Dream A Dream
speak of change and the impossible
rip open my soul
and the maggots of truth
they pour on out
wiggle, squirm, invade
psyche overwhelmed with the decay
dream a dream
watch it float on by
reach for the tail end of someday
violated by naked reality
within the joys of gravidity
grows the seed of defeat
evil incarnate
abuse through gestation
and yet I let it penetrate
percolate
permeate my being with desire
a desire not for the broken
and the hole opens wide
burning with nothingness
satiate with anything and everything
blood, pain, voracity
carnal deviations of sight
darkness grows
until we know nothing of the light
2013
speak of change and the impossible
rip open my soul
and the maggots of truth
they pour on out
wiggle, squirm, invade
psyche overwhelmed with the decay
dream a dream
watch it float on by
reach for the tail end of someday
violated by naked reality
within the joys of gravidity
grows the seed of defeat
evil incarnate
abuse through gestation
and yet I let it penetrate
percolate
permeate my being with desire
a desire not for the broken
and the hole opens wide
burning with nothingness
satiate with anything and everything
blood, pain, voracity
carnal deviations of sight
darkness grows
until we know nothing of the light
2013
If I Was Your Child
look into my eyes
deny my everything
Im so all alone now
Im so broken, but you dont even see
look past this darkness
only see what you need to be free
this burden bores you
just a chore, a chore named me
but if I was your child
would you see things differently?
if I was your child
could you feed this need in me?
look into these childish eyes
and watch the hunger grow
daddy wont you help me
torture of youth caused my age to slow
look upon this little girl
just one touch will make her sing
love and darkness in her eyes
dont you know shell do anything?
but if she was your child
would you turn the darkness into light?
if I was your child
could you help me win this fight?
look into my eyes
deny my everything
Im so all alone now
Im so broken, but you dont even see
look past this darkness
only see what you need to be free
this burden bores you
just a chore, a chore named me
but if I was your child
would you see things differently?
if I was your child
could you feed this need in me?
look into these childish eyes
and watch the hunger grow
daddy wont you help me
torture of youth caused my age to slow
look upon this little girl
just one touch will make her sing
love and darkness in her eyes
dont you know shell do anything?
but if she was your child
would you turn the darkness into light?
if I was your child
could you help me win this fight?
Another Piece
he sat on the edge of the bed and lied
Id do anything for you, is what he cried
then he folded his arms across his chest
and proceeded to push her over the edge
locked her up inside her shell
trapped her alone on the inside with herself
the voices became a deafening roar
they screamed and they screamed
until she became she no more
youll never be able to do anything right
yes, you can, now get up and fight
its over, its over, I need to hide
I told you it wouldnt matter if we tried
we always knew this is how it would end
you need to hurt him, hurt him bad, my friend
dont you know that you broke them all?
it was only a matter of time before this fall
peace on the inside, you know whats right
I cant lose him, I cant lose him, I dont have the might
they yelled and they fought
and she cried and cried
and he just watched
as another piece of her died
Gypsy, 2013
he sat on the edge of the bed and lied
Id do anything for you, is what he cried
then he folded his arms across his chest
and proceeded to push her over the edge
locked her up inside her shell
trapped her alone on the inside with herself
the voices became a deafening roar
they screamed and they screamed
until she became she no more
youll never be able to do anything right
yes, you can, now get up and fight
its over, its over, I need to hide
I told you it wouldnt matter if we tried
we always knew this is how it would end
you need to hurt him, hurt him bad, my friend
dont you know that you broke them all?
it was only a matter of time before this fall
peace on the inside, you know whats right
I cant lose him, I cant lose him, I dont have the might
they yelled and they fought
and she cried and cried
and he just watched
as another piece of her died
Gypsy, 2013
Get ready for some shameless, not quite self, promotion.
