I'm really fucking happy.
Fuck, I can't even begin to describe this. I try to write about things like this but I never can. I'm terrible when it comes to verbalizing things, but the thoughts keep running around my brain like a crazed baboon in a tiny cage.

The last 24 hours have been utterly amazing. And in all honesty, not even the last 24 have been that exciting, but it's been the last 13 or so. Not to say that the last 24 haven't been good as well. I've had fun joking around with Aaron, Celia and Miles the entire time. This was different.

Last night Celia and I just laid in bed and talked. We joked around, we shared things..just laying in bed with this amazing woman. Good side story? Today we've been going out a month, so I wanted to take her out to dinner tonight (We're gonna go to Lark) and I mentioned afterwards we should go to Gas Works Park or something..she said not there..we'd see undesirables there. Like a man in a top hat, green and pink pig tails, fishnet shirt, floor length trench coat, and big combat boots. At this point I say "Wait...does he do a lot of drugs?" "Yeah, he actually deals a lot" "Oh ok. He sold Keith acid randomly. That's a pretty descriptive description of someone. I was sure it was him. Sometime Keith, Andrew and I went to Andrews friends house, and he was there, and Keith bought some acid from him, just this stranger. So, I call up Keith at 1 am, and ask him his name, and Bingo. It was him. Celia used to date him. Chances of that? Pretty fucking small. It made our fucking night.

But even then..just staying up joking with her, and talking to her. I love this girl. I'm truly and utterly in love with this woman. Head over heals ("or heels over head, because that means you're fucking a bitch" -quote from a 15 yearold at iron maiden), Twitter pated, smittin what ever word choice you may choose.

And firsts. I can't even begin to say how amazing firsts can be. Sure, every other time can be just as amazing. But just making stupid mistakes, that you don't regret, because they're so phenomenal.

Then today just got better, and it's not even done.
Getting a call at 11 from her saying she's got a long break, until 2 (which doesn't ever happen) because they're overstaffed where she works. So I imply I might stop by with some lunch, so I grab Bagels, Cookies, and some Water and head up there and have lunch with her, and it was gooooood. It's memories like today, that I may not always remember as one of our best days or anything like that, years from now it may all blur together. However, it's days like these, the days like blur together and when you think back you think how good it was, how amazing. Because it was just, well, amazing, no amazing reason. We just talked, and had fun, danced to bad music and walked around her property in the sun.

I couldn't stop smiling when I was up there. I was so unbelievably happy. And those who know me close know that I'm a pretty happy-go-lucky guy, so to say she makes me happy isn't fair, I'm almost always happy. But as Daniel would put it in D&D/WoW terms, she adds a +15 happy when in close proximity. I didn't remember what being so happy felt like from being around another human being. It's a unique experience, and one I had long forgotten. I left and drove home with a shit-eating grin on my face the entire time. I can't fucking stand it, it's cheesy as all shit.

I love this girl, and it's only been a month. I feel like I'm and idiot for letting this happen, for falling for her so damn fast, but I can't help it. She's amazing.