update on my Cock Adventure.
Oh and to answer a commenter's question, its hard to explain what a beautiful cock looks like in words. Its just pleasing to the eye, it stands tall, is smooth and strong, nice shaped head, if I put my hand around it, his head and a bit clears the other my hand, so its a good long size and its not too thin - its gonna feel sooo good! And I love a cock that jumps to attention as soon as you click your fingers. 
Tonight is the night, we are going to bring in the new year with a bang
haha! Night before last we went out for a drink and to see this band at one of the local rock clubs, he had his arm around me or stroked me the entire time and I couldnt keep my hands out of his pants - it hangs solid! I love to tease him in public and he loves it too.
After he walked me home, he sent a text to say he really does need to relieve the tension that ive created down below! hahaha! shame. Boy hasnt had a wank in like a week waiting for me to let him in. hehehehehe!
Where I live, everyone dresses up for NYE and goes out, he is dressing in a white suit and shoes (remember, I live in a surfer town so smart IS dressing up) and Im going as a 50's rockabilly chick. I so cant wait! I cant wait to get dressed up and undressed later
I told him that too hahaYou know, I love my life so much. Ever since I moved down here I have had the best time with the best people. People LIVE in this town. We are a community, I know just about everyone who lives here, I cannot leave the house without bumping into someone I know. Right now Im sitting at my Macbook on the bar of my favourite drinking spot, where I worked last year. Eating pizza and looking out the huge windows at the surfers in the ocean, listening to loud rock music on the PA. I fucking love this town and I fucking love my life!
I cant wait for tonight! Stay posted for photos and an update on my Cock Adventure.
Oh and to answer a commenter's question, its hard to explain what a beautiful cock looks like in words. Its just pleasing to the eye, it stands tall, is smooth and strong, nice shaped head, if I put my hand around it, his head and a bit clears the other my hand, so its a good long size and its not too thin - its gonna feel sooo good! And I love a cock that jumps to attention as soon as you click your fingers.
i have a fucking great ass!
anyway, in other news, this girl is a bitch in heat!
im so in love with G's beautiful cock! i cant wait to ride it till it hurts. seriously.
i am mostly selfish in bed these days, what with being 29 and over being a slutty girl, but since we werent able to shag yet due to me being on, ive given him a blow job twice! god i feel like a slutty teenager again and i worry what he might think as we hardly know eachother, but i want it so bad. ugh, i hate myself for being everything i hate guys thinking girls really are like!
last night i went round his on the way home from the hostel and we watched hitchcoke's the birds (dumb film) between kisses and chats. i wanted him to take off his shirt so i could watch his muscles move under his slender frame and it wasnt long before my top was off either. he does tend to think my boobs are made of rubber which isnt too comfortable. oh man i cannot wait to fuck him. argh!
he was saying we will need a whole day together cos we are definately compatible sexually, i just know we will blow eachother's minds. we go from being really full on to having tender moments where i was stradling him in his office chair, both of us topless and i curled up into his chest, breast to breast while he kissed my shoulder and stroked my back and made comfortable enjoyable noises. i like that about him, he is vocal so i know what he is enjoying, i like that, most guys are not and you never know if what youre doing is working for them or not.
ive just been wishing we could go back to christmas eve, back to that huge hotel bed in his parent's hotel, that white room and just us in a bed made for four, just fucking, and holding eachother and kissing.
he walked me home last night with his arm around me and today i woke up to an email on my facebook saying "that was hella damn good there madame! jesus fuckin christ!
the next few days better go by fast!!! by golly!!!!"
which is nice cos he could easily think im an inconsequential slut and disrespect me.
however, he did say this after he walked me home on christmas day:
"hey hey madame! never had a present as amazin as you on columbo day before! i musta been on the ultra good list this yr to have gotten what i wanted!" and "any time for you me dears, u deserve it and you are worth it!"
so im relaxing about him. god i hate liking people, i get so tense and over think shit, ffs, im 29 and ive been there and done that with more people than i can remember.
im also going to hav to say something to bert, my other lover.
