I'm selling stufff... SEXY stuff!
Alright, one sexy thing and one every day thing, but they're both awesome things and someone should buy them! You can find them here.
Thank you.

Shocking news: I'm really happy. Well, I'll go with "rather content".

I know, it's been a while, right? I'm feeling at ease, relaxed, flirtatious, confident, etc. I'm hanging out with old friends, meeting new ones, and just having an all around good time. My new job is somewhat stressful, but I'm getting used to it. I made a nice little dinner for myself tonight, real simple but yummy (spaghetti with sauce that I put peas in... I know, super impressive). I don't know why such a small thing can make me feel nice, but I've gotten into cooking over the past few months. I haven't felt this good in ages. So there's that.

I had an awesome 4th! There was a basement show and a few parties. I'm all bruised from getting drunk and ridiculous while Battlemaster played. I don't have any pictures from the night, but I had a really good time and it seemed that everyone else around me did too. I guess this is made more impressive by the fact that everyone else always seems to have a rad time on independence day and mine tend to turn out being kinda lacking in the "whoopdie dooooo!!!" department.

I guess I don't have much else to update on, aside from some upcoming shows. Tomorrow there's a local show with Revocation and To the Wolves; on friday it's At the Gates with Toxic Holocaust and Municipal Waste; saturday it's Cocaine Tongue, my friends' Guns and Roses tribute band at a bar that I may or may not be banned from .

A bunch of other stuff here and there, probably, blah blah blah and THEN OMGHOLYFUCK...



CARCASS!!!

I can't tell you how happy I am about this. I'll be at both the MA and NY dates, it's gonna be an awesome weekend *knocks on wood, stares down Meros1*

Unrelated:


Yep. Fun times over here. Off to sew up a shirt and watch some of the Planet Earth series. Limeade will most likely also be involved.

OH SHIT, WAIT!!!

As you may or may not know, I've been kinda into WoW for the last year (sometimes more than others, I go through phases like mad). However, years before this mild addiction, I was pretty much on intimate terms with Diablo II (expansion... duh). So, as I'm sure you fellow geek-oids and/or gamers can imagine, I nearly pissed my pants to find that DIABLO III has been announced! My life of partying and going to shows will be over from the day I get my hands on this. Ha ha, yeah right.

Wisdom teeth are out. I look like a damn retarded chipmunk and my whole head is sore as hell. I stayed in all weekend eating ice cream and other soft foods (I actually had eggs and toast... veeeerrrry sloooooowwwwwlllly) watching the Planet Earth series which I borrowed from someone else. I'm thinking of picking it up for myself, I really enjoyed it quite a bit.

I'm already sick of glasses. I want contacts. I keep forgetting to take a picture.

This video has two of my favorite things, although I feel bad for the bunny:


I think I'm going to become addicted to Etsy like so many others. This is a problem as I have very little money to spend. We shall see.

Back to icing my face like there is no tomorrow.

Thanks to everyone who offered advice, comfort, support, etc. regarding my last post, it really does mean a lot to me even if I don't respond to you. I'm pretty horrible at that, but I have my moments.

I think I like the structure of that post, just a list of things on my mind, so I'll try to stick with it.

I'm sick with a cold. Next week is April and last night it was fucking 26 degrees out. What the hell? I hate New England. Really. People joke about living here in the winter makes them feel "grim and frostbitten" and as much as I love Immortal, seriously... fuck it. I'm so not into it.
Also, my tummy hurts and its lame.

I want to take a nap but I feel so shitty that I can't.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth out next week. Over $1,000 WITH coverage. What the hell is that? And they only cover it if I'm out for the surgery, and they won't let you do that if you come on your own, so I'll have to have someone take me. I'm so going to enjoy being sore and broke.

I hate my car. It's so old. As I'm getting older, I notice that I'm looking around at other people in their newer, nicer cars and getting jealous more often. I used to like driving places, just driving around for the fun of it, but I feel like I can't or shouldn't for fear it's going to break down. Plus, the radio/tape deck is fucked and I feel getting a new one for it would be a pointless investment.

I went to go see my friends' Guns and Roses cover band Cocaine Tounge last night. I always love seeing them, they're so much fun to watch. Admittedly, I've never been the biggest G'n'R fan but they do such a good job it's hard not to adore them. I'll try to post their shows in the SGBoston group when they play in the city, I know a bunch of people came out and enjoyed themselves when I did before. It was nice seeing StopSnitchin, as well. He was far less drunk this time

Feeling so crappy today, I've been on the computer for hours and took the time to go through my sets and read the comments. I really like how you can't see the oodles and oodles of "I loved it"s cluttering page after page. I don't mind that technically it lowers the comment count, I'd rather see what people actually have to say. I appreciate every single one of those comments.