Toasts website is finally up and running. This has been in the works for years. Its been started like 3 or 4 times and every time we either ran out of money, or had a friend designing it that slacked off and never finished it (despite being paid). This time my dad designed it. Right now, its solely selling his tattoo flash designs. Future plans are to add T-shirts, hats, stickers and prints of some of his paintings. I would greatly appreciate it if you lovelies would stop by and check it out, and if the mood strikes you, I wouldnt mind if you bought something
artbytoast.com
Toasts website is finally up and running. This has been in the works for years. Its been started like 3 or 4 times and every time we either ran out of money, or had a friend designing it that slacked off and never finished it (despite being paid). This time my dad designed it. Right now, its solely selling his tattoo flash designs. Future plans are to add T-shirts, hats, stickers and prints of some of his paintings. I would greatly appreciate it if you lovelies would stop by and check it out, and if the mood strikes you, I wouldnt mind if you bought something
artbytoast.com
In the End
joy and hope abound
look through the mirror
true life is what I found
sick and weak
then loss of hope
wisdom, strength in your words
decide to cope
these words hold no weight
theyre hollow I find
all of my might
to hold back this blade in my mind
I do not believe
Im sorry, my friend
reinforce that I knew
this is always the way it was meant to end
Gypsy, 2013
joy and hope abound
look through the mirror
true life is what I found
sick and weak
then loss of hope
wisdom, strength in your words
decide to cope
these words hold no weight
theyre hollow I find
all of my might
to hold back this blade in my mind
I do not believe
Im sorry, my friend
reinforce that I knew
this is always the way it was meant to end
Gypsy, 2013
CFS (My Parasite)
world of life
shiny and new
can not reach it
because of you
world in decay
all you let me see
push then fall
fear Ill never be set free
invisible, silent
so no one believes
suck it up, youre fine
only I know you never leave
I belong to you
have from your very first bite
my life force you suck
my parasite
Gypsy, 2012
world of life
shiny and new
can not reach it
because of you
world in decay
all you let me see
push then fall
fear Ill never be set free
invisible, silent
so no one believes
suck it up, youre fine
only I know you never leave
I belong to you
have from your very first bite
my life force you suck
my parasite
Gypsy, 2012
Stay With Me
fear and unknown
and reasons deny
promises of safety
spill and lie
but voices from deep within cry
will you please stay with me?
panic and doom
paranoia and the fall
I have no control
now Ill lose it all
but voices from the void call
I want you to stay with me
speculation then logic
wisdom inside
obsessive ruminations
pull to hide
but from the voices of the children inside
I need you to stay with me
torture and destruction
no one holds me tight
Im all alone
world without light
all of the voices cry we were right
you should have stayed with me
Gypsy, 2012
fear and unknown
and reasons deny
promises of safety
spill and lie
but voices from deep within cry
will you please stay with me?
panic and doom
paranoia and the fall
I have no control
now Ill lose it all
but voices from the void call
I want you to stay with me
speculation then logic
wisdom inside
obsessive ruminations
pull to hide
but from the voices of the children inside
I need you to stay with me
torture and destruction
no one holds me tight
Im all alone
world without light
all of the voices cry we were right
you should have stayed with me
Gypsy, 2012
Your War Zone
step into your war zone
words like hair triggered snipers
land mines of “if you were only” and who I need to be
guilt like a razors edge
guilt like a trip wire
guilt like a land mine
and shame
say these words
feign empathy
think these thoughts
convey through tone and expression
wrap it up with a pretty bow
wrap it up in your insincere loving words
intentions with false bottoms
spaces in between in which I constantly slip
slip through the cracks of your well being
I am wrong
I will always be wrong
I have always been wrong
my shield of compliance has eroded
I can hide no more
with bombs of blame overhead
and degradation loaded hand grenades pointed in my direction
I choose the cover of my own true self in the making
I choose not to continue to allow your access to this knife wound
I will no longer just sit back and watch as it bleeds
Gypsy, 2012
step into your war zone
words like hair triggered snipers
land mines of “if you were only” and who I need to be
guilt like a razors edge
guilt like a trip wire
guilt like a land mine
and shame
say these words
feign empathy
think these thoughts
convey through tone and expression
wrap it up with a pretty bow
wrap it up in your insincere loving words
intentions with false bottoms
spaces in between in which I constantly slip
slip through the cracks of your well being
I am wrong
I will always be wrong
I have always been wrong
my shield of compliance has eroded
I can hide no more
with bombs of blame overhead
and degradation loaded hand grenades pointed in my direction
I choose the cover of my own true self in the making
I choose not to continue to allow your access to this knife wound
I will no longer just sit back and watch as it bleeds
Gypsy, 2012
Happy Halloween!
I wanted to wish everyone a happy and safe Halloween
To be honest, Im a bit depressed because we arent doing anything for Halloween. Its my favorite holiday besides Christmas. I didnt get to celebrate it when I was a kid because, according to mom and her church, its the devils holiday. Toast promised me wed go ghost hunting this year (weve done this in the past) but that was before he got arrested and stopped being able to drive. So, well just be staying here and watching Supernatural 
Oh well, theres always next year.
Oh, and heres some more practice eyes
I wanted to wish everyone a happy and safe Halloween
To be honest, Im a bit depressed because we arent doing anything for Halloween. Its my favorite holiday besides Christmas. I didnt get to celebrate it when I was a kid because, according to mom and her church, its the devils holiday. Toast promised me wed go ghost hunting this year (weve done this in the past) but that was before he got arrested and stopped being able to drive. So, well just be staying here and watching Supernatural Oh well, theres always next year.Oh, and heres some more practice eyes
