I do not blog often. But I tend to blog at memorable moments in my life. I have a child on the way. My wife and I are going to have a little girl in early September. I have a new job. I graduated college and while I don't yet have a job in my field the job I'm going to have will still be my highest paying job yet. I also recently started dreaming again or at least remembering my dreams again. I don't know what the change has been but it's neat to dream. I hope to keep it up since I've started keeping a dream journal.

What species overpopulates it's environment in such a way as to ruin it because it ignores that there is a finite amount of resources and holds it's own survival above the survival of the environment in which it lives in despite the fact that it needs the environment to survive? We do. Humanity makes the mistake of holding social norms and the status quo above the greater good for it's own prolonged survival. May we learn before it is too late. I don't mean to sound cold but aside from a mass loss of human life I don't see how humanity as a whole and it's environment can continue to survive for any prolonged amount of time. There are many reasons and causes but the root problem lies with our own attitude. Humanity in general is uncomfortable with change in socially awkward or uncomfortable situations and really in life. We're also far too capitalist and materialist living extravagant lives because we can. Buy, consume that's all I've grown up knowing at least here in America. We are encouraged every single day innumerable times a day to buy things. All sorts of things. The majority of these things are made from or influenced by oil. Instead of trying to find realistic alternatives to energy, and materials which can sufficiently replace plastics and other oil produced items we continue to use them at an ever increasing and ever alarming rate. People have never been encouraged to slow population growth to help the environment or as a response to a lack of resources in the environment; except in rare and infrequent periods in history such as instances I'm aware of in China's history. This topic is difficult to approach for me because I'm a hypocrite of it. I want to have children and yet simultaneously I feel I must discourage population growth in general because it has to happen for the greater good of humanity. Simply put I strictly believe that no matter what if humanity continues to grow and use resources the same way we are fucked. A finite amount of resources + an ever increasing population = a time period in which a lot of death will occur due to a lack of resources. There can be no other outcome without change from the current way of thinking or a significant change in technology to compensate or change the outcome. If you have thoughts on what I've mentioned or ideas on how to help fix it I'm open to ideas. But we can't exactly promote genocide and humans are naturally inclined to be selfish and help each other no matter how counter productive it may be to our overall survival, but other then a having a brutal/cold solution/attitude toward humans/humanity in general I don't have any logical solutions to this problem.

Great news! I've saved up enough money finally to afford the tickets to Ireland and back for my fiance and I to go there after we're married in June. It is to be our honeymoon/vacation sort of thing. I have strong Irish roots in my family tree and so I have always wanted to see the Emerald Isle for myself. I've always wanted to go home (ancestrally). It seems now I have the means to do so. There is still a great deal to be accomplished before we actually go though. We still need passports and a plan for when we get there as far as what we're going to do, where we're going to stay, and what we're going to eat.

Just another day in the life.....This semester will be wrapping up soon and once again I'm thinking of finding work to help save for my wedding. But do the distractions never cease?! At least I'm not spending all of my time/money on drugs......even though I'd like the time/money to do them.....Oh psychedelics how you do tempt me. I have a love affair with colors. Oh well. On a side not I'm also thinking about internships and how best to get the internships I need to graduate out of the way while still giving me good experiences to go off of so that I may further my goals after college. We're thinking of getting married June 11, 2011 and having our honeymoon in Ireland. I've saved enough so far that I have at least one ticket paid for....I'm afraid without an actual job I may not be able to come up with the money by then, but that hasn't stopped me with finding ways to make money thus far so perhaps I'm just nervous at the concept of failure. I should simply find work when I can to ease my stress regarding the issue but I find it hard to push myself to find work knowing that I feel as though I have very little time these days as it is. It would only be temporary anyway though and the extra money would potentially mean extra fun money. I wish I could more easily find work in my field through private conversation/need. Like I wish I could simply post an add on Craigslist for graphic design work and people would be like....hey yo...design this for this circumstance and I'd be like ok....and then they'd pay me.....ya......but that's not really world works most of the time I suppose.

Also more Walking Dead is premiering tonight which is awesome. I should check out the graphic novel my friends have been telling me about. Oh and the new WoW expansion comes out soon....should be interesting.

I made this and I would appreciate it if anyone who stumbles on it watches it....like the whole thing...and comments on it....maybe lets me know if they think it sucks or is reasonably entertaining. Assuming this link works...

Trippy Tetragammatron

So...hoping to psychoflip soon.....ya....have the Sid stashed away but the boomers aren't ready yet.... I grow impatient.

I had a fucking great acid trip yesterday. I think I'm going to psycho flip next weekend.

Happy Birthday to my fiance: Liz today. 420 was a sweet party, and other then that it has been awhile since my last entry. Too many other things going on for me to pay attention to such things most of the time. Since my last entry I have probably done more psychedelics both volume and type, and I will soon do more. I've done boomers twice and CID on 3 separate occasions although I only count 2 of those really because one of them was simply one tab and just one tab was really barely tripping at all. I think tomorrow I might by hanging out with my friend Molly for the first time.

So ya I've had a pretty fucking amazing week. Last Sunday met a girl named Liz working at Starbucks. I was tipsy and thought she was cute so I look over to my friend and kinda mutter something like, "hey watch this". So me with my liquid confidence asks her, "hey watcha doing after work?". She says something about going to a bar called The Mousetrap and proceeds to write down her number for me. So later that night we go to the bar and she's there. I proceed to pretty much spend the rest of the time there with her and my friend listening to music and talking. I kiss her good night when she leaves and call her the next day. Since that day I've seen her everyday and it's just been pretty amazing. I have so much in common with her it's like we're in each others head and we've only known each other a week. It promises to be a pretty awesome relationship.

Nothing to exciting going on. No big surprise there. I've found myself a downloading fiend of late. I'm usually somewhat into anime but it's not something I watch consistently. I go in phases. However with the power of the internet I've recently found myself distracted with several animes. Finally got around to watching Death Note. It's pretty dam good....has a lot of intellect in it. I like that. I also downloaded FLCL just because I fuckin' love that anime. I found some anime's that looked interested but I haven't had a chance to watch them yet. I also found one called Gantz, one called Serial Experiments - Lain: Navi, one called Elfen Lied, and one called Berserk. We'll see how I like them.

Beautiful thing about downloading is if you don't like it you can delete it and if you really really like it you can buy it. Which is why I think pirating should legally be handled like roms and emulators which are completely legal to download and use as long as you don't keep them after like 24 or 48 hours. On the other hand unless they search your computer it's not like they'd know whether or not you still had it and thus the problem Is suppose would not be eliminated. Although realistically even with pirating I've heard (although I don't know) that many the entertainment industry has not suffered much loss in profits because a lot of people are like myself in theory. They download things to use as a preview or they download things to keep that they wouldn't normally buy anyway. Thus the entertainment industry isn't losing money most the time because a lot of people will either be not buying the same things they wouldn't be buying anyway or they are still buying the same things they probably would have anyway; they're just previewing first to make sure they wanted it.