Ah I can't wait till Sweeney Todd comes out. Johnny Depp= haha. He also = a lol. Anyways, the crazy thing is Sweeney Todd was an actual person. The musical and the movie are a more embellished story of his life. They're not really based exactly on his life, but they're certainly about him. Crazy people in England. haha Jack the Ripper anyone? Most people would say ohh but he only killed prostitutes, haha they're still people....Hey johnny depp was in From Hell that's suppose to be about Jack the Ripper. haha, I liked that movie it was good. This is an interesting site Crime Library Read up on some interesting stuff. Grave Robbers and such lol. William Burke & William Hare, killed people for Cadavers? Geez. Craziness. Anyways that's enough reading for today.
I was having a conversation yesterday about Phantom of the Opera. A lot of people say the original phantom was and is the best phantom....but i refuse to believe Michael Crawford is the best phantom...Hell to the NO! lol...idk if any of you know who i'm talking about...but oh well...im a POTO nerd. Anyways personally Gerard Butler in the 2004 is the best phantom...yes i know he didn't do the actual show, but i bet he would've kicked ass. The Phantom is suppose to be sensual, sexy, mysterious all those words =Gerard Butler (if you don't know who that is, shame, shame, he's king lionitous in 300...idk how to spell it lol) Michael crawford...oh god no...
I mean look at the difference...first one is Gerard Butler, the second is Michael Crawford.


Does that look sexy to you? EEK!

Just got home. Hadn't seen my best friend for atleast a month probably. I forgot how big of dorks we are together. So tonight we got some Starbucks, my passion ice tea, his ice machiato with cinnamon...headed to Wal-Mart (this one is open 24hrs.) Looked around, I think AJ bought the whole store...lol no j.k. Smog machine, pumpkin cutter tools, old spice, shavers?, and two movies. I bought...ZIP. We drove around, he deposited some money...at Bank of America (horrible bank) haha. Then we drove to Colony High (our old HS) just to reminisce. Funny how one of our old friends Terry seem to have had the same idea. Miss that fool. We saw him chatted for a bit, and then he had to go. Me and AJ just sat there, thinking...

How crazy how the years just seem to fly, and how we're getting older. AJ talked about how hes going to be moving out with his B/f not right now...but eventually...we both seem to agree on one thing...Although we're going to school, going to work, and our social lives are good. There's something missing.

We're not satisfied with our jobs. We're not doing what we love, and we're tired of waiting.

Personally,
I want to be doing what I love, I want to be working for a newspaper or magazine already. I'm not at where I want to be fast enough. Maybe thats why so many people drop out of school they just give up. I'm not doing what I really want to do, that's why although everything seems great that one thing that's missing is my career as a writer. It seems all I do is work and go to school and when I have free time I want to spend it with the people i care about, (i barely have enough time for that) and any other time is sleep time. This is the only form of writing i have left. My blogs. It's just so frustrating, I can see it, my goal...but when i reach out, it seems a billion miles away. I miss journalism. It would be different if my job had something to do pertaining to my field. Atleast something.

Today's Cosmo Horoscope says:

YOUR HOROSCOPE FOR OCTOBER 4, 2007
You might be irritable under moody Mars,
but channeling Neptune's laid-back influence helps
you avoid a silly argument with someone close today.
hmmm....

P.S. i just realize i totally had my PJ's on backwards LMAO.

I'm feeling a lot better today I still have somewhat of a headache. But i haven't been "tossing my cookies."
So I have work today I'm only sad because the service deli trainer is going to be there and she's a big um how do you say "biotch?" lol. Yes, she's mean. It just makes me nervous. I guess they put extra cameras in the service deli according to Siera(my fav co worker) because someone has been stealing money for the cash register....yikes! I think we all knowwho that would be....(Cough, Cough) Jen... lol. They just need to fire her, i'm sorry but she doesn't do shit, and she tries to boss everyone else around. She's been there for a year, you would think she'd know how to do her shit now. I've been in the service deli for two months now...and I do more of my work then her. I don't lie on the temperature logs, i actually temp the chicken, i do everything according to the book...she does like 45% according to the book, that's not good enough when you're working with food. You could actually accidentally kill someone if you don't do something right. She leaves me for hour lunches, i'm like wtf? It's suppose to be 30mins woman. 30 not 60 mins. Not to mention she brings all her fucking drama to work, and all her friends come and bug at work, and shes like brb i'm gonna take my 10, she takes a 20....i'm like yeah sure. whatever. But i guess finally someone upfront has been noticing that she takes too many breaks. lol probably because whenever they come to count the drawers im all by myself trying to help a shit load of customers. Anyways, we'll see how today goes! I hope that if or when i go back to Northridge and go back to my old ralphs i get put back in coffee bean cause i miss it, that or fuck promote me to a cashier, even bakery would be cool.
p.s. On the brightside everything seems to be going great beside...loser co-worker.
School, is school, as good as its gonna get. lol. Family is their usual dramatic selves, and Bf<3 Is wonderful

Woke up this morning feeling like crap.
Upchuckd to put it nicely, about 6 times.
Worse feeling in the world, as of this moment.
Ate some oatmeal. I'm hoping i don't "toss my cookies,"
No more eating crap. not literally lol. Atleast i still
have a sense of humor. I'm going on a diet, for multiple
reasons, but mainly because i never want to feel this
way EVER again. Bring on the veggies. Not right now...later
food sounds disgusting at the moment.
Eyuck. = how i feel.
Hope that I don't have food poisoning.
Love all you.
peace.