fuck. andi, jamie, bert and gerard will all be out for NYE and i want them all.
right, im off home to work out, i need to tone up, ive been slacking and i want to look HOT AS FUCK wen im riding my boy's gorgeous big cock.
so there.
anyway, in other news, this girl is a bitch in heat!
im so in love with G's beautiful cock! i cant wait to ride it till it hurts. seriously.
i am mostly selfish in bed these days, what with being 29 and over being a slutty girl, but since we werent able to shag yet due to me being on, ive given him a blow job twice! god i feel like a slutty teenager again and i worry what he might think as we hardly know eachother, but i want it so bad. ugh, i hate myself for being everything i hate guys thinking girls really are like!
last night i went round his on the way home from the hostel and we watched hitchcoke's the birds (dumb film) between kisses and chats. i wanted him to take off his shirt so i could watch his muscles move under his slender frame and it wasnt long before my top was off either. he does tend to think my boobs are made of rubber which isnt too comfortable. oh man i cannot wait to fuck him. argh!
he was saying we will need a whole day together cos we are definately compatible sexually, i just know we will blow eachother's minds. we go from being really full on to having tender moments where i was stradling him in his office chair, both of us topless and i curled up into his chest, breast to breast while he kissed my shoulder and stroked my back and made comfortable enjoyable noises. i like that about him, he is vocal so i know what he is enjoying, i like that, most guys are not and you never know if what youre doing is working for them or not.
ive just been wishing we could go back to christmas eve, back to that huge hotel bed in his parent's hotel, that white room and just us in a bed made for four, just fucking, and holding eachother and kissing.
he walked me home last night with his arm around me and today i woke up to an email on my facebook saying "that was hella damn good there madame! jesus fuckin christ!
the next few days better go by fast!!! by golly!!!!"
which is nice cos he could easily think im an inconsequential slut and disrespect me.
however, he did say this after he walked me home on christmas day:
"hey hey madame! never had a present as amazin as you on columbo day before! i musta been on the ultra good list this yr to have gotten what i wanted!" and "any time for you me dears, u deserve it and you are worth it!"
so im relaxing about him. god i hate liking people, i get so tense and over think shit, ffs, im 29 and ive been there and done that with more people than i can remember.
im also going to hav to say something to bert, my other lover.
fuck. andi, jamie, bert and gerard will all be out for NYE and i want them all.
right, im off home to work out, i need to tone up, ive been slacking and i want to look HOT AS FUCK wen im riding my boy's gorgeous big cock.
so there.
harlow has a new lover on the go
his name is gerard, he is only 24 and he is a skater and film producer. most importantly, he has a lovely cock, the kind a girl dreams about, is a great kisser and has a strong body, the kind that is strong enough to man handle you in bed.
its funny, ive been fucking 13yrs, fucked more men than is socially acceptable and only now do i think i really realise what i like in bed.
even tho i am dominant, i do like a man who has the confidence to man handle me. you know, i like the strength of men, i like a man who can manouver me, who can move with me, you can pick me up, who is confident, who is strong enough to be tender, to let go, to rest his head on my chest, who makes sounds wen he is enjoying what i do.
anyway, this boy, altho i have not fucked him yet, its going to be great because all i can think about is that cock and how awesome its going to feel fucking it.
his name is gerard, he is only 24 and he is a skater and film producer. most importantly, he has a lovely cock, the kind a girl dreams about, is a great kisser and has a strong body, the kind that is strong enough to man handle you in bed.
its funny, ive been fucking 13yrs, fucked more men than is socially acceptable and only now do i think i really realise what i like in bed.
even tho i am dominant, i do like a man who has the confidence to man handle me. you know, i like the strength of men, i like a man who can manouver me, who can move with me, you can pick me up, who is confident, who is strong enough to be tender, to let go, to rest his head on my chest, who makes sounds wen he is enjoying what i do.
anyway, this boy, altho i have not fucked him yet, its going to be great because all i can think about is that cock and how awesome its going to feel fucking it.