I missed Sanctum when they came around recently. You can color me bummed.

How many times have I said I was going to MDF and didn't end up going? I feel like I'm doomed to continue this pattern.

I'm hoping to visit Glassheart in June. I miss her a lot.

I'm finally getting glasses! They aren't the cutest, but whatevs.

Alright, off to drink OJ and be pissed off.

This might not make a whole hell of a lot of sense, but fuck if that's gonna stop me from typing this out.

I used to write poetry. I used to be really passionate about it. Anything creative or artsy... I was driven.

I've lost that.

I wake up, put on a button up shirt, dress pants and heels and go to work. Make sure to get my fruits and veggies and drink lots of water (fuck the haters), hang out, watch a movie, and go to sleep.

Something has got to change. I want my drive back. I want my energy and inspiration back. Eating better is helping (makes sense, after years of hardcore cookie and ice cream abuse, right?) but I'm not there yet. I'm in a slump. I've been in this slump for what feels like years. I've got shirts that need sewing that I don't want to sew. I've got paintings that need paint that I don't feel like putting the effort into. I'm depressed, but I don't always feel it... then it hits me and it hurts so bad.

I do feel like I'm getting better at life. I've learned a lot, and am still learning, but I'm keeping more focused and not letting things get to me. I'm less awkward and less obnoxious. I feel better about myself and I like the improvements I feel I'm making. I'm trying to patch up relationships I've ruined by acting like a jackass because I was sad/mad/scared/whatever.

I'm still listening to Queensrÿche. Especially this song...



I have an appointment to get my wisdom teeth looked at so at least one can get taken out. The sooner the better, my jaw is killing me.

I want to read more.

I need new pants. I have two pairs of jeans and a skirt. No, I'm not counting work clothes.

I want more tattoos, I have a few planned, but I don't know if I should get the one on my tummy first or start working on the sleeve to go with the existing tattoo on my upper left arm. I'm not asking for your opinions on this matter, just thinking out loud... in text form.

I want to go back to school

I need to get my hair done professionally. It will be the first time in years as each time I try some place, even a reputable establishment, it gets all sorts of fucked up and I hate it hate it hate it and swear not to let anyone but me touch my hair for another few years. We'll see if I'm doomed to continue this pattern, I guess.

I want a puppy. A Welsh Corgi. Cardigan or Pembroke, either will do... as long as the puppy itself rocks.

I want to like salad more.

I need to start working out. I keep saying I will but I never do. Simply running around a huge-ass building all day isn't keeping me in good enough shape.

I should go to sleep. So I will.

Alright, I NEVER do this... but I figured what the hell?

There's a contest at I Can Has Cheezburger for best poker themed picture. The prize is a trip for two to Las Vegas for a weekend. I figured I might as well, and you can enter as many times as you want... so I made three

If you would be so kind as to vote for one of mine, that would be rad. I never enter any contests because I've always had the worst luck with stuff like this, but it's a site I go to every day so I thought I'd give it a whirl.

Here are the entries, click the picture to go to the page where you can vote...

Alright, that's that.

I'm so excited about MDF! Since 2003 I've been saying "alright, this year I'm gonna go!" but I've actually never made it for one reason or another. This year, though, there's no way I'm missing out. Such an awesome line up and I get to see a bunch of people I miss that I haven't seen since the summer.

Some bands I've been pretty much surviving on lately, with myspace links for your convenience...

Jesu - Doomy industrialy awesomeness. Specifically the songs Friends are Evil, Dead Eyes, Wolves, and Tired of Me.

Queensrÿche - I get laughed at for this, but fuck it, I'm addicted. The four songs I have on repeat are Jet City Woman, I Don't Believe in Love (video from a couple entries back), Walk in the Shadows, and Eyes of a Stranger.

Ludicra - Progressive Black Metal? Grey Metal? Whatever, it's awesome and I tend to keep the album Another Great Love Song on repeat.

Wolves in the Throne Room - I'm usually not that into newer black metal like this, but these guys do it so well! It's ambient and lovely as well as desperate and harsh. Their album Two Hunters is stellar.

Stormcrow - Heavy, sometimes kinda doomy, metal/punk. I can't give you any specific recommendations because every god damn song is fucking awesome. Check them out... often.

I think I say "awesome" too much.

I hope all of you are well, I'm doing a bit better, myself