P.S. it sucks I have school all day today...I guess i'm bringing a trash bag, some listerine, and water....fuck.

Happy October! The months just seem to be flying by it's so crazy. Last night at around 3:45am i woke up with a pounding headache...but the worst part is it was only on the left side. So there was all this pressure, and when i tried to walk around it was like i was drunk and i felt like i was going to fall over. I tried looking for advil but i couldn't find any...I did have a bottle of some hard core drugs but that probably would have knocked me out for like a whole day. lol. I think it's my wisdom teeth finally growing in...i should probably check that. haha maybe? lol Let see no exciting stories for today, atleast not yet my friends. There's always something happening to me. haha, I should have a show instead of the Truman show it'll be the Vanessa show....it doesn't quite have that special ring to it but oh well. haha I'm sad that i have to wait till May to see the cure...instead of just waiting like two more weeks. I still remember when i bought that ticket for the cure, i was so happy, i ran outside of my apt...back when i was still in Northridge...and i was jumping up and down screaming i get to see the cure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, it was even funnier to see the look on peoples faces when they walked by they were like wtf is wrong with this girl? Robert Smith = hehehe. Anyways, i'm going to go enjoy my day off buying stuff with money i have but should save. lol Sooooo, take care ya'll. Byes.

So Knotts was awesome. It wasn't even scary really to be honest. The only scary part was when i wore my 3-D glasses because I couldn't fuckin see anything! lol And then they would fog up...it was HOT in some of the mazes. I think it would have been funner if more of our friends would've gone. I've never seen so many fucking scene kids in my life in one place...not even any of the concerts ive been to. lol. There were couples everywhere I was like GOSH you guys suck! lol I missed you Ryan. Krystle got really scared during the doll maze....it was pretty demented...and they played the music from dead silence....that's the only part that scared me, the music was creepy. I was like wtf!? LOG ride was AWESOME! lol. Me and Krystle went home early, we were both pretty hungry and sorta tired...i needed a MONSTER (energy drink). lol.
Today I went to Chuckiee Cheese for my little nephews bday, he's 7 now....i remember when he was born....it makes me feel old! lol. I forgot how good, but greasy as hell their pizza is. I was like man this can't be healthy for you haha. My sister went off and played with my 7 year old nephew and she left me to take care of my two year old nephew. I was like ohhh nooo. Haha, little monster. But so cute. All in all it's been a pretty chillax day up until now....I have to go to work. I don't want to go. But oh well...i'll only be there for 4 hours....weirdly. but yeah anyways take care all ttyl.

Knotts Halloween Haunt. Shit i'm scared, I won't lie. lol If there's Zombies there i'm running for the fucking hills! Haha but other than that I should be okay, as long as they don't touch me...cause if they do i'm gonna go on their ass! I told Krystle if i grab her hand or hug her arm not to get TOO excited. lol She's like, and I quote, "Bitch, that's what I was going to tell you, don't get to happy if i hold your hand skank!" Haha can't you feel the love? lol. So we've both agreed that we will carry our cells with us at all times, if by chance we are separated we will call each other, and hope for the best! lol I can just imagine getting lost...
"Vanessa where the hell are you?"
"I'm by the wall!"
"WHAT WALL!?"
"The one with...shit...uh..idk...it's by this thing..."
"Bitch that tells me nothing.."
HAHA...I'm wearing my good shoes tonight, I have a feeling i'm going to be running away from some chainsaws...or insane people.

My first real relationship. Sure i've dated guys, even dated someone online (lol never do....especially if they're not in the same state as you.) I've referrred to someone as my Ex...but he was never really mine. I've never actually been in a "normal" lol relationship. Or a serious one. But September 28th, 2007 (today haha) I am officially in a normal, real, sweet, relationship. And the best part is, he gets me...understands me. And after understanding me, he still wants to be with me (haha no i'm not crazy). I've just never felt like anyone understood me, or thought of me as anything special (not to make this a emo blog lol) Cause i am very
"Good Enough"
By Evanescence... Read the lyrics... it's actually a very happy song....most of hers are sad.
But that describes how I feel.

Good Enough

Yet another day of work. There's a helicopter that keeps circling outside, I think they're looking for somebody because they've been circling for a while now. Todays Friday! Payday! Oh that's what's nice about working at a grocery store...you get paid every week instead of every two weeks...well atleast that's how it is at Ralphs...i'm assuming that's how it is at other stores. I hate Telemarketers...if it wasnt because my sister needs the internet for her (I have a Wi-fi) i'd tell my parents to disconnect the home phone...because no one but telemarketers call. And it's rather annoying hearing the phone ring every few minutes. lol It makes me want to pick it up and cuss them out. But that's not very nice. Life seems good right now, school is good, work is...work, and my "love life" is good I guess i'm just scared of that plunge. Life seems to be going good, or to good...and you're just waiting for that bad...like a Rollercoaster up and down....but then again this whole past year has been a downward plunge...maybe for once this is my uphill... Just some thoughts. A passion ice tea sounds really good right now